Summary: You met Bucky in the club and you both got along pretty well.
The music was as loud as thunder; it made the cutlery on the tabletops rattle. Neon lights flashed everywhere like police sirens, but much more colorful. Bucky was sitting at the bar sipping on his whiskey and casually looking around. When you stepped in, his gaze fell on you. He checked out your body and bit his lower lip; you were so beautiful, full of grace and young charm that his heart skipped a bit within second.
You took a seat at one of the high bar chairs, you crossed your legs nicely. You ordered a drink with vodka and orange juice and when a bartender handled it to you, you politely thanked taking a sip.
“Hey, gorgeous.”
You cocked your brow turning head around. “Hey.”
Bucky was glancing at you liting his cigarette. “Do I know you? I have a feeling we did meet somewhere.”
You were even more confused then before. “I don’t think so.”
He raised his mouth corner in a wry smile. “Maybe I was wrong,” he smirked, “nevermind. I’m Bucky.”
You nodded slowly sipping on your drink. “Y/N,” you answered. “Nice to meet you, Bucky,” you reached hand toward him. Bucky took it and shook it slightly.
For a while there was a confusing silence between you two. Finally, Bucky has broke these silence.
“What such a beautiful lady is doing up here, completely alone, huh?” He asked, ending his drink and ordering another one. “I just had a rough day,” you were honest. “I just wanted to go out and have some drink or few.” He let out a soft giggle. “Same here, doll. Exactly the same.” You winked at him with a bright smile on your lips. “So, taking we both are here, alone… Would you mind to get along a bit?” Bucky smiled widely nodding. “With a pleasure, Y/N” man said.
You both had few drinks. You were talking about miscellaneous topics enjoying your common presence.
“Hey, let’s dance,” Bucky offered getting up from his chair. “We have to lit the dance floor a bit!” Giggling, you nodded. “Sure.” He offered you his hand and it was when you noticed the metal arm. You hesitated. “Bucky…” you whispered covering your mouth. “Your arm…” “Hush, doll. It’s alright,” he said softly leading you to the dance floor. “But, Bucky!” You were tipsy a bit and you really got terrified about him. “You’ve been hurt..”
You both got on the dance floor. No one could see the dance floor, it’s wall to wall people dancing to the club music. There was no room for any more but somehow when Bucky and you hit it the space magically came. You were dancing like it was jive, twisting, turning, holding hands as we change sides. You both were all grins, you looked like idiots but you did’t care. “I have never had so much fun while dancing, Y/N!” Bucky smirked at you when you both were dancing together being hugged to each other. When DJ started a new set, you turned around letting Bucky’s hands rest over your hips from behind. He took a hold of them and you both were rocking together. You rolled your hips slowly from side to side and Bucky was so close to you pressing his chest to your back.
At the end of the night the dance floor was like an abused chess board. On it’s black and white squares were spilled drinks and broken glass. You and Bucky stayed until the staff asked you to leave the club.
Giggling and laughing, you got out and were waiting for a taxi to arrive.
Bucky puffed on his cigarette. “You know, Y/N. I’ve never, like really never, had such an amazing time like tonight,” he smiled, having his metal hand wrapped around your waist. You were leaning over him nuzzling to his chest and inhaling his scent. “Me either, baby.”
You glanced briefly at his metal hand. “So? Can you explain me this?” You pointed at his metal limb.
Bucky rolled his eyes laughing. “Sure. Like you wish, doll. I was a soldier. Many years ago. I was on the mission with my team and shit happened,” he let out a sad laugh. “I’ve lost my arm there. But I don’t like to remember that time, ya know?”
You nodded quietly. “Yes, Bucky. I completely understand. But, can I be honest?”
Bucky looked down at you. “Yes. Sure, Y/N.” You smirked. “It suits you. You look wild and alluring.”
Bucky smiled again and leant down kissing you passionately. You blinked but gave kiss back humming happily.
“But will you tell me the whole story…” you started after the kiss, but he only giggled and kissed you again. “One day, maybe.” Bucky ended his cigarette, and when the taxi came, he opened the door for you. “Thank you for the evening, Y/N.” You got to the car but when you were about to ask him about his number, Bucky closed the door and the driver pressed the gas driving away. “NO, NO, NO!” you screamed but there was no room for the taxi to turn around. You looked back over your shoulder and you saw how Bucky was walking slowly on the opposite way along the street.
A tear ran down your cheek as you already were missing the guy. You reached to the pocket for your wallet and then you narrowed your brows. You pulled a wallet and something else. A little piece of paper. You laughed happily wiping tear away. It was nothing else but his number written there slapdash. And one short sentence. CALL ME, XOXO
A/N: @thepaperpanda – this is for your Colorful Writing Challenge.
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SUMMARY: Bucky was hurt by you.You’ve cheated on him with his best friend. Will he prevail his anger and forgive you?
A/N: Hi. This story is written for @thepaperpanda and their writing challenge. My prompt was white. Thank you for allowing me to take part in this challenge ♥
WORD COUNT: 1117
You saw that disbelief in Bucky’s eyes when he was standing on the threshold of your bedroom glancing at you on Steve’s laps.
He was deeply hurt, you could easily feel it. Being his girlfriend has taught you a lot, most that when you’ll mess with him, he won’t forget and you’ll pay, sooner or later for what you’ve done against him.
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Summary: Bucky got into an argument with you. But good thing is he realized his mistake rather quickly.
Words: 813 (it’s short, sorry guys!)
AN: I made this little drabble for the best squad I’ve ever met. @thepaperpanda ~ guys, I ❤ you and thank you for the opportunity you had given me by your writing challenge. All the love to ya!
Bucky was at the office on the one of important team meetings. You were there also, taking you were working for Tony Stark as his personal assistant.
Tony dispensed some folders to each of team members. “Take a look at our new guidelines. I’ve decided to introduce a few changes into our previous regulations.”
Bucky exchanged surprised looks with Captain. “Wait, wait, wait. What?” Rogers asked frowning and shaking hia head angrily. “Why you didn’t consult this with us before?” Steve growled.
“To be honest I thought it won’t be a problem to you all,” Stark shrugged rolling his eyes. “But as I can see, Mr Rogers has an issue, as always.”
Bucky clenched his metal hand into a fist.
“Oh! Barnes, are you okay?” Stark contorted his lips in a wry grimace.
“Yeah. I am,” Bucky looked briefly at you.
You were sitting next to Tony making a notes from the meeting.
The truth was you and Bucky were meeting since few months. But you had to be very secret about it. You knew how Tony would react if he would find out. Besides, Bucky didn’t want to make himself any additional problems.
You threw him a mean look and Bucky turned his eyes away. This moment didn’t run of Tony’s attention, however he said nothing.
“Next time, consult such things with rest of the team before you will make them official, is that clear?” Steve asked firmly. He also looked at you. You ran your glace away.
Tony was silent for a bit, then he nodded insensibly. “Yes,” he agreed.
After the meeting, while you were walking along the corridor in the Tower, Bucky caught you up. “What the hell was that, doll?” He questioned out loudly. “Who does he think he is!?”
“Buck…” You started quietly, “don’t ask me. He’s my boss. I don’t have any influence at his decisions,” you explained shortly. “But that doesn’t mean I agree with him.”
“You cold make a statement, but you rather wanted to stay silent about things, huh, Y/N?” He lowered his strong voice while speaking to avoid others to hear your argument.
You cocked brews and took a step back. “What’s that? Why are you accusing me?” You whispered. “You know I would do everything for you.. For us..”
“He again made a fool from Steve,” Bucky crossed arms over his chest.
“Hah, so that’s the reason?! Steve. Great Captain. Friendship before love, huh?!” This time it was way too much for you to handle. You raised your voice, almost yelling.
Bucky growled deeply, turned around, and rushed back toward staircase. He stopped after few steps, and looked at you above his shoulder. “Maybe you like him more than you like me? But like you wish, go to him! Go ahead! If you want to be his puppy on the leash and obey his every word, no problem. It’s your shitty decision, Y/N!” He went away leaving you in a shock in the middle of the corridor.
So this was the real problem between you two. Bucky was jealous.
After the work you came back home, and got changed in some casual clothes. You decided to go out for a little jogging. You were living in the nice district at the suburbs. It was a calm and great place to live in, and you were enjoying that fact.
When you were running through near park, you heard your phone ringing. You ait on the bench and pull your phone out of the pocket, and answered the incoming call.
“Hallo?”
“Hi, Y/N.” It was no one else but Bucky.
“Sup?” You weren’t in mood for a conversations.
“Listen, doll, I wanna apologize.” Ok. It was something new and completely unexpected. “I judged you wrong, I should know how does it work.”
“Yes. Indeed.” You rolled your eyes but little smile appeared on your face. You were proud of him. It was a very first time when Bucky admitted that he made a mistake.
“Please, forgive me, I love you,” he muttered softly. “Don’t be mad at me any longer..”
For few seconds you remained silent, but then giggled and agreed.
“Yes. I forgive you.”
“Thank you, Y/N.” You heard a happiness in his voice. “And.. By the way. I really do admire your pretty butt in that tight leggings.”
You blinked and quickly got up from the bench looking around. How huge was your astonishment when you saw Bucky sitting few benches away from you.
You lauged and walked to him. Man got up also and wrapped his arms around your waist. His smile etched its way back into his face. His body was warm and toned as he hugged you, comforting to the touch. His voice was deep, with an serious tone. His lips brushed your ear as he spoke.
“I really do love you, Y/N.”
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Commander of his heart ~ James Barnes x Reader romantic one shot
Words: 1400
A/N: It’s just some fluffy/romantic story for my lovely Pandas & their challenge! @thepaperpanda
Summary: Action takes place before events from World War II. Bucky & Reader have a romantic dinner, but what happens later make Reader happy like never before.
You put on red dress to your knees and black high hills. You make your hair into a braid and check yourself in a mirror for one last time. Smokey eyes, red lips, contoured eyebrows. You can admit you look sexy. You also hope HE’S GONNA LIKE IT.
You are ready for your date with the most incredible and interesting man you know. James Barnes.
You arrive on the place before the time. You are a perfectionist and you are always on the time.
You have a long black coat on you, it’s a chilly evening on Brooklyn.
When you hear footsteps nearby, your muscles tense.
It only deepens when a pair of familiar hands is placed on your shoulders.
“Excuse me, ma’am, you got lost?” Strong voice whispers straight into your ear.
You feel a shiver running down your spine, and you smile in the darkness of the street.
“Maybe. Do you want to help me find a proper way?” You reach your hand back to stroke his nape.
You hear him purring deeply.
“Your ask is my command, ma’am,” he giggles softly turning you around to face him.
And you melt within a second only by looking him in the eyes.
James is ao handsome and you literally can’t take your eyes of him.
He has short dark hair, but they look so fluffy.
His eyes are in the color of a stormy ocean.
And that smile on his lips…
You feel little weakness in your knees, fortunately he offers you his arm.
“Shall we, doll?” His voice is so deep and you can’t resist, you nod.
“With a pleasure, handsome.”
He takes you to a cosy restaurant.
You’ve been there few times before, and you’re glad he picked this place.
He’s a real gentleman.
First, he takes your coat and his own jacket, he carries them to the cloakroom.
Subsequently, James moves chair backwards for you a bit and push it gently forward shortly after.
He takes a seat in front of you, on the opposite side of the table, that mischievous smile is still present on his lips.
After the waiter took your orders, you smirk at Barnes.
“You look fabulous,” James says, and you know he’s telling the truth.
You blush.
“Thank you, Buck…” In this moment your voice is as soft and quiet as a warm summer breeze.
The waiter brings a bottle of the most expensive champagne.
Bucky waves his hand briefly to give man a signal to go away, so waiter nod and disappears between other guests.
“I’m happy you agreed to meet with me,” he’s still smiling and with every second your heart is melting faster.
You’re playing with lock of your hair playfully.
“How could I say ‘no’, huh?” You wink at him.
Bucky laughs audibly sipping on his champagne. He reaches for your hand above the table and you both tangle fingers together.
Your heart’s skipping a beat strongly in your chest.
“I’ve never met someone like you before, Y/N,” Bucky’s eyes are glistening in the light of lamps hanging under the ceiling. “You’re the best. Smart and beautiful, and yet so shy,” brunette lowers his tone, “it turnes me on.”
He teases the bottom of your hand and you can’t help but chuckle softly.
“Oh, Bucky!” You raise your glass. “To us.”
“To us,” he repeats, then sips his alcohol to the bottom.
The dinner goes amazing.
You both are happy by spending time with each other. You talk and laugh, enjoying meals.
When the orchestra starts playing the waltz, Bucky gets up and asks you to dance.
He has his strong arms wrapped around your waist while one of your hands is placed on his shoulder, and other on the chest.
You nuzzle you cheek to his neck.
“It feels amazing, Bucky,” you whisper. “Thank you for all of this.”
You hear him breathing out loudly.
“No need to thank me. It’s you who made my evening the most wonderful ever.”
Barnes is rocking with you in his muscular arms to the rhythm of the music.
You can give everything to make this moment never end.
You close your eyes and inhale his scent.
He smells splendidly. It’s a mix of nice perfumes, sipped alcohol, cigarettes and something more, which you can’t name, but somewhere in the back of your head this smell is associated with freedom and sense of security.
You both are like that for few next minutes, until the song is over.
Then he leads you back to your table. You end dinner and another bottle of champagne.
“It’s getting late, my dear,” you say with sadness. “I have to go back home. I start work earlier tomorrow, besides I bet you also want to rest a bit before next day on duty, don’t you, soldier?” You slip hand under your chin to rest it on your palm.
Bucky gives a small nod.
“You’re absolutely right, doll. Let’s go.”
You both get outside.
The night is cold, little cloudlets of vapor are exhaled with every word you speak.
“You live close enough so we can take a walk there,” Bucky suggests and you eagerly agree.
He offers you his arm and you take it.
He chooses the walk by the promenade at the Hudson river. You both are walking slowly holding hands.
“I’m so glad we’re together, Bucky,” you say openly when you stop for a while to look at the river illuminated with city lights. “You know, I’ve never had a real relationship. My friends were warning me of you. But I didn’t listen.”
He wraps arm around your waist and pulls you closer to him.
“I’m glad, too. My girl is the most adorable doll in the whole world,” he leans down to you and crushes his lips on yours. He tastes wonderful. You give kiss back.
Bucky looks you deep in the eyes.
“You came down on me like summer rain, wearing nothing but your love Y/N. The shivers I get when you call my name, can’t explain this, Y/N.”
You feel like tears are forming in the corners of your eyes, and one of the run down your rosy cheek. James wipes it with thumb.
Oh, you are so in love with this guy!
“I want to see every sunrise in your eyes, Y/N. I want to see every sunset on your smooth skin,” Bucky caresses your cheeks gently, then he places next lovingly kiss on your lips.
You wrap arms around his neck pulling him deeper into the kiss.
“You’ve changed my life, Buck.”
He smirks and laughs subtly.
Suddenly he takes two steps backwards.
“Bucky?” You ask confused.
The familiar smile is still present on his lips when he reaches to the internal pocket of his jacket. He pulls a little square box, and it’s when your heart stops.
Since that moment you feel like you’d be watching the movie in slow motion.
“BUCKY,” you cover your mouth seeing how man slowly kneels down on one knee.
He opens the box and you can see a beautiful ring with a crystal in your favorite color, namely red.
“We’ve been through a lot for last year, Y/N. You mean a world to me. I want to have you by my side forever. Beside, every soldier needs a commander of heart. Will you grant me this honor and will you marry me, Y/N?”
You feel how your knees get weak, but you manage to keep yourself in a place.
“Bucky… Of course! Of course, my love!”
You give him your hand and he places the ring on your finger. You pull hand to your face to look at it.
“Oh God.. Bucky.. The ring is resplendent! You shouldn’t have…”
He doesn’t let you end your sentence giving you a long passionate kiss.
You purred into it happily.
Bucky accompanies you to your flat to make sure you are safe.
You stand in front of your doors, and you find a courage in yourself. Well. Bucky is now your fiancé, so why not?!
“Will you stay the nigh” You bite your lower lip looking shyly at him, but when you notice sparks in his blue eyes, you’re sure you made a good decision.
“With a pleasure, Y/N,” he responds.
You both get to your flat. You lock the door.
You good know it’s gonna be the best night of your life.
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A/N: story’s been written for @thepaperpanda writing challenge.
Summary: in the stormy night reader visits Bucky to share the fact of finding important files with him.
Words: 1265
The storm has come.
Bucky looked out of the window at the blizzard the weather-man had promised. But it was stronger. He watched as his driveway disappear in the sure knowledge that he’d only have to dig it out again in the morning. When the power winked out he raised his eyes to the heavens with a sigh and went for the flashlight, feeling his way to the cupboard only to find it missing. He vaguely recalled lending it to Sam. With a spark of relief he remembered there was still some life left in his laptop battery. From the light of the screen he could at least do some work. Already the temperature in the house had dropped so much he needed the duvet from his bed, but in the familiar glow of the screen and the clack of the keyboard, he could at least ignore the storm.
It wasn’t often for Bucky to do paperwork, however he didn’t want to step into next argument with Stark, so he reluctantly agreed to prepare some reports for him.
He was tired after exhausting day at the Tower. He had few trainings, including one with new recruits. He liked to share his knowledge with others, especially some regarding martial arts, but this new group was the toughest one.
Later, Bucky had a meeting with Steve and Sam. They were chatting over coffee. Bucky found himself enjoying moments like that. Steve was his pal, Sam could be counted like one, too.
Bucky smiled at the memory from few hours earlier.
Steve. His Steve has changed so much! Now, he was no longer a helpless man who needed to be protected. He “grew up”. He became strong and confident. Bucky liked that change, although he didn’t show he do.
Something pulled him out of his thoughts. Knocking.
He rose from his bed putting laptop on the night table. He rushed to front door and opened them.
“Y/N?” Bucky cocked his brow up seeing you on the porch. You were soaked from the snow and rain.
“Can I come in?” you didn’t ask, you only managed to jingle your teeth.
He blinked but nodded quickly.
“Sure, come in,” he shifted a bit to make a space for you to enter.
You eagerly stepped in, and smiles when Bucky helped you with your coat.
“Thanks.”
“No problem,” he responded. “What brings you here so late?” Bucky asked.
You put your bag on the floor, and you crouched searching through it. After a while you pulled a red briefcase. You looked up at Bucky handling it to him.
“I thought you may want to know..”
Bucky frowned a bit but he reached out and took the folder in his metal hand. He walked to the living room, and you followed him carefully.
Man took a seat on his couch. You didn’t know how to act, so you stood in the hollway just peeking into the room, and waiting at his reaction.
“C’mon, Y/N, I won’t bite,” he chuckled softly in a deep voice of his, then Bucky pointed at the armchair standing on the opposite side of the room, “please, Y/N, take a seat and tell me what’s that exactly?” he put up hand in which he was holding the folder.
You gave a nod.
“I started to work for Stark recently after they moved me to his department,” you started, “he left his office earlier today leaving me the keys. I had to lock his office and our open space,” you continued, “so I did. But before that I went to his office to put some important reports into his cabinet.”
You stopped to take a breath.
“Water?” Bucky offered.
“Yes, please…” you agreed.
He gave you a smile and he left the room. Bucky came back within two minutes, with two glasses of water in both of his hands. He handled one to you and you took it thanking him.
“So I opened his cabinet and few briefcases fell out of there. He always has a mess in documents,” you rolled your eyes, but when you noticed the cocked brows of Bucky, you shook your head, “forgive me that digression. And when I was gathering them, I found your name…”
Bucky frowned and looked at the briefcase he was keeping in his hand. Indeed, his name was written with capital letters. Man frowned even more looking briefly at you.
He quickly opened the folder and pulled a handful of documents. He started to read them.
The silence was insupportable. But you waited politely.
When Bucky ended reading he lowered his head down simply putting documents at the couch.
“I… I am in shock,” he mumbled in thoughtfulness. “I didn’t know they cut off all informations about me. They just erased the fact I exist. That’s why Steve was never truly looking for me… S.H.I.E.L.D. has made him believe I was dead…” a tear ran down his cheek. “Fuckers!” Bucky hit the table standing in front of the couch with his metal hand clenched in a fist.
“Bucky…” your voice was nothing more than a whisper.
“How do you think, Y/N, did Steve know? Did he have any suspicions that they could be lying?” Bucky addressed this question more to himself than to you.
Shyly, you got up and walked to him, you knelt in front of him and took his both hands into your palms.
“If he would have a single sparkle of suspicion, he’d do everything to find you, Bucky” you said firmly. “Don’t you doubt in this.”
You stroked his palms looking him straight in the eye. You knew he needed support now. You both could be only colleagues from work, but still, he was very important for you.
“Why…” his vocie broke into a stutter. “Why… You.. Helped…. Why…”
“I wanted you to know the truth. I’ve heard a lot about your conflict with Stark. And how it has influenced your relationship with Steve,” you explained shortly. “I saw that you were torn apart.”
He swallowed rubbing his temples.
“Now it does have sense,” he chuckled darkly. “I bet Stark knew about whole situation, but did literally nothing to clarify it.”
Bucky got up from the couch and went to huge window. He leant his forehead against the cold glass letting the sorrow overcome him.
You approached man and dared to put hand on his shoulder.
“Forgive me if I made you sad with those informations, but I felt you should know.”
He shook his head.
“I understand and appreciate what you’ve done. I was looking after those documents for so long. It hurts, but I feel kinda calm by now,” Bucky turned his head to you and gave you a smile. “Thank you, Y/N. Well, I’d like to do something in return…” his sentence hung between two of you like a sharp knife. The atmosphere became dense.
“Okay…”
“Would you mind if I would ask you for a lunch or something?”
You smirked. He definitely wasn’t good in talking. Especially to women.
“Sure, but I don’t want to cause you any inconveniences.”
“Y/N, hush girl,” Bucky smiled sadly. “At least let me do something for you. You did something for me, too.”
You nodded happily.
“Sure, Bucky. Thank you.”
He led you to the door and helped you with your coat.
“I thank you. It means a lot, Y/N.”
When you left his house you didn’t notice, that Bucky was still glancing at you through the window smiling softly.
SUMMARY: Bucky had one of his nightmares. Reader is comforting him and in the end they have a passionate sex to get rid of all bad emotions.
Author: Cass and Beast.
It was one of those nightmares, where he
was completely paralyzed. He couldn’t make any single move, he barely could
breathe. He saw a field, everything was in snow and blood. His hands were in
blood. He could nearly smell that specific metal scent… He raised his head
and noticed few soldiers, their rifles were aimed at him and then was a huge
bang.
Bucky yelled, sitting at the bed, he was all covered in a cold sweat, trembling
all over his half naked body.
You could feel all of his chaotic moves, whole bed was moving because of him.
You could hear every heavy breath, every sound that left his mouth.
You quickly sat, when you heard the loud scream, you looked at your boyfriend,
you were scared.
“Bucky… Bucky, sweetheart, what’s wrong? Nightmares again?” You asked and
gently wrapped your arms around his trembling body.
“Yea… Again… Third time in last two weeks.” Bucky hid his face in
his palms, trying to massage his own temple. “It all.. It’s haunting me.
All over again” he mumbled quietly, sitting still in same position.
You looked at him sadly and moved to sit in front of him. “But… Shhh.. Please.”
You said quietly and pulled his hands away from his face. You slowly wrapped
his arms around yourself and moved to him closer, only to hug him as tight as
you only could. “It’s okay now. This was only a nightmare, but it’s fine now.
I’m with you, Ești în siguranță acum.” You whispered into his ear, stroking his
wet hair.
You looked strong, you wanted to be strong for him, because he needed that.
However, inside, your heart was ripped apart as every time before, when you saw
him in such condition. It was always hurting you, but you still tried to smile
to support him.
Bucky lowered his chin to avoid eye contact. “I know.. It was only a
dream.” He trembled again, feeling a cold shiver running along his spine.
Bucky slowly wrapped his still trembling arms around you and he nuzzled to your
chest. “Thank you, Y/N.. It’s.. It feels like a home when you’re cuddling
me..”
You smiled sadly, trying hard not to cry. “You are in home, Bucky… everything
bad is gone. You are safe in your own house.. With your own woman.” You said
and took his face into your hands, you looked at him with smile. “My James… “
You gently stroked his cheeks.
He pressed a messy kiss to your lips. Then he nuzzled to your chest again,
holding you as close as it was possible.
His breath has calmed down after few minutes.
“You’re warm..” he slowly rose his chin to look into your eyes.
“And so so pretty, doll..”
You purred happily and kissed him back.
You were sitting with him, gently stroking his hair, you felt happy by hearing
how his breath is calming down.
You looked at him and smiled. “Thank you, you are so handsome.”
Bucky looked straight into your eyes, none of hesitation in him. He kissed you
again, this time pulling you onto his laps. He placed his metal hand at your
back, running his metal fingers up and down along your spine. “I love you,
Y/N.”
You kissed him back and wrapped arms around his neck.
You shivered, feeling cold metal on your back, then you looked at him. “I love
you too, Bucky.” You whispered and kissed him again.
Bucky kissed you deeper than before, and he didn’t stop until he had air in his
lungs. He broke the kiss only to take a deep breath, and then he kissed your
lips again, slowly rolling into sheets with you and pinning you down with his
weight.
You took deep breath and you returned
the kiss again. You whimpered softly, when you found yourself laying
under him. “B… Bucky. What are you doing?” You asked quietly, looking into his
eyes.
He broke the kiss again, he trembled a bit before he opened his mouth to speak.
“I love you.. I think I’ve never let you know how much you mean to
me..” he placed a kiss to your forehead. “Lemme make you feel as good
as you do this to me always when I am in need..” his lips slowly traveled
to your neck and to the pulse point.
You nodded slowly and bite your lips gently, just by his kisses you felt like
in heaven, even after situation like the one from few minutes before. “Bucky…”
Not taking his lips from your skin, he hummed. “Mmmm?”
You sighed happily. “I love you too.” you whispered.
He gently shifted your legs aside to lay down comfortably. He slowly sucked on
your pulse point while his hand wandered to reach your breast.
You muttered softly, moving your body because of all the feelings. You felt so
good with him, you felt warm, you felt safe and loved.
Bucky, trying to be careful, slowly massaged your breast through his shirt you
were sleeping in. He moved from your neck to kiss your lips again. “You’re
mine..”
You nodded and whimpered softly. “Yes… I’m only yours… take me Bucky, please.”
You growled.
He couldn’t catch proper breath, his hands were shaking when he was undressing
you. When he took your shirt, he moved down, leaving a wet trail at your skin.
He slowly sucked on each of your nipples, letting his free flesh hand travel to
your panties and then under them.
You couldn’t help, it felt so good. A small moan escaped your mouth, you slowly
moved your hands into his hair.
“Have I ever told you how beautiful you are, Y/N? You’re a living
goddess.” He slowly caught your nipple with teeth and pulled it up a bit
to suck it in next second. He also rubbed over your pussy, slowly and gently,
moving his fingers from the bottom to the top of your clit.
You bite your lips hard, moving your legs because of sudden sensations.
You could feel, how wet you were and with every move you were even wetter.
Bucky kissed your breasts for one last time before he traveled down, licking
his way to your panties. He spread your legs and slowly moved his tongue up and
down your pussy through the lacy material.
You whimpered loudly and looked at him. “Fuck! Bucky… Please… I need you.” You
said and moved your hands at his strong shoulders.
Bucky smirked a bit, shifting your panties aside and burying his face between
your folds. “Mmmm… So delicious..” he murmured, sending vibrations
to your clit.
You arched your back and whimpered even louder. „God… Bucky…” You only grabbed
his hair and pulled them gently. You felt so good right then, you put your legs
onto his shoulders.
Bucky’s tongue was swirling around your entrance while his metal fingers
started to rub over your clitoris. “Good girl..” he hummed deeply,
not stopping even for a second. He gently sucked on your pussy’s lips, looking
up at you.
You gasped and only used your legs to pull him even closer to you. “Bucky…
please.. I need you inside me…”
But Bucky only smiled at you, he was never about to leave you undone. He licked
two of his metal fingers and with his eyes on your face, he gently pushed them
into your pussy, starting to move them in and out. At the same time he slipped
his second hand into his boxers to stroke over his yet hard cock.
The feeling of his fingers inside of you made you whimper his name, you moved
your hips a little. You looked at Bucky and then at his cock, you licked your
lips gently.
You could feel that you were slowly getting closer to your climax.
Bucky had his mouth half open, seeing how good you felt. Admiring your perfect
shapes, he slipped his fingers out for a while to lick them. “Jesus, Y/N,
you’re fucking tasty, babe.” He slipped them back into your pulsating sex,
but he also pushed his tongue in. You could easily see, how a bulge in his
boxers was getting bigger with every moment.
Bucky also felt that he was nearing his climax. He slipped his tongue and
fingers out of you and he knelt between your legs. In rush, he shifted his
boxers to his ankles. Man took his cock into his hand, and he gave it few long
strokes, then he just slipped himself into you
You watched him and gasped loudly when you felt him deep inside your clit, you
grabbed his shoulders and moaned. “Fuck… it feels sooo good… Your big, thick
cock feels so good inside me, Bucky.”
Bucky got his rhythm in a second. He was pounding in you strongly and quickly,
stretching your clit with his length. “Oh, shit.. Shit… Fuck.. Oh fuck..
Oh fuck..” he closed his eyes, letting the desire overwhelm him. He leaned
down and kissed you deeply, fucking you to the brim.
“Fuck… God, Bucky.” You whimpered and kissed him back, you slowly wrapped your
legs around his waist.
He was like a machine, moving in his own steady pace. You moaned into his
mouth, grabbing his hair.
Bucky took a hold of your waist, slipping his cock as deep as it was only
possible.
“Fuck.. So tight, so wet.. Shit!”
Bucky’s cock started to throb, so he slipped out of you only to switch
position. He laid himself behind you, placing you on your side and pulling your
one leg up to bend it over his strong thigh while he pushed his cock back into
your pussy.
You whimpered at the feeling of emptiness, you watched him and how he was
moving to place himself behind you.
You moaned happily, feeling him inside you again, then you gasped softly and
moved your hand to rub your pussy. You slowly added one of your fingers to make
yourself full along with his cock, moaning loudly.
Bucky was kissing your nape at that moment, bucking his hips faster and faster,
going deeper and deeper with each movement. “Yes baby, my good girl, holy
fuck!” brunette wrapped your arm around his neck, so he could lick one of
your boobs. His cock was throbbing after few long moves. “Babe.. Y/N.. Oh
my fuck, doll, I’m gonna cum..”
You could feel, how close you were. „Fuck… Bucky… I’m so close… please, cum
inside of me.” You whimpered.
Bucky grabbed your chin and turned it around to him, he french kissed you,
going fast in and out of your pussy. He slipped his hand between your thighs to
rub your clit at the same time. “Fuck.. Fuck.. FUCK!!!” he finally
yelled, shooting his load deep inside your wet core.
You screamed his name and kissed him back, you moaned loudly into his mouth
when he touched your clit.
“Fuck… Bucky.” You whimpered, when your climax hit you hard.
He rode his orgasm with few additional moves, then he stopped, still inside
you, enjoying the pleasure and wetness of your pussy. “My God..” he
whispered quietly, looking desperately for your lips. “It was… You
were.. Dear Lord.. Doll..”
You whimpered happily and kissed him. ”.. Amazing sweetheart.. I know, you
were amazing..“ You purred against his neck.
He brushed his rough lips against your soft one, then he slowly pulled out of
your core. "Fuck..” he moaned loudly, taking his cock into his hand
and giving it few more strokes. “My girlfriend is the best..” he then
laid his back on his side of the bed.
You sighed softy and nuzzled to him. „How
do you feel now, James?”
“Amazing.. Relaxed.. Fulfilled..”
he mumbled quietly, closing his eses
You kissed his cheek. “Let’s go to
sleep now, sweetheart. I love you.”
“I love you too, Y/N” Bucky
smiled, covering both of you with a blanket. “Sweet dreams, doll. And..
Thank you. For being with me always when I need this.”
You hugged to him and sighed slightly.
“I’m always here for you, Bucky. Always.” You said and closed your
eyes. You quickly fell asleep in his arms.
“…
Y/N, please, you good know I need to be there.”
And as
always his voice was lovingly but yet firm. You raised your head up, looking at
your reflection in a mirror. You were in a bathroom, trying to gather yourself
back in a row. Your eyes were hurting from crying, your cheeks were swollen.
You hated it. Everytime when you have to be left alone in a house, you were
turning into a mess, trying to stop him by all costs. But he never let you to
do it. You knew he loved you the most, like no one else on this world. But he
was a soldier and he also loved his country and was always serving for its
safety.
“C’mon
doll, I don’t wanna say goodbye in that way.”
Obviously
he didn’t want. You were his princess. His everything. And he was suffering
just like you when you both were torn apart, at the two ends of the Word
You
splashed your face with a cold water, then you dried yourself with a towel.
Before you had left the bathroom, you took few small breaths.
And he was
still there, just like you had left him.
Standing in
the middle of a living room, dressed in a black combat pants, black combat
boots and that stunning dark blue coat with two rows of buttons.
You sighed
sadly. “Please.. Listen to me, James..” it was one of that little
moments when you were calling him by his name.
He tried to
not show a kind of a confusion which was crawling on his face, but he failed.
“Y/N, really, do you trust me?” he asked. You nodded without a
hesitation. “I do.”
Bucky took
few steps towards you and as he stopped few centimeters from you, he reached
his hands and took your face in them. “So now listen to me carefully,
doll” brunette asked Simple
You nodded
slightly, looking into his beautiful blue eyes.
“You
are the most important person in my entire life. I love you more than anything
else. My love towards you is unconditional, you know it. But I’m a soldier,
Y/N. I’m obligated to serve for my country. And nothing and no one can change
it, doll. I know you’re scared. So am I, but it’s my duty and I have to follow
orders” he slowly swallowed, sighing shortly after. “I will be back
soon, doll face” his thumbs were slowly stroking your cheeks while he was
talking to you.
You let out
a quiet whimper and put your hands on tops of his rough palms.
“I
know, James.” And you knew. He was a good man and he loved his country.
And you couldn’t just say “no.” It would be too hard for him to leave
when you two would be resentful at each other.
You took a
deep breath and stroked over blue material at his shoulders. “Be careful,
tiger. Get ‘em and come back to me..” you clenched your fingers at
material of his coat, closing eyes for a second to hide tears.
He leaned
down to you and kissed slowly each of your eyelids. Then he hugged you tightly
to his chest and you both were standing like this, listening to each other’s
heartbeats.
Bucky
finally kissed the top of your head and he said how much he loves you once
again, before he took his backpack and threw it over his shoulder. Then he left
your house, stopping for a second to give you a look.
“You’re
my everything. No matter how far I am, I am always thinking of you. And I will
always love you and protect you, no matter what..” he said before he left,
quietly closing the door behind him.
You quickly
went to the kitchen and you shifted a curtain aside to look after him.
He put his
backpack to a trunk of a huge Jeep and before he got in, Bucky turned around
and looked at you once again.
You put
your hand on your chest, waving at him with second one. He waved back and blew
you a kiss.
And after
that he was all alone with the other guys from his unit. Guns, gear, and
sadness everywhere. The reality of the separation was quickly becoming real and
the six months in front of him before he would be home again seemed like an
eternity.
Bucky was
sitting at the backseat. His hand wandered to the pocket of his jacket. He
blinked and he pulled out a silver necklace with a pendant. Bucky opened it and
he smiled softly. He was looking at your little picture, it was taken by him on
your first common anniversary. Bucky sighed and put necklace on his neck.
“I love you, Y/N” he mumbled under his breath, looking through the
window.
Five weeks
later you heard a knocking to the door. You got up from the couch and walked to
open the door.
You held
your breath back when you spotted Steve Rogers. “S…. Steve..?” you
asked with trembling voice. “Morning, Y/N…” he whispered, crumpling
his hat in his hands.
You were
observing him with wide opened eyes. “Steve…” you leaned your hand
against the door frame. “It’s about Bucky..” his voice was a mixture
of fear and sadness. “We.. There was an accident during our operation…
I… I couldn’t do anything else..” Rogers was stammering. “Steve..
Come in, we won’t be talking in the open door” you moved aside, making a
space for him.
Steve
entered your house with a hesitation. You led him to the small living room,
where he took a place on the leather couch. You sat down next to him, your
heart was pounding in your chest. “Steve.. Just tell me what had
happened..” you asked him, putting your hand on his shoulder. “No
matter what you’re gonna say, I’m gonna take it..”
He
hesitated for few long moments which seemed to be an eternity to you.
“There
was an accident.. We were chasing Hydra.. We were in a train, a fight had
started…” Steve was fretful while he was talking.
You felt
like your body started to tremble. “Where is James..?” you simply
asked.
“He
fell off the train.. I am so sorry, Y/N… I am so so sorry…”
You
automatically covered your mouth with both hands and second later your started
sobbing loudly. “Oh my God… Oh my God!!” you yelled with all your
might.
Steve
wasn’t waiting, he slowly wrapped his arms around you, taking you in a hug.
“It is
hard for me too, Y/N… I know… Hush… I know..” he was whispering,
stroking over your trembling back.
“God…
Steve! I won’t rub along without him!” you were crying loudly.
“Shh… You won’t be alone with that.. I promised him if something will
happen I will take care of you..” Steve was rocking you in his strong
arms, calming you down. “Everything’s gonna be alright..”
Three days
later there was a funeral. A symbolical one, because Bucky’s body hasn’t been
found. His coffin was wrapped in American flag.
Steve was
standing next to you, trying to give you as much support as he only could.
Later,
after the ceremony, Steve walked back to the car, you asked him for a few
moments alone.
Walking in
the direction the main gate of the cemetery, you were thinking of events
from last few days. And about your last talk with Bucky.
You stopped
for a while at the little knoll and you turned around to look at the grave of
James. You sighed sadly, wiping the single tear from your cheek.
“Always,
James. I will always have you in my heart. Rest in peace, my love..”
Summary: After your family’s death you found new way to relieve all your bad emotions… even when you know it’s a bad thing to do.
Word Count: 1764
Warnings: self harm, blood, deatch [mentioned]
Author: Cass
You lived
with Steve and Bucky for almost eight years now. During this time many bad
things happened.
For example you would find out that Steve returned from mission almost dead… or
you would be a witness of one of Bucky’s panic attack. Then watch him how He
slowly close himself on Steve and you. You always were positive, You believed
in boys and you were stronger for both of them.
But one day your life was ruined by one phone. It was exactly two weeks ago.
~Two Weeks
ago~
You were
cooking dinner for boys, Y/F/S was playing in background when you happily
walked around in kitchen. It lasted until you heard phone. You thought that
maybe it’s Steve or Bucky, So you quickly went to pick it up.
“Hello?” You
said happily.
“Good morning, miss. Is it… Y/N Y/L/N?” Voice asked. It was man, but not your
Steve or Bucky. Right now you were really scared.
“Yes… It’s me…
but something happened?” You asked and started shiver softly.
“My name is
Alex Radu I’m calling from the Police… I don’t have good news from you miss.”
He said.
Your heart
stopped, you had no idea what to do. You were worried, scared. You wanted just disconnect
the call and ran away.
“W…. What happened…”
You asked but your voice just broke.
“I’m sorry
Miss… But I need to inform you that. Your parents and your brother are
dead.”
You felt
like you gonna pass out there, You only shook your head and tried stop tears “B-But…
But… How… What… What happened…?”
“Truck hit
their car… all three Death on the spot. I’m really sorry miss.” Man said
Next thing
that you remember was sitting on floor crying like a little child.
Steve and
Bucky entered home smiling as always but their smiles faded when they saw you
on floor and smelled burned food.
Steve
quickly put his shield down and went to you when Bucky went to kitchen to make
sure that nothing is on fire.
“Doll… Hey
doll… What wrong? What happened.” Steve asked and sat next to you. He gently
wrapped arms around you and pulled you into hug.
Bucky
quickly joined and also hugged you, He kissed your head and took your hand in
his metal hand “Y/N you know you can tell us.”
You only
looked at them, your eyes were red and a bit swollen “M… My parents… and… Tom…
They… THEY ARE DEAD! I LOST EVERYONE I’M ALONE!” You got up and yelled with
tears on your cheeks. Then you just sat back down. Bucky and Steve looked at you in shock, You
never yelled at them.
They both
hugged you again. Steve kissed you head “Shhh… Doll. You are never alone… You
have us.”
“Exactly,
little one… You aren’t alone.” Bucky said and kissed your shoulder.
It took a
lots of time to take care of everything. It was hard… Hard to know that you are
alone.
But boys were with you no matter what, they supported you whole time.
~Now~
Maybe all formalities
were hard but the most hard thing was to hide your pain and sorrow. Boys were
sure that you are fine. That they helped you and you feel better but little
have they know.
One night
you woke up from nightmare, you looked around in bed, Steve was on your slept calmly,
wrapped in blanket.
Bucky on your right, He was hugging his pillow, muttering something in his
sleep.
You looked
at them sadly and got up from bed, trying your best to not woke up one of them
(Or with your luck both)
You walked
to bathroom and slowly unbuttoned your shirt. You took it off and looked at
your darkest secret.
Your whole
arm was covered in small and a bit bigger cuts, some were already old and some
still fresh but this wasn’t only place… your whole shoulder, some places on
your chest and even your abdomen was covered in the same cuts.
You started
to self harm yourself not long after that news, You had too much inside you.
Too much pain, too much sorrow… Too much sadness. You don’t wanted die, because
you couldn’t leave boys alone but you wanted do something that could help you
with this emotions.
It helped
you but it forced you to move away from boys. Making love, showers, swimming
together. This all just ended. You knew that boys were worried but they
respected your decision because they think that you are really deep in Mourning
You sighed
softly and looked at yourself in mirror, you looked terrible but it was your
only way to relief. Steve and Bucky would never understand you.
You took
out small razor blade from cabinets, you looked at yourself and found some
places that weren’t marked by metal yet.
You took
deep breath and put blade on empty spot. Cold feeling made you feel better but feeling
of cutting skin made you even more happy, you whimpered at pain and looked at
mirror.
You could
see the line, it become more red with every second then blood started run down
your skin, soft smile appeared on your lips, you bite them hard and started
make more cuts.
After few minutes you looked at yourself in
mirror than you started cry.
You cleaned yourself and made sure to put bandage on your fresh wounds, you
calmed down, dressed up and returned to boys but you forgot to completely clean
your “Crime place”
At Morning
when you still were in bed Bucky was in bathroom and Steve was in kitchen.
Bucky
looked into cabinets and blinked when He saw that some razor blade were missing
as well as bandages.
“Steeevee?!
Did you maybe used my razor blade? Or bandages?!” He yelled.
Steve went
to bathroom and looked at Bucky “Do I look like person that use them? “ He
asked frowning softly.
“No… but
they are missing and only I use them in this house.” Bucky muttered.
Steve
rolled his eyes “Maybe you used them and you don’t remember this?”
Bucky
sighed “Steve, I’m old but I don’t have Alzheimer.” He growled “Maybe Y/N used
them.”
“Yep!
Because our girl needs to use your razor blade and bandages.” He said and
looked at him.
Bucky
sighed sadly “You know… I don’t like one thing. They disappear almost every day…
both things, nothing else… but today I found this.” He said and showed Steve small
white towel with stains of blood “And I’m sure it’s not yours.” Bucky looked at
Steve worried “It’s also not mine… So, if it’s not mine and it’s not yours than…”
“Y/N..”
Steve said worried, looking at his friend.
Both of
them went to bedroom, Steve sat on bed and gently kissed you cheek to wake you
up
“Hey, doll. Sorry that we wake you up but We need to ask you something.”
“Hmmm…” You
muttered and opened one eye to look at your boys.
Bucky showed
you towel “I found it in bathroom… Do you wanna tell us something?” He asked
You quickly
woke up and sat up “Um.. I… I cut myself yesterday. I think I forgot to put it
in basked… I’m sorry boys.” You said and made your best fake smile.
Steve and
Bucky looked at each other, they didn’t believed you but they decided not to
press you.
Rest of the
day was calm but Steve and Bucky watched you, trying to find something. All
they could see was your problems with moving.
Since this
day both were checking everything. Razor blade and bandages were disappearing
every day and you had bigger problems with moving.
One night when
You were sure they are asleep you got up and went to bathroom to start your
small sick “ritual”
Boys watched you as you left bedroom
“I don’t like it…” Steve whispered
“Let’s follow her..” Bucky said and quietly got up from bed.
They both
followed you to bathroom, Steve slowly opened door.
You were in front of mirror, without your shirt. They looked at your body in
shock.
“Y/N!”
Bucky said in shock “What… What…” He said and looked at you.
You slowly
turned around and looked at them scared “Steve… Bucky… I can explain… I just..”
“Don’t even
say a word. We want see you in living room in a minute.” Steve said frowning
and wet to living room, Bucky followed him.
You could
feel tears in your eyes they had to never find out… never.
Steve was
walking around living room nervous, Bucky was sitting on couch watching him “Dude
calm down.
Steve wanted say something but then He saw you walking down the stairs.
You looked
scared at Steve and sad a Bucky.
Bucky patted his legs “Come here, doll.” You smiled at him softly and sat on
his laps. He stroked your cheek and kissed you gently. Steve sat behind you and
took off shirt from your shoulder, He gently kissed it.
Both looked at you with their big puppy’s eyes “Y/N why? Why you did this to
yourself? Why… Why we know nothing.” Steve said sadly.
You looked
at them and told them everything.
Steve and Bucky were shocked.
Bucky took
your face into his big hands and looked into your eyes
“Listen… We know it’s all hard but even now, you aren’t alone. You have me… you
have Steve and all your friends. We all were so worried that you become so
closed on us. Y/N we two love you too much… you know how it kill us… that… that
you do such a thing to yourself.”
“He is
right, doll. You are important to us. We love you and We will do everything for
you. We and friends… just please don’t hide stuff like this from us, okay.”
You looked
at them and started cry “I promise… I won’t do this again… n-next time I… I
will talk with you or Bucky.”
Steve and Bucky smiled “Good girls.” Bucky said
and they both hugged you tight.
~Few
months later~
You felt
much better. You wounds healed.
You good knew that boys are always with you.
Boy and all your friends, Everyone was making their best to make you feel
loved.
You lost
your real family, but now all your friends and your boys were your family. They
never let you forgot your parents and brother but they also never let you feel
alone or unloved.
This was
the most important to you were loved and you felt happy again.
Gif: Not mine, this time I haqve no idea where I found it.
A/N: Hey guys! It’s Cass here. I wrote this short story to show you all something. So… As you all know, I’m Beast gf. The thing is that this is Distance
relationship. For a long time I thought that He is fine, that He only have some
problems in work and that’s all but a day ago… He showed me what He did to himself.
The thing that I saw was terrible.
He also told me about his terrible thoughts… thanks god Me and rest of team
were able to pull him away from those thoughts by this small story, I want to
show you all that no matter what happen, you always can find people that will
be ready to support you and try to help you. That you are never alone. You need
to trust your friends or family, if not then than you should find someone who will
listen to you and try help you.
Take care guys and remember, no one is ever alone.
Gif: I have no idea. I just found it on my computer.
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