The last goodbye || Bucky Barnes One Shot.

Word Count: 1290

Warnings: sadness, character’s death.

Author: Beast

“…
Y/N, please, you good know I need to be there.”

And as
always his voice was lovingly but yet firm. You raised your head up, looking at
your reflection in a mirror. You were in a bathroom, trying to gather yourself
back in a row. Your eyes were hurting from crying, your cheeks were swollen.
You hated it. Everytime when you have to be left alone in a house, you were
turning into a mess, trying to stop him by all costs. But he never let you to
do it. You knew he loved you the most, like no one else on this world. But he
was a soldier and he also loved his country and was always serving for its
safety.

“C’mon
doll, I don’t wanna say goodbye in that way.”

Obviously
he didn’t want. You were his princess. His everything. And he was suffering
just like you when you both were torn apart, at the two ends of the Word

You
splashed your face with a cold water, then you dried yourself with a towel.
Before you had left the bathroom, you took few small breaths.

And he was
still there, just like you had left him.

Standing in
the middle of a living room, dressed in a black combat pants, black combat
boots and that stunning dark blue coat with two rows of buttons.

You sighed
sadly. “Please.. Listen to me, James..” it was one of that little
moments when you were calling him by his name.

He tried to
not show a kind of a confusion which was crawling on his face, but he failed.
“Y/N, really, do you trust me?” he asked. You nodded without a
hesitation. “I do.”

Bucky took
few steps towards you and as he stopped few centimeters from you, he reached
his hands and took your face in them. “So now listen to me carefully,
doll” brunette asked Simple

You nodded
slightly, looking into his beautiful blue eyes.

“You
are the most important person in my entire life. I love you more than anything
else. My love towards you is unconditional, you know it. But I’m a soldier,
Y/N. I’m obligated to serve for my country. And nothing and no one can change
it, doll. I know you’re scared. So am I, but it’s my duty and I have to follow
orders” he slowly swallowed, sighing shortly after. “I will be back
soon, doll face” his thumbs were slowly stroking your cheeks while he was
talking to you.

You let out
a quiet whimper and put your hands on tops of his rough palms.

“I
know, James.” And you knew. He was a good man and he loved his country.
And you couldn’t just say “no.” It would be too hard for him to leave
when you two would be resentful at each other.

You took a
deep breath and stroked over blue material at his shoulders. “Be careful,
tiger. Get ‘em and come back to me..” you clenched your fingers at
material of his coat, closing eyes for a second to hide tears.

He leaned
down to you and kissed slowly each of your eyelids. Then he hugged you tightly
to his chest and you both were standing like this, listening to each other’s
heartbeats.

Bucky
finally kissed the top of your head and he said how much he loves you once
again, before he took his backpack and threw it over his shoulder. Then he left
your house, stopping for a second to give you a look.

“You’re
my everything. No matter how far I am, I am always thinking of you. And I will
always love you and protect you, no matter what..” he said before he left,
quietly closing the door behind him.

You quickly
went to the kitchen and you shifted a curtain aside to look after him.

He put his
backpack to a trunk of a huge Jeep and before he got in, Bucky turned around
and looked at you once again.

You put
your hand on your chest, waving at him with second one. He waved back and blew
you a kiss.

And after
that he was all alone with the other guys from his unit. Guns, gear, and
sadness everywhere. The reality of the separation was quickly becoming real and
the six months in front of him before he would be home again seemed like an
eternity.

Bucky was
sitting at the backseat. His hand wandered to the pocket of his jacket. He
blinked and he pulled out a silver necklace with a pendant. Bucky opened it and
he smiled softly. He was looking at your little picture, it was taken by him on
your first common anniversary. Bucky sighed and put necklace on his neck.
“I love you, Y/N” he mumbled under his breath, looking through the
window.


Five weeks
later you heard a knocking to the door. You got up from the couch and walked to
open the door.

You held
your breath back when you spotted Steve Rogers. “S…. Steve..?” you
asked with trembling voice. “Morning, Y/N…” he whispered, crumpling
his hat in his hands.

You were
observing him with wide opened eyes. “Steve…” you leaned your hand
against the door frame. “It’s about Bucky..” his voice was a mixture
of fear and sadness. “We.. There was an accident during our operation…
I… I couldn’t do anything else..” Rogers was stammering. “Steve..
Come in, we won’t be talking in the open door” you moved aside, making a
space for him.

Steve
entered your house with a hesitation. You led him to the small living room,
where he took a place on the leather couch. You sat down next to him, your
heart was pounding in your chest. “Steve.. Just tell me what had
happened..” you asked him, putting your hand on his shoulder. “No
matter what you’re gonna say, I’m gonna take it..”

He
hesitated for few long moments which seemed to be an eternity to you.

“There
was an accident.. We were chasing Hydra.. We were in a train, a fight had
started…” Steve was fretful while he was talking.

You felt
like your body started to tremble. “Where is James..?” you simply
asked.

“He
fell off the train.. I am so sorry, Y/N… I am so so sorry…”

You
automatically covered your mouth with both hands and second later your started
sobbing loudly. “Oh my God… Oh my God!!” you yelled with all your
might.

Steve
wasn’t waiting, he slowly wrapped his arms around you, taking you in a hug.

“It is
hard for me too, Y/N… I know… Hush… I know..” he was whispering,
stroking over your trembling back.

“God…
Steve! I won’t rub along without him!” you were crying loudly.
“Shh… You won’t be alone with that.. I promised him if something will
happen I will take care of you..” Steve was rocking you in his strong
arms, calming you down. “Everything’s gonna be alright..”


Three days
later there was a funeral. A symbolical one, because Bucky’s body hasn’t been
found. His coffin was wrapped in American flag.

Steve was
standing next to you, trying to give you as much support as he only could.

Later,
after the ceremony, Steve walked back to the car, you asked him for a few
moments alone.

Walking in
the direction the main gate of the cemetery, you were thinking of events
from last few days. And about your last talk with Bucky.

You stopped
for a while at the little knoll and you turned around to look at the grave of
James. You sighed sadly, wiping the single tear from your cheek.

“Always,
James. I will always have you in my heart. Rest in peace, my love..”


THE SILENT SHOUT || PART I

A/N: my
best friend has been diagnosed as borderline. Currently I have an occasion to
spend a lot of time with him, I am also a witness of his anxiety and panic
attacks, of his rage outbursts and incertitude, which is overhelming him on and
on. Looking at him one day a thought came up to my mind: if BPD can be caused
by some traumatic experiences, maybe Bucky was suffering to similar symptoms
also. After all things Hydra had done to him, I suppose he might likely suffered
from this disorder. That’s why I decided to make a little series of bpd!Bucky. The story, all names, characters, and incidents
portrayed in this production are fictitious. Based on a true events.

Words: 1624

Warnings:
self harming, panic attack, bpd, angst, bpd!Bucky, sad!Bucky, depression,
blood, graphic description of violence, swearing

Author: Rouge

It has been a week since he moved to your house.

From the very beginning you were more worried than
happy about that idea of Steve. Despite your positive attitude towards Bucky,
you good knew he may cause a lot of problems.

But on the other hand you understood what Steve has
been going through for last couple of years. Notorious uncertainty, sadness,
sorrow. He was a mess and you wanted to do anything to comfort him.

When you heard that Shield finally found Bucky, alive,
you felt a deep relief. It meant the end of Steve’s mental pain. It meant that
since then everything could have been seen only in a bright colors.

When Steve came to you with his idea of taking Bucky
to your common house, you didn’t even try to hide your dissatisfaction. A lot
of arguments had taken place then in between two of you. But finally Steve
managed to melt your heart and you said yes.

However, keeping the good of your child in your mind,
you ensured Steve that if something wrong will about to happen, you will move
out, taking baby with you. He agreed on that little deal without blinking.

You had to reconcile with a fact your man was sharing
his love at three, not only at two… It obviously was hurting you, sometimes
Bucky seemed to be Steve’s number one, but you had to accept it. They were
friends since childhood, they grew up together, they were fighting together,
arm to arm. In such situation you could do nothing. You didn’t want to hurt
Steve by your listlessness at Bucky’s problems. You knew that man went through
a lot in his life. Like Steve, Bucky Barnes was only a pawn in that brutal
game. Like everyone of you…

When you met him for the first time since 5 years, you
were shocked.

He looked incredibly good, some bruises still could
have been seen at his muscular arm and neck, few scars on his collarbones, a
swollen jaw. But he looked good as for someone who has been tortured for
months.

But something had changed and you easily felt that.

His eyes.

There were no more happiness in them. That beautiful
blue eyes of his, which were glowing with a mischief sparks formerly, now were
dark and bereft the will of life.


“Y/N! Can you hold the door please!?” Steve screamed
aloud.

You got up from the leather sofa in living room and
quickly went to open the door. As soon as you did, you saw several boxes and a
bit of Steve’s bangs above them.

“Do you need help?” you asked amicably, opening doors
as wide as you could.

“No, dear, just hold on them” Steve said. Slowly and
carefully he passed through the threshold and put boxes down in the hallway.

You were observing him for a while, then you sight
fell on someone standing in front of the door.

James Bucky Barnes.

Standing there dressed in a large black leather
jacket, dark jeans and grey shirt, with a black hat on his head, Bucky slowly
raised his chin and looked briefly into your eyes.

“Hi, Y/N” he gave you a small smile, a little wince
appeared on his face.

“Bucky” you smiled happily, whispering his name and
taking step back to make a space for him. “Come in, come in.”

Hesitantly he walked inside and then you closed the
door behind him making sure they were locked.

“Follow me” you gave him another smile and you led him
to the large living room.

It was the biggest room in Steve’s house. One wall had
windows and door leading to a big balcony. The room was painted in light orange
mixed with lime. The floorboards were made of pear tree wood that had a nice,
warm shade. There was a brownish carpet with an abstractive pattern in the
middle of the room. Steve had fitted your common living room with stylish furniture.
There was a big dark brown leather corner sofa on the left. It had light brow cushions.
In front of it, there was an ebony coffee table with sculptured legs and edges.
There also were two brown armchairs. The table were placed on the carpet. Next
to the sofa, there was a tall lamp which metal parts were coloured patina gold.
Opposite to the sofa there was a big plasma TV standing on a stand similar to
the coffee table. Below the TV there was a black DVD player. Right to it, an
ebony case with clouded glass doors could be found. There also was a small
showcase where you put some books, films and wine glasses. Above the sofa there
was a wide painting showing a stunning sunset on a seaside. The windows were
decorated with a short white delicate curtain and fantasy yellow drape. On the
windowsill, there standed a flowerpot with an orchid. Next to it there was a
picture frame with a photo made on your vacation in Dubai. The room was really warm and cosy.

“Do you want to drink something?” you asked politely
when Bucky sat on the sofa.
“Coffee, please…” he looked at you and took his hat off, placing it next to
him.

You walked to the kitchen and put a kettle on a stove.
Suddenly you felt a pair of familiar strong hands at your slim waist.

“Thank you…” Steve whispered directly into your ear,
leaning down to kiss your cheek from behind. “It means a lot not only to me,
Y/N.”
“I know, Steve” you gave a slight nod and slowly turned your head towards him
so you could reach his rough lips and kissed them.

Steve hummed happily at the unexpected kiss, his grasp
got tighten around your waist.

With an agile movement you slipped out of his arms,
pecking his lips.

“He is my friend too, Steve” you said, pouring a
boiling water to the cup with black coffee. “It was obvious I’ll say yes in a respond to your idea” you
shrugged slightly. “I was and am still worried about Sebastian, our child.” you
lifted your chin and sadly glanced at Steve.

He rubbed his chin.

“I know… But he is working on those… Outbursts..” Captain sighed deeply. “Okay. I will move boxes
to his room. They are still blocking the passage through the corridor” he let
out a quiet giggle before he left kitchen.

You took a cup of coffee and came back to the living
room.

“Here you go” you put the cup on the table, smiling at
Bucky and taking a seat in one of the armchairs. “So… How are you, Buck? You
look magnificent” you smirked warmly, crossing your legs.

“I’m doing good lately” he took a sip of coffee,
humming in an approval of the bitter taste. “You’re a real coffee master, Y/N.”

You laughed shortly.

“Oh, thank you! Charming as always, Buck!” you winked
at him.


He woke up in the middle of the night.

For a while he was laying motionless on his back,
glaring up at ceiling.

Then he slowly got up. When he was walking towards
bathroom, he could feel a chill at his bare legs and torso. He had only his
black boxers on.

He entered the bathroom and carefully closed the door
behind him, trying not to make any sounds which could woke you and Steve up.

Bucky
stared at the scars lining his right wrist, observing it as if from a great
distance. Other days he would count them and their meanings, one for every time
they’d hurt him. Every time he hated
himself for lying to people he loved. But it was so easy, too easy for him to
promise them that he had taken the antidepressants. 
And now, feeling the scars beneath his fingers, Bucky could picture it so
vividly that he could feel each sharp intake of breath, each tear that slid
from his pale skin. As the bathtub faucet ran cold water over his neck and the
blade glowed crimson beneath his clumsy fingers, his head would tilt back, his
mouth open in silent agony but also perverse joy, because he knew that he
should not be feeling this, doing this, enjoying this as he did. And his anger
exploded with each swift movement of the razor, his pain that so often
destroyed him coating the floor of the tub in sickening contrast to the pale
tile. 
He remembered kneeling on this same floor, attacking his biceps until he could
take it no longer and fell back, exhausted, against the bathroom cabinet. It
was few weeks ago, when Steve agreed to doss him when he escaped the hospital
run by Shield.
The urge was so strong that he clenched his fists to keep from reaching for the
blade. It was so tempting. So painfully tempting. Bucky thought desperately of
his wrist again, aching to feel sadness for the delicate skin that he so
readily destroyed. He forced his fingers to stay on the shining tiles, but so
eager was he for the pain.. And he cut the skin once again, observing like a
little stream of redness was pouring down, mixing with a cold water at his
feet. He felt like his skin was burning under the touch of a cold razor, he
felt a bit dizzy because of the blood which was flowing out of the cut.
Bucky chuckled nervously, but it turned into breathless weeping.
He stayed here as long as he had to, until the urge was gone. Because he had to
fight this and he knew that. Because of the five words he kept repeating in his
mind, kept vowing, swearing to himself. 

I won’t draw blood tonight. 

You are not alone || Stucky x Reader

Summary: After your family’s death you found new way to relieve all your bad emotions… even when you know it’s a bad thing to do.

Word Count: 1764

Warnings: self harm, blood, deatch [mentioned]

Author: Cass

You lived
with Steve and Bucky for almost eight years now. During this time many bad
things happened.
For example you would find out that Steve returned from mission almost dead… or
you would be a witness of one of Bucky’s panic attack. Then watch him how He
slowly close himself on Steve and you. You always were positive, You believed
in boys and you were stronger for both of them.

But one day your life was ruined by one phone.  It was exactly two weeks ago.

~Two Weeks
ago~

You were
cooking dinner for boys, Y/F/S was playing in background when you happily
walked around in kitchen. It lasted until you heard phone. You thought that
maybe it’s Steve or Bucky, So you quickly went to pick it up.

“Hello?” You
said happily.
“Good morning, miss. Is it… Y/N Y/L/N?” Voice asked. It was man, but not your
Steve or Bucky. Right now you were really scared.

“Yes… It’s me…
but something happened?” You asked and started shiver softly.

“My name is
Alex Radu I’m calling from the Police… I don’t have good news from you miss.”
He said.

Your heart
stopped, you had no idea what to do. You were worried, scared. You wanted just disconnect
the call and ran away.

“W…. What happened…”
You asked but your voice just broke.

“I’m sorry
Miss… But I need to inform you that. Your parents and your brother are
dead.”

You felt
like you gonna pass out there, You only shook your head and tried stop tears “B-But…
But… How… What… What happened…?”

“Truck hit
their car… all three Death on the spot. I’m really sorry miss.” Man said

Next thing
that you remember was sitting on floor crying like a little child.

Steve and
Bucky entered home smiling as always but their smiles faded when they saw you
on floor and smelled burned food.

Steve
quickly put his shield down and went to you when Bucky went to kitchen to make
sure that nothing is on fire.

“Doll… Hey
doll… What wrong? What happened.” Steve asked and sat next to you. He gently
wrapped arms around you and pulled you into hug.

Bucky
quickly joined and also hugged you, He kissed your head and took your hand in
his metal hand “Y/N you know you can tell us.”

You only
looked at them, your eyes were red and a bit swollen “M… My parents… and… Tom…
They… THEY ARE DEAD! I LOST EVERYONE I’M ALONE!” You got up and yelled with
tears on your cheeks. Then you just sat back down.  Bucky and Steve looked at you in shock, You
never yelled at them.

They both
hugged you again. Steve kissed you head “Shhh… Doll. You are never alone… You
have us.”

“Exactly,
little one… You aren’t alone.” Bucky said and kissed your shoulder.

It took a
lots of time to take care of everything. It was hard… Hard to know that you are
alone.
But boys were with you no matter what, they supported you whole time.

~Now~

Maybe all formalities
were hard but the most hard thing was to hide your pain and sorrow. Boys were
sure that you are fine. That they helped you and you feel better but little
have they know.

One night
you woke up from nightmare, you looked around in bed, Steve was on your slept calmly,
wrapped in blanket.
Bucky on your right, He was hugging his pillow, muttering something in his
sleep.

You looked
at them sadly and got up from bed, trying your best to not woke up one of them
(Or with your luck both)

You walked
to bathroom and slowly unbuttoned your shirt. You took it off and looked at
your darkest secret.

Your whole
arm was covered in small and a bit bigger cuts, some were already old and some
still fresh but this wasn’t only place… your whole shoulder, some places on
your chest and even your abdomen was covered in the same cuts.

You started
to self harm yourself not long after that news, You had too much inside you.
Too much pain, too much sorrow… Too much sadness. You don’t wanted die, because
you couldn’t leave boys alone but you wanted do something that could help you
with this emotions.

It helped
you but it forced you to move away from boys. Making love, showers, swimming
together. This all just ended. You knew that boys were worried but they
respected your decision because they think that you are really deep in Mourning

You sighed
softly and looked at yourself in mirror, you looked terrible but it was your
only way to relief. Steve and Bucky would never understand you.

You took
out small razor blade from cabinets, you looked at yourself and found some
places that weren’t marked by metal yet.

You took
deep breath and put blade on empty spot. Cold feeling made you feel better but feeling
of cutting skin made you even more happy, you whimpered at pain and looked at
mirror.

You could
see the line, it become more red with every second then blood started run down
your skin, soft smile appeared on your lips, you bite them hard and started
make more cuts.

After few minutes you looked at yourself in
mirror than you started cry.

You cleaned yourself and made sure to put bandage on your fresh wounds, you
calmed down, dressed up and returned to boys but you forgot to completely clean
your “Crime place”


At Morning
when you still were in bed Bucky was in bathroom and Steve was in kitchen.

Bucky
looked into cabinets and blinked when He saw that some razor blade were missing
as well as bandages.

“Steeevee?!
Did you maybe used my razor blade? Or bandages?!” He yelled.

Steve went
to bathroom and looked at Bucky “Do I look like person that use them? “ He
asked frowning softly.

“No… but
they are missing and only I use them in this house.” Bucky muttered.

Steve
rolled his eyes “Maybe you used them and you don’t remember this?”

Bucky
sighed “Steve, I’m old but I don’t have Alzheimer.” He growled “Maybe Y/N used
them.”

“Yep!
Because our girl needs to use your razor blade and bandages.” He said and
looked at him.

Bucky
sighed sadly “You know… I don’t like one thing. They disappear almost every day…
both things, nothing else… but today I found this.” He said and showed Steve small
white towel with stains of blood “And I’m sure it’s not yours.” Bucky looked at
Steve worried “It’s also not mine… So, if it’s not mine and it’s not yours than…”

“Y/N..”
Steve said worried, looking at his friend.

Both of
them went to bedroom, Steve sat on bed and gently kissed you cheek to wake you
up
“Hey, doll. Sorry that we wake you up but We need to ask you something.”

“Hmmm…” You
muttered and opened one eye to look at your boys.

Bucky showed
you towel “I found it in bathroom… Do you wanna tell us something?” He asked

You quickly
woke up and sat up “Um.. I… I cut myself yesterday. I think I forgot to put it
in basked… I’m sorry boys.” You said and made your best fake smile.

Steve and
Bucky looked at each other, they didn’t believed you but they decided not to
press you.

Rest of the
day was calm but Steve and Bucky watched you, trying to find something. All
they could see was your problems with moving.


Since this
day both were checking everything. Razor blade and bandages were disappearing
every day and you had bigger problems with moving.

One night when
You were sure they are asleep you got up and went to bathroom to start your
small sick “ritual”
Boys watched you as you left bedroom
“I don’t like it…” Steve whispered
“Let’s follow her..” Bucky said and quietly got up from bed.

They both
followed you to bathroom, Steve slowly opened door.
You were in front of mirror, without your shirt. They looked at your body in
shock.

“Y/N!”
Bucky said in shock “What… What…” He said and looked at you.

You slowly
turned around and looked at them scared “Steve… Bucky… I can explain… I just..”

“Don’t even
say a word. We want see you in living room in a minute.” Steve said frowning
and wet to living room, Bucky followed him.

You could
feel tears in your eyes they had to never find out… never.

Steve was
walking around living room nervous, Bucky was sitting on couch watching him “Dude
calm down.
Steve wanted say something but then He saw you walking down the stairs.

You looked
scared at Steve and sad a Bucky.
Bucky patted his legs “Come here, doll.” You smiled at him softly and sat on
his laps. He stroked your cheek and kissed you gently. Steve sat behind you and
took off shirt from your shoulder, He gently kissed it.
Both looked at you with their big puppy’s eyes “Y/N why? Why you did this to
yourself? Why… Why we know nothing.” Steve said sadly.

You looked
at them and told them everything.
Steve and Bucky were shocked.

Bucky took
your face into his big hands and looked into your eyes
“Listen… We know it’s all hard but even now, you aren’t alone. You have me… you
have Steve and all your friends. We all were so worried that you become so
closed on us. Y/N we two love you too much… you know how it kill us… that… that
you do such a thing to yourself.”

“He is
right, doll. You are important to us. We love you and We will do everything for
you. We and friends… just please don’t hide stuff like this from us, okay.”

You looked
at them and started cry “I promise… I won’t do this again… n-next time I… I
will talk with you or Bucky.”

Steve and Bucky smiled “Good girls.” Bucky said
and they both hugged you tight.

~Few
months later~

You felt
much better. You wounds healed.
You good knew that boys are always with you.
Boy and all your friends, Everyone was making their best to make you feel
loved.

You lost
your real family, but now all your friends and your boys were your family. They
never let you forgot your parents and brother but they also never let you feel
alone or unloved.

This was
the most important to you were loved and you felt happy again.


Gif: Not mine, this time I haqve no idea where I found it.

A/N: Hey guys! It’s Cass here. I wrote this short story to show you all something. So… As you all know, I’m Beast gf. The thing is that this is Distance
relationship. For a long time I thought that He is fine, that He only have some
problems in work and that’s all but a day ago… He showed me what He did to himself.
The thing that I saw was terrible.
He also told me about his terrible thoughts… thanks god Me and rest of team
were able to pull him away from those thoughts by this small story, I want to
show you all that no matter what happen, you always can find people that will
be ready to support you and try to help you. That you are never alone. You need
to trust your friends or family, if not then than you should find someone who will
listen to you and try help you.


Take care guys and remember, no one is ever alone.


Gif: I have no idea. I just found it on my computer.

“YOU SHALL NOT PASS!” || BUCKY ONE SHOT

Words: 1314
Warnings: a little bit of cursing
Summary: Bucky wants to take a flight to Bucharest, unfortunately
at the airport there are problems because of his metal limb. Sam and Steve need
to calm their friend down, but it all goes wrong..
Requested by: anonymous
Gif: x

Author: Beast

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The terminal gate had a
large sitting area with the generic airport rows of chairs that were stuck
together, some of which were already filled with a mix of waiting passengers, a
few of them cheerfully optimistic while some looked irritated. The wide, glass
windows afforded a great view of the planes outside.

Bucky was sitting at
the chair, his legs crossed nicely as he was checking his phone and email.
He cursed and checked his watch.

„I’m gonna kill ‘em” he
grunted under his breath.

Standing up to stretch,
he looked around the terminal gate and noticed that the number of people had
dwindled. Bucky resisted the temptation to lick his lips, a nervous
habit that he’d never lost.

He spotted Sam and
Steve several minutes later.

“You both are late.
AGAIN” Bucky crossed his arms over his chest. “I’ve been waiting for fucking two
hours!

Steve approached Bucky
and put his large hand at man’s shoulder.

“I’m so sorry, Buck.
There was a huge traffic jam” blonde said in a soft voice, trying to calm his
buddy down.

Bucky only rolled his
eyes.

“Fine. Can we go now? I
don’t wanna miss a flight”.

Steve nodded and
pulling out his documents, with Sam and Bucky by his side, he went to the airport
check-in.

When their documents had
been inspected, guys went in the direction of security’s machine to check upon
metal stuff in their luggage.

The closer they were,
the more stressed Bucky was.

“Steve, shit, I won’t
pass it, ya know..” Bucky gently pointed at his left arm, carefully covered by
a grey hoodie.

“Easy, Buck, we’re
gonna make it” Steve patted his friend’s back, trying to give Bucky his
support.

As soon as the trio
stopped in front of the machine, they gave their bags to one of the guards to
let them check it.

After a while, the tall
man asked Steve to go through a metal detector.

Steve went through it
without any problems and as soon as he did, he turned to gave Bucky a look.
He knew his friend was a bit terrified.

Sam also went through the
detector without any issues.

And then it was Bucky’s
turn.

“Sir?” the tall guard
looked at Bucky with a suspicious gaze. “Is everything alright? You can do it
now.”

Bucky nodded nervously
and after several deep breaths he slowly stepped through the machine.

As soon as he did, the
detector started to beep like a crazy, signaling presence of metal with flashing of a
little red light.

Another security guard approached
Bucky and started to search him down.

“Pockets are clear” he
said to other man dressed in an uniform.

It was until guard
touched Bucky’s metal arm through his hoodie. Man frowned and glared up at
Bucky.

“Sir. We need you to
pull up your sleeve, please” guy said slowly, looking carefully at Bucky.

Barnes sighed deeply
and gave a brief look to Steve, who only nodded.

Bucky slowly rolled up
his sleeve, revealing his metal limb.

Two other security
guards came to check upon Bucky’s metal arm.

“Uhm.. Sir.. Is that
real or fake?” one of men, an older dude with glasses asked politely, blinking
few times.

Bucky hesitated and as
annoyed as he was, he mumbled quietly.

“Real.”

Guards gathered
themselves in a little circle, whispering something among each other.

“I knew it’ll end up like
this, Steve” Sam leaned to blonde man and chuckled softly.

“Shhh, Sam, not now”
Steve raised his hand to give his friend a sign to be quiet.

Bucky was still
standing in a place. He felt like an animal caught in a snares. Feeling glances
of other people, who were looking at him out of curiosity, Bucky growled
loudly.

“Ekhem. Shall we?” he
gave an anxious look to the older guard.

Man nodded and took a
deep breath.

“I am sorry sir, I am afraid
we cannot let you through with that metal.”

Bucky blinked and
instinctively looked at Steve with an imploring glance.

“I have to go with my
friends” Barnes felt like an idiot saying this. “We have a flight to Bucharest.”

Was he trying to
explain himself?!

Steve approached them
and smiled gently.

“Yes. He’s with us. We
have very important meeting there and we can’t miss this flight” Steve has shown
his ticket to guards. “Please.”

The older man shook his
head.

“I am sorry sir, it’s
the main rule and we have to obey it.”

Steve was about saying something,
when other guard cleared his throat.

“Sir” man looked at
Bucky, “is there something you can do with this… metal limb?”

Bucky blinked and shook
his head.

“No. Don’t think so, for fuck’s sake..”

“Oh yes, he can!” it
was no one else but Sam who stand next to Steve. “Buck, you can reattach it.”

“Oh, for sure, little
fucker!” Bucky growled aloud, causing the guards gave him an odd glances. “Ya
know I can’t do it now!”

Sam giggled.

“Easy, man, trying to
give ya some idea” Falcon shrugged with a cheeky grin on his lips.

Oh, how much Bucky was
hating that grin!

It caused his rage
increased within seconds.

“Fuck you, Sam!” Bucky
blew a hit in Falcon’s shoulder, but Sam blocked his hit.

Guards immediately came
in between two men to separate them from each other.

“EASY!” the older man
shouted. He turned his face to Bucky. “Is there any chance for you to reattach
that metal limb now?” he asked.

“I’ve been telling you
that no! For fuck’s sake, are you deaf, man!?” Bucky jerked, trying to free his
hand from grasp of security guards.

Falcon only laughed,
looking how frustrated Bucky was.

“You can try to put
your hand up in the air and go through that machine again!” he laughed from his
own joke. “Maybe it’ll work, huh?”

Steve punched Sam’s
shoulder, making an angry face and narrowing his brows.

“Sam, stop, don’t make
it worse!”

But Falcon’s comment
made Bucky yelled loudly.

“Fuck you, Wilson! Why
are you such a cunt, huh!?”

Sam smirked again,
laughing hardly.

“Because I love to piss
ya off, Buck!” he chuckled.

The guards were
thinking for a while.

“Well.. Maybe we can
try to wrap your limb in some material..” one of man suggested.

Steve nodded eagerly.

“Let’s give it a try,
men.”


Few minutes and outbursts
of anger later, Bucky’s arm was wrapped in a large white piece of a material
guards have found in an janitor’s room.

Steve was standing in
front of Bucky.

“Relax, take it easy” Rogers instructed his
friend before the next attempt.

He made a place for
Bucky and gently pushed him ahead.

Sam was standing next
to the guards, awaiting for the event development.

Bucky walked through the detector once again, but he
didn’t succeed. Again, the machine started to beep.

Steve just knew it won’t end properly as soon as he
spotted like Sam took a step ahead in the direction of Bucky and like he was spreading
his arms.

“Go back to the shadow, Winter Soldier! YOU SHALL NOT
PASS!
” Sam intoned with a deep voice, trying to sound like Gandalf from Lord of the Rings.

Before Steve barely could say something, Bucky simply
jumped to Falcon and after a while both men were tussling on the floor.

“How dare you, little fucker!” Bucky was yelling,
strangling Sam a bit.

Wilson was blocking each move of Barnes and after a moment
of fight, he managed to kick Winter Soldier off himself.

When Bucky was laying on the ground, gasping for air,
Sam crawled to him and punched him at the shoulder, choking himself with a
laughter.

“I am sorry, man!” Sam rolled at his back, Bucky did
same. “I just had to do it.”

Bucky growled, but after a second he was laughing too.

“Fucker” Bucky playfully punched Sam’s shoulder. “I
hate you.”

The chronicles of the winter || Part IX

Part II  || Part III || Part IV || Part V || Part VI || Part VII

|| Parta VIII

continuation of imagine

Summary: Steve’s mission went wrong… Very wrong.

Word Count:

2194

Warnings: Blood, injuries

Author: Beast

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Since their common evening, Emily hasn’t spoken with
Bucky at all.

He saw her few times. They passed each other like a
ghosts at the corridors of the complex. Everytime when Bucky wanted to ask the
woman, what exactly has changed between two of them that they couldn’t even
talk for a while, Emily was simply passing him by, don’t even looking at him.

He easily could feel that everything has changed.

Deep inside he knew he shouldn’t have been doing that.
He shouldn’t let her seduce him, it just couldn’t end well.

Bucky’s contact with Steve also has been restricted.

Their supervisors seemed to do everything to separate
men from each other.

Bucky could also feel kind of a distance, which has
built up between him and Steve.

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Another week has passed and Bucky confirmed himself in
a premonition that something was wrong.

While he was looking for Steve, he heard a
conversation between two of the guards in canteen.

“… with her” one of them said simply, drinking coffee.

“I would give everything to be at his place at the
moment” second man chuckled. “She’s pretty hot.”
“Of course she’s” guard who was drinking the coffee stretched his back. “Rogers is a fucking lucky
dude, isn’t he?”

“Don’t ya remember? He’s not Rogers anymore. They said he’s called Captain
Hydra now” older guy shrugged.

Bucky frowned, listening to this little conversation.
He realized that Steve has to be outside the complex. And… Was he with Emily?
Have they had a mission? But Steve would tell him… Why he didn’t?

Bucky, however, felt a cold shrink in his heart.

EMILY. She also went away without farewell. Without
single word. Why both of them were treating him like that?

He couldn’t find an answer.

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One day, Bucky has been taken to the small room at one
of the lowest levels of the complex.

There was three man awaiting at him. Two doctors and
no one else but Aiden Black himself.

“Good morning, soldier” man in a suit smirked
viciously.

Bucky didn’t say a word, he simply took a seat in
front of the man.

“Why are you so silent, soldier?” Black pretended a
concern.

“Where’s Steve?” Bucky simply asked.

Black raised his mouth corners in a haughty grin.

“He left. He has more important things to do instead
sitting here with you” man said.

Bucky snapped his head to face Aiden Black again.

“Liar” Barnes gasped loudly. “Steve’s my friend. He
wouldn’t…”

Black smirked again.

“Funny” Black mused with a sick smile, getting
dangerously close to Bucky’s face, “wasn’t that exactly the same thing that you
said the first time when Hydra found you?” he laughed harshly. “Face it,
Barnes. Steve Rogers’ dead. Now he’s the Captain Hydra and he’s working for us
and only for us” man in suit got up from his seat and walked slowly around the
room. “Nothing can bring him back” Black finally stopped behind Bucky’s back
and he put his large hands and Winter Soldier’s shoulders. Black also leaned
down and whispered directly into Bucky’s ear. “And as I suppose he’s having a
lot of fun with your Em.”

The last statement was like a sharp blade of a knife
stabbed into Bucky’s chest.

Bucky responded with spitting in Black’s smirking
face.

Of course, as always when he wasn’t behaving like they
would wanted, he was greeted with violence, but that didn’t matter.

“Now, get some rest, soldier” Aiden growled slowly,
wiping flecks of Bucky’ blood of off his hands. “We have work to do.”

When Black left the room, Bucky yelled aloud, hitting
the table in front of him with his metal fist.

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Evening had long since fallen, the
chill of night picking at the edges of his meager jacket as he silently made
his way through the quieting city. Captain Hydra was walking, passing closed
shops and tracing streets he didn’t know.

He had a mission to do and he didn’t want to let his
supervisors down.

Steve had to kill a director of some organization
named Robrax. It was kind of a pharmaceutical industry enterprise. Hydra was
willing to do anything, just to overtake some researches results. Steve only
knew they have wanted to make a new biological weapon.

He knew he should be careful, because, following the
information he got, it seemed that other organization has wanted him for their
own businesses.

Being in a deep thoughtfulness, he easily got at the
terrain of the restricted area.

The building was oh so large. White walls and glazed
doors were giving that real estate more dignity then he thought in a first
moment.

With a knife in his hand, he quietly slipped into a
large building. He sneaked unheeded next to the guard’s place and he headed
directly into the office number 10, located at the second floor.

Taking a staircase, he reached the floor and when he
checked that no body’s there, he slowly stepped at the corridor. He went along
it until he found a door with a gold numbers on them. Steve opened them and walked
inside. Immediately he noticed the man he was looking for.

Dressed in a black suit, guy was sitting in the
leather chair, making some notes. Fortunately for Steve, man was facing him
with his back.

Captain Hydra walked over to his target and as quickly
as he could, he put his palm at man’s mouth to cut over his throat in the next
second.

It didn’t take long for man to bleed out.

Steve, as soon as he made sure man’s dead, he left the
room, putting his knife back into his pocket.

He also easily managed to leave the building.

It was first time when he killed someone because of an
order. Deep inside the last degraded ounce of his morality was trying to
convince him that he was making a huge mistake. But he pushed those thoughts
away.

He walked slowly along the street, heading to his
apartment, which Hydra has rented for him.

The barking of a dog jarred him from
his thoughts, body suddenly tense and eyes, hard as steel and just as cold,
scanning his surroundings for any threat as he stopped in his tracks. His knife
was produced from his pocket, not as large but just as deadly in his capable
hands. 

Another noise caught his attention. Footsteps,
ten feet behind to the right. His mind was just methodical and
calculating. Fingers tightened around the handle of the combat knife, although
he showed no outward signs of realizing he was being approached; to any
passersby it merely looked as if he was staring off into the jeweled skyline.
The darkness would either be a great hindrance or a welcome advantage, but only
time would tell..

Click. The sound of
the safety switching off of a pistol was all the prompting Steve needed. Moving
with a speed unexpected in his depleted state he spun around. A great blaze of
light and concussive sound filled the street, the weapon discharging as Steve
plunged his knife deep into the chest of his would-be assailant. In that
quarter second of movement he had searched, located and struck, the metal blade
deftly gliding between ribs and into a lung. The air filled with the sharp scent
of copper and iron as blood poured from the wound.

Steve quickly realized it was one of the guards from
Robrax.

The haphazard discharge of the weapon
had blasted a round into the sidewalk, the sound of it no doubt alerting every
person within a two block radius. I need to
escape.

The man collapsing into a pool of his
own blood, not dead but not quite alive.

If there was one there had to be
more, he thought, and they had to be coming for him. He made it two steps
before he heard the crack of a sniper rifle, echoing off some far-off building.
The next few seconds blurred together, but he remembered being knocked off his
feet, air forced from his lungs as he hit the brick wall of the building next
to him, knife clamoring from his hand. Heat blossomed on his back, a burst of
wet crimson that trickled down his spine as a bullet planted itself squarely
into his right shoulder blade. The choking cry of surprise that escaped him
startled him.

The pain hadn’t hit him yet, but his body felt like
ice. His legs were sluggish underneath him as he struggled to his feet, bolting
into an alleyway as he heard another bullet slam into the wall behind him. It’d
been a low shot, as if for his leg. They want me alive.
The thought filled him with a sick dread as he realized that they wanted to put
him back on his leash, or worse, put him down so he couldn’t spill their
secrets, although he had no secrets to tell. At least, not as he was now.

Shouts of men filled the street. “Down the alleyway!” and
“He’s getting away!” among other things he couldn’t catch. The pain
was starting to filter into his awareness, starting as an acidic heat that
slowly built in on itself. His heart was pounding, lungs heaving, as he tried
to lose the guard’s team in the maze of back alley streets. He needed to get to
the apartment.

As he rounded a corner, two guardians spotted him,
shouting loudly to others. A swear hissed under his breath, narrowly avoiding
another bullet aimed for his legs. His reflexes were slowing, he could feel it,
his strength draining from the wound the harder he pushed himself. A pistol was
produced from his pocket, only two rounds fired with the same deadly precision
he had used to change history numerous times. The first man dropped in a heap,
not even getting the luxury to realize he had been hit. The other’s ribs popped
wetly as the bullet tore open his side, letting out a ghastly cry as he tumbled
to the ground and didn’t get back to his feet.

Without a moment’s hesitation the Steve was gone, vanishing into the
darkness like the ghost he was before more of the guard’s team could arrive.
Rain earlier in the day had slickened the streets, helping to hide his trail of
blood as he snaked his way through the sleeping city. He had no idea how long
he was running and barely had any recollection of where he was going, his body
operating almost entirely on instinct by the time he reached that familiar
building. His running had slowed to a staggering shamble, forcing his legs,
which he lost feeling in about three minutes ago, to climb up the flight of
stairs.

His breathing came with difficulty, his limbs heavy and blood like ice.
The worn clothing he had been wearing was soaked through with his own blood,
which still bubbled from the sniper’s bullet.

The door to the second floor apartment seemed like a nearly
insurmountable obstacle. His glassed-over eyes darted from the knob to the
floor, then to a small, out-of-place planter of tiny flowers. Barely a murmur
of thought crossed his mind as he nudged it with his foot, exposing a key. He was
too exhausted and in too much pain to question just why he believed there would
have been a key there. The key was retrieved, clumsily inserted into the lock,
and the door opened without protest; he could have kicked it open or picked the
lock like last time, but he didn’t have the time or strength to attempt it.

With a soft clink of metal the key fell from his trembling fingers to
the floor, shakily standing at the threshold taking great, heaving breaths. His
vision was growing blurry and his hearing muffled, but after a moment of
hesitation he stepped inside, pulling the door shut behind him, the click of
the lock oddly comforting. Movement in front of him, down the narrow hall, and
he knew he wasn’t alone. The pistol was still clutched in his left hand. He
tried to take another step but his body had had enough; the pistol dropped to
the floor, abandoned, as he tried to steady himself by pressing that palm to
the wall.

Something was spoken to him but he didn’t catch it,
gaze lifting to where he’d seen the movement earlier. Someone was standing a
few yards away now. He didn’t need to hear to know who it was. Breath was
inhaled sharply, words attempted but failed.

Emily Vandom. 

His whole body was shaking; it felt like the world was
collapsing in on itself all around him. Underneath all the pain was a faint,
lingering disappointment. Pain washed his thoughts away, a low whimper in his
throat betraying the fact he was injured. He was going to go down, he felt it,
and not a moment later did his right leg buckle, his whole body collapsing with
it. He fell into something warm and yielding, not hard floor like he expected,
but he had no time to ponder it as the darkness closed in on him.

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TENDER LOVE – BUCKY BARNES X READER ONE SHOT

Summary: You happen to be Bucky’s
girlfriend. It’s your birthday that day and Bucky wants you to feel as special
as it’s possible, so he shows you his very romantic side, about which you didn’t
know earlier.

Word Count: 1219

Warnings:

smut, unprotected sex
and fluff 🙂

Author: Nad


You came back home earlier than you were planning too, however
it was still a late evening.

“I’m back home, Bucky!” you said loudly, taking off your blue
coat and hanging it at hatrack next to the door.

You frowned a bit as you heard nothing but silence. With a loud
sigh you took of your high heels and with a bag on your shoulder you stepped
into a living room, becoming motionless as soon as you did.

On the floor there were petals of roses in different shades of
pink and red.

On the little dining table few candles has been placed. There
also were petals.

The only light in the room was caused by those candles.

A bottle of a red wine, two glasses and plates – everything was
placed shipshape.

You slowly took the bag off of your shoulder and put it on the
couch.

Slowly you went deep into the room, looking around as you were
trying to figure out what was happening.

Suddenly, you felt a familiar pair of a strong palms on your
shoulders.

Instead of words, you heard a low voice whispering into your
ear from behind.

“I hope you like what you see.”

That sentence hung in the room when you were thinking how to
respond.

“I… Bucky.. It’s beautiful…” you whispered slowly.

A rough hand has been placed on your cheek, forcing you to turn
your head back.

As soon as you did, you felt a rough lips on your soft ones.

You closed eyes, enjoying the tenderness of the kiss. Your hand
found its way to Bucky’s unshaven cheek.

After the kiss he looked deeply into your eyes and smiled at
you.

Man offered you his metal arm.

“Shall we?” he asked politely and you gave a nod.

Bucky led you to one of the chairs and he improved it as soon
as you took a seat.

“Thank you” you smiled brightly looking as he was taking his
own seat.

It was only when you realized he was dressed in your favorite
outfit, namely dark jeans and a black satin shirt. His dark hair has been
gathered in a little bun.

“You look amazing, Buck” you giggled softly, smiling at him.

“Not as much as you, doll” he smirked happily, unscrewing the
bottle of wine.

You both enjoyed a delicious meal your boyfriend had prepared
for that dinner.

He also gave you a present. It was a gold necklace and a pair
of gold earrings in a shape of roses.

“Oh, Buck, you shouldn’t have..” you weren’t even trying to
hide your astonishment as Bucky helped you to put the necklace on.

His strong hands skilfully buttoned it up on your neck while he
leaned down to kiss your cheek and whispered.

“Happy birthday, Y/N.”

You giggled softly, brushing his chin with your fingers.

“I didn’t know that my man can be oh so charming” you smirked.

Bucky laughed shortly.

“As you can see, I can still be an enigma to you.”

You felt like his metal arm has been wrapped around your waist
and his second hand has been placed under your knees.

“Buck, what..” but you couldn’t end your sentence, because you
started to giggle as soon as he picked you up, taking you in his arms.

“Shh” he only murmured softly, walking upstairs with you in his
arms. “If you were thinking that was everything, you were wrong” he said
openly. “But the second part of my surprise will need your effort also” he
kissed your chin.

You bit your lower lip slightly. You good knew, what was about
to happen.

Your common bedroom was embellished with candles and incenses.
A sweet scent of vanilla caused that you immediately relaxed.

“Mmm.. You gave your best in that preparations” you kissed his
lips.

He slowly laid you down on the bed and took a place between
your legs, kissing your lips very tenderly.

You wanted him. Like never before.

Bucky gently put hands on your hips, you grinded yourself
closer to him. He shock his head and whispered that tonight was about you.
Bucky then slowly removed his shirt and then he undressed you from your tight
dress. Man stopped and just lay staring at your half naked body, you grabbed
his hands off your hips and you moved them further down your body.

He knew exactly what you wanted, so Bucky put hand down your
lacy underwear, he slowly rubbed his hand against her and he grinned as he
could feel that you were already moist.

You then pulled yourself more of him, you put hands down his
boxers.

“Not tonight, doll” he let off a little laugh as he reminded
you that it was about you tonight.

He kissed his way around your breasts, slowly removing your bra
and let his tongue circulate your nipples. He could tell by your small groans
this was exactly what you have wanted.

He kissed his way down your body, then he came to your hips,
Bucky kissed each one and removed your sexy underwear.

Bucky gently kissed the top of your clit and let the tip of his
tongue to tease you. He smirked as he gently let the tip of his tongue slipped
inside you. Bucky worked his way around, good knowing what you wanted.

Your groans grew louder and longer.

“Exactly like that, don’t stop..” you purred softly, gripping
the sheets.

After a few minutes he stopped and used his metal fingers, so
he could then kiss your nipples too.

You were running your hands through his dark hair.

“Oh my God…” you moaned quietly, biting your lips.

Bucky took off his jeans and boxers and he started to kiss your

neck and as slowly as he could, Bucky entered himself inside
you.

First, he moved slowly, letting you to adjust to his size. And
then he started to thrust faster.

“God, I love you, Y/N” he mumbled in a pleasure.

He carried on until you started to scream his name.

“Buck! I’m gonna cum!” you screamed, digging your nails in his
muscular back.

He stopped instantly.

“Bucky…” you almost begged but he only smiled, pulling his
penis out of your pussy.

Brunette rolled at side and you eagerly got on top of him. You
arched your back so he could slowly put himself back inside you.

You rested your hands on his broad chest and he held you from
your back. Bucky slowly moved hands to your ass, gently squeezing it and it was
when you started to go faster and harder.

“Hey, easy, doll, slow down” he purred, watching your sweaty
body. He moved his metal hand to grab your boobs.

“I can’t, Buck! I wanna cum!” you threw your head back, going
even faster, bucking your hips back and forth. So he let you to carry on.

Bucky squeezed your ass for one last time and you screamed you
came. As soon as he felt your hot cum around his cock, he exploded his load in
you.

“Fuck!” you screamed and then you simply fell on him, gasping
for air.

He wrapped arms around your waist and kissed your sweaty
forehead.

“That was amazing, doll” Bucky left a little hickey on your
neck.

It was the best sex you both ever had.