Longing For You || Steve Rogers x Reader Smut

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Summary: Steve had gotten back home from the
mission and it seems both of you were longing each other…
Words: 826
Warnings: smut
Author: Ailo

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Unlocking the door
to the apartment, Steve Rogers was right about ready to crash. He had just
gotten back home from a two weeks mission and he wanted to be in his own bed…
and in your arms.

“(Y/N)”
he breathed out when he found you. You were dressed in a tiny silk nightgown,
drinking some tea at the dining table.

“Oh hey,
hon!” You exclaimed, getting up and giving him a quick peck on the lips.
“Nat told me you arrived today.”

“Did she? I
kinda wanted it to be a surprise..” he smiled, running his eyes over you
with longing.

You pulled him in
for a deeper kiss. You knew Steve loved it when you plaid the desperate housewife.
Sure, you had your own time consuming job, but he loved knowing he was your
everything. And so, seeing you sitting there with the dim lights making your
skin glow, well… he forgot all about how tired he was. He led you both to the
couch and sat himself down with you on his lap.

You could feel his
hands rub all over your silk dress while you began to grind on his pants,
feeling his hard cock through the fabric. He pulled down the this straps of the
gown and you unlooped you arms, letting it fall to reveal your breasts. He
pulled you in closer, put one of your hard nipples in his mouth and began
working it with his tongue. You rocked your hips harder until finally, you
couldn’t take it anymore.

“Baby, I was
longing for you.. Steve.. I need you in me…” you begged.

“Get on the
couch” he commanded.

You got off of him
and he stood, but when you were about to lay on your back, he flipped you over
and placed you on your knees. You held onto the top of the couch while he
spread your legs out to his liking. He caressed you folds, as they were
uncovered since you decided not to wear underwear, letting out low moans of
approval. Hearing the sound of a belt and zipper being undone, you started to
turn and look at him. Steve grabbed your head and turned you away.

“Ohhh, no
way,” he teased as he finished undressing himself.

“I want to
see your..”

“Should
thought of that before you let me go on that damn mission” he chuckled
lowly. You felt both his hands caress your back and then a second later, you
heard the loud ripping of your nightgown.

“That’s the
one you bought me on my birthday!”

“Yeah? Well
it served its purpose!” He said loudly as he pushed his cock into you.
Even neighbors probably heard your moans.

Steve began to
pound in a steady pace, his cock sending shockwaves throughout your body. He
grabbed a bunch of your hair and pulled them as he grunted with every thrust.

“Faster..”
you pleased. Steve slapped your ass making you yelp in pleasure, but he granted
your wish.

The sound of skin
on skin echoed through the apartment but all you could focus on was his huge
cock rubbing against your tight walls. With every push, he made contact with
your spot and your moans grew louder.

“Yeah, you
like that?” He panted. “Fuck.”

He slapped your
ass again, then gripped your waist tighter, going at faster pace.

You curled and
uncurled your toes and tried to open wider for him. Your breaths became
shallower as he slid in and out at the unbearable quickness. Your walls
tightened around his cock.

“I’m… about
to cum..” you managed to say.

Steve put one hand
on your chest and the other on your stomach and pulled you up close to him. You
reached up behind you and ran a hand through his hair and rested the other on
his defined ass. You felt every curve of his abs with your back and butt. He
rubbed himself all over you, mixing his sweat with yours. Your neck became
warmer with ever touch of his lips and tongue. You were shivering in your arms.

Then he began to
pound hard again, kneading your breast with one hand, and your clit with the
other. You felt your walls tensed up more, then… the release of the orgasms
as you clenched and unclenched around his dick.

“Shit,
(Y/N)!” he said as he continued to push in you. You heard him hold out his
moans longer and you moaned along with him.

“Fuck,
(Y/N)!” He began a string of curse words. You felt his pace began to
falter. His cock then pulsed inside you, shooting warm cum deep within.

Steve leaned on
you as he rested his head on your shoulder, making you chuckled.

“Well..”
you panted, “now I really wanna know what happened on that mission.”

He laughed
breathlessly and kissed the back of your neck.

“How about
tomorrow?” he asked. “Now let’s go to bed. I missed you so much.”

My little treasure || Part III

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Teaser || Part I || Part II

WORD COUNT: 2930

WARNINGS: none

AUTHOR: Cass

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It was only
two days after whole Andrea’s accident. She stayed in S.H.I.E.L.D.

Andrea was
looking at white wall still lying in her bed.
Suddenly she heard a voice .

“Hey… How do you feel?” It was grant. He solely sat on Andrea’s bed when she
sat up.

“Good… but
I still feel bad… because of this what happened two days ago.” She said sadly.

Grant
smiled softly and stroked her hair. “It’s okay, nothing too bad happened.
Everything is fine now.”

Andrea
sighed heavily and quickly broked down. She started cry. “No! It’s not! I’m a
monster! Machine… next Hydra’s experiment!”

Grant
looked at her. “Hey hey hey… Shhh…” He wrapped his arms around her and pulled
her into a hug. “It’s okay now. Andrea… please calm down.” Grant said and
pulled her onto his laps.

“But… l..
look… What I did… I hurt my dad… I wanted hurt you… Why… Why you tried to stop
me… I could kill you..”

Grant
stroked her cheek and sighed. “Because you are important to me. I wasn’t
scared… I will always try to protect you… I could die for you.” He told her.

Andrea
looked at him in shock.
“G-Grant… what are you saying..”

“All I’m
saying is…” He said slowly and kissed her. Andrea blinked but didn’t pull away,
she kissed him back.

“I just
love you.” He finished after braking the kiss “I will never let anything bad
happen to you.” He said and Andrea only nodded. Grant laughed softly and kissed
her again.

After few
minutes they both jumped surprised when they heard angry voice.
“Am I interrupting in something?!”
It was Steve and this time he was really pissed.

Grant
looked at Steve. Andrea also looked at him, he was really scared.
“Dad…. I  just… I mean we…” Grant looked
at Andrea.

“I can see
what you two are doing! I told you, she is Hydra’s experiment. She showed what
she is capable to. She is a dangerous creature!” Steve growled in a low voice
of his.

Grant let
Andre sit on bed and he got up. “No! She is not! I love her! And I don’t care
anymore what you think about her. Because I LOVE HER!”

“And you
are my son, MY son! And as long as I’m alive you will do what I say.” Steve
grabbed Grant’s arm and pulled him out of the room.
“I don’t care what you think about her. She is walking monster!” Steve growled
at Grant.

He suddenly
saw Bucky. “And you! Keep this thing away from my son!” Steve yelled at Bucky
and left hospital with Grant.

Bucky
blinked confused and watched as blond man left the building.
“Um… it’s nice… to see you two too..” He said slowly and went to Andrea’s room.

Girl was
hiding under her blanket, Bucky looked at this really worried. He sat on bed
and rubbed her back.

“Go away
Grant… your dad hate me…” She whimpered.

Bucky
smiled “I’m not sure if my name is Grant.”

Andrea sat
up and looked at Bucky from under blanket, “DAD!” She whimpered happily and
hugged to him tight.

“Calm down,
or you will break more of my ribs.” He giggled and hugged her back tight, “I
missed you, little one.”

“How do you
feel… w-what I did to you..” Andrea asked and looked at him.

Bucky only
smiled at her “For me more important is how you feel but… I only have few ribs
broken. I don’t know how many… I didn’t listen. I was more worried about my
daughter.”

Andrea
sighed and looked at him with tears in her eyes. “I… I didn’t mean to dad… I
don’t know… I was so angry, scared. This rage, it ripped me from the inside. I
wasn’t controlling myself. I’m sorry.”

Bucky
looked at her and put his hand on her cheek. “Sweetheart… please, shhh. It’s
okay, I understand, I good know this feeling.” He told her.

Andrea
nodded and hugged to him tight. Bucky spend few hours with her before he had to
go back.


Martha
knocked to Andreas door.
“Knock knock. How’s my favorite patient?” She asked and slowly sat on Andrea’s
bed .“I hope you feel better, Andrea. Just I wanna you to know that Bucky will
be able to take you home soon, I hope you are happy.” She smiled.

Girl only
smiled sadly and nodded “Yes… I wanna go home, to dad.” She said quietly.

“Andrea…
something’s wrong? I can see that you are quiet… and I’m sure that this time
it’s not because the thing that happened two days ago.” Martha sighed and got
up from bed. She walked to girl. “Come on tell me..”

Andrea
looked at her.
Andrea felt bad because of everything. Because of thing that happened, because
of Bucky and Steve and because of Grant. She told everything to Martha.

Martha
giggled. “Finally my son had shown some balls…” She muttered to herself and
sighed. “You know what… I think you shouldn’t think about this. Everything will
be fine. Things like this won’t happen again, Bucky is quickly returning to
health and Steve… He is himself, but don’t worry. I won’t let him separate you
with Grant. Now… It’s getting late, you should try to sleep a bit, okay?”

Andrea
smiled and nodded, now she felt much better “Thank you..” She said.

Martha
nodded. “No problem Kid… I will be back at morning to check upon you. Good
night and see you tomorrow.”  


Andrea
spent few days in hospital, after this time Bucky took her back home.

Girl
happily flopped on her own bed in her own home, Andrea sat slowly on bed and
looked at Bucky. “Dad… I… can we talk about me? I mean… about what I am?” She
looked at Bucky with her big puppy’s eyes.

Bucky
smiled sadly and nodded, he sat next to her. “Just… remember, no matter what I
always love you.”
Andrea nodded “Sure… I love you too, dad.”
Bucky smiled sadly. “So… it was fourteen years ago..” He began.

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fourteen years ago~~~~~~

 

“Everyone’s
down?” Steve sighed heavily picking up his shield from floor.

“Well, no
one shoots to us anymore, so I think yes, Cap.” Bucky looked around and smiled
at his friend.

Steve
nodded and put shield on his back. “So… Agents will go there and we will go to
main lab.”  Steve ordered and few agents
that were with them left them alone on the corridor “You okay, Buck?”

“I just…”
He looked around again, Bucky felt really uncomfortable. “Just… bad memories..
but let’s go. We should check what those sick bustards were doing here.” Man
muttered and started walking toward main lab.

Steve
followed his friend.

Main lab
was a huge room, filled with all kinds of weird things. Many books, boxes with
documents. Photos of some creepy stuff.

Bucky
looked at documents. “That makes sense…”
Bucky muttered.

“What is
it, Buck? What do you mean?” Steve asked.

“Look at
those photos, Steve… they were experimenting on people, kids… even unborn one…”
Bucky put few pages of documents on table.

Steve
looked at them. “Yes… Look… This woman… She got missing few weeks ago.” He
picked up documents and started looking trough them. “13 years old girl…
pregnant woman… Man from store… Mother and her newborn son… Everyone that ever
reported missing from city below.  Just
reading their treatment makes me sick…” Steve shook his head and shivered.

“I never
really met with such a cruelty from Hydra… I mean I knew they can be cruel…”
Bucky muttered, walking around in room, checking under tables and other place
where they could find something.

“I think
it’s more like new… branch of Hydra. All those adults that think they can make
Hydra great again… Like we can see they left really quickly… or those few that
we met were last one in here. I have no idea.” Steve shrugged “I will have to
move all those stuff to S.H.I.E.L.D, and I will have to send letters to
families… You know… When we were at war. I thought it is hard, but it’s harder
than I ever thought.” Steve said and looked at Bucky.

But Bucky
wasn’t really listening to his friend, he found small room. It had working
light and it was warm. There was small bed inside, some toys, small clothes
were laying on floor and on a small chair. “What the hell…” Bucky muttered and
walked inside.
“Bucky…” Steve blinked and followed his friend slowly.

Bucky
looked around, room was really small, but only now Bucky could see pink walls
covered in childish drawing, whole place looked better than whole place. Bucky
also saw table with long  tablecloth. He
could hear some quiet sounds from there. He slowly walked to table, man got
onto his knees and slowly moved tablecloth up.

There was
sitting a small girl. With short dark brown hair, she had big green eyes, small
pink lips and she was really skinny.
Girl looked at Bucky scared and moved herself away from man.

“Hey hey…
shhh… look, I’m not one of those man. They were coming to you? They were bad?
You are scared of  those man?” Bucky
asked quietly.

Girl
whimpered and nodded three times.

Bucky
smiled at her. “Hey, we are here to help you, little one. We will take you
home, to your mommy and daddy. Come on now… look I have this special hand… It
will protect you.” He said and pulled out his metal arm toward girl.

She looked
at him but after a minute she moved closer to him.

“That’s it.
You are a good and smart girl.” Bucky said softly and wrapped arm around girl.
Bucky hugged girl and got up from floor. “You are safe now, no one gonna hurt
you.”

Steve
looked at him. “What the hell are you doing with this child?!” Steve frowned.

“Calm down
Steve… She is just a child, she’s not gonna hurt us.” Bucky smiled.

“Look at
her! We know nothing about her. She is Hydra’s experiment. We don’t know what
sit in her.” He growled and took his shield in his hand “We can’t let her
live.”

Bucky
frowned. “Are you kidding me? She is just a child.” Bucky said hugging again
scared girl to him. “I don’t let you kill her, she is so small.”

“She is
Hydra experiment. You think why they keep her alive?” Steve said.

“Then why
you never killed me, Steve? I was an experiment too. Good man changed into
killing machine by HYDRA.” Bucky said and looked at girl. “Let me take care of
her… I promise… I will do everything.”

Steve
frowned. “Fine…” He put shield on his back. “But if anything ever happen
because of this thing… it will be only your responsibility.”

Bucky
nodded and looked at girl. “You see… I told you.” He smiled when girl looked at
him and smiled back. Her smile was still caused by her fear but Bucky could
feel that she was really happy because she was safe now.

Whole paper
work in S.H.I.E.L.D took a lot of time. Bucky saw girl’s documents but he
didn’t like what Steve wrote there. He agreed at those words only because Steve
promised she won’t ever see those documents.

Girl was
sitting at big metal table in lab. Bucky stayed close, while Martha was
examining her.

“She looks
healthy, I mean. She isn’t sick… but there is one thing.. that made me worry.”
She said and looked at Bucky.

“What is
it?” He blinked, he started feel something weird inside. Since they found her,
he got really attached to her. It was weird but nice feeling for him. It was
something new, something that made him feel warm inside. He wanted this girl to
be safe whole time. Was it because they shared similar life. Hydra’s
experiment, good person destroyed by sick people, loners found by good person.
He had no idea… but he really liked this feeling.

“I mad
X-rey. She has a metal hand…” Martha said.

Bucky
looked at her and at girl. “Um… Sorry Martha.. but I don’t see it.” He said
really confused.

“I also
thought it but look..” She walked to girl. “Will you let me show Uncle Bucky
the magic trick with your skin?” Martha asked, looking at girl.

Girl smiled
at woman and at Bucky, she nodded and giggled quietly.

Bucky felt
even more warm inside when he heard this quiet sound, he felt… good, he felt
happy.

Martha
nodded and slowly pulled off skin from girl’s hand “It’s some kind of… bionic
skin, I think I will send it to Stark. He will know what to do with it.”

Bucky
looked at hand “They… hide it… but why?” He walked to girl and took her small
had into his hands.

Martha
shrugged. “Maybe she had to be some secret weapon. We will never find out I
think. But as far as I see she is fine. We didn’t find anything bad in her. She
is just too skinny, but it will quickly go back to normal. You talked with
Steve?”

Bucky
nodded and sat on table, girl climbed on his laps by herself and put her hand
on his arms. Then smiled at him. Bucky smiled softly “Yes I talked with
him,  I want adopt her. Take her with me
to home.” He said.

Martha
blinked. “Are you sure? I mean we don’t know if she is 100% okay.”

Bucky
nodded. “I was in similar situation too… Steve helped me. It’s time for me to
help someone, we both are from Hydra’s hands… Who else will be able to help her
better than me.”

Martha
smiled softly. “If you say so Bucky.” She nodded. “She is three years old but
she doesn’t have a name.” She said and looked at Bucky.

“I thought
about one… Andrea, I like this name. I think it will be perfect for her.” Man
said and girl smiled at him.

Martha
smiled. “Okay, fine. Better go home now. She needs rest, food, water and love.”

First few
months with Andrea were hard.
It took Bucky long time to figure out what girl like to eat and what she
doesn’t like. What she likes to wear and what not.

Bucky was
giving Andrea almost whole his time. When she was asleep he was preparing room
for her. She was getting sick many times what meant that Bucky spent many
nights with girl in his bed, making sure she is okay. It was hard, Bucky was
making so many stuff at once that he slept when he could, while waiting at
microwave to stop, when Andrea was with Martha at her research, during girl’s
nap time.

But it all
was worth it. After few months Andrea started talk, she started eat properly,
she started smile more often, many night were peaceful for Bucky and for
Andrea. Bucky lived moments that he thought will never come to him. Visits at
playground, trips to cinema to see new move for children, walks to zoo. Bucky
couldn’t be more happy than He was with his adopted daughter.

He was
often leaving Andrea with Steve’s son and their babysitter. Steve wasn’t really
happy because of this fact, but Martha was really good in calming down her
stubborn husband.

When Andrea
met Grant she was even more happy. Bucky had to learn her good manners, how to
act around other people and explain girl that she isn’t weird but special.


Andrea
looked at him. “Dad… m… maybe you aren’t my real dad, but I never knew my real
parents… I love you… and… thank you for everything. All those sleepless night
that you spend with me, all this time that you gave me trough my whole life.”

Bucky
smiled and hugged her. “It was all worth it… Because now I have wonderful young
lady… and she is my lovely daughter.”

“Dad… Can
you do something for me?”

“What is
it, sweetheart?” Bucky sighed softly.

“Can… can
you do something so Grant will come here. Steve really made sure he won’t visit
me… and… I miss him.” She said sadly.

Bucky smiled
and ruffled her hair. “I will try my best. Now try to relax you are finally
home.


Next Andrea
got up really late. When she walked to kitchen she saw Bucky, Martha and Grant.

Grant saw
her and quickly walked to her. “I missed you!” He said and hugged her really
tight.

Andrea
giggled and nuzzled to him. “I missed you too… soo much!” She whimpered
happily.
Grant smiled and kissed her, after a long kiss he looked at her. “I missed you
harder…” He muttered happily.

Andrea
giggled happily and suddenly realized that Martha and Bucky were watching them
whole time. Grant saw how her face became red and looked at Bucky and his
mother.

Martha was
watching them, smiling gently. Bucky was looking at them with big smiled on his
face. “I am puking rainbows!” He yelled and laughed “So cute. Go upstairs… She
missed you. Just you two have to be quiet there.”

“Daad!!”
Andrea whimpered and her face became even more red.
Bucky only giggled and shook his head. “Go go, I will talk with Martha and
think what to do with our cap.”

Andrea
nodded and took Grant up stairs.

Martha
smirked. “They look cute together… I don’t understand why Steve hate her so
much.”

Bucky
nodded “I don’t understand since We found her…” He said softly.

My little treasure || Part II

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Teaser || Part I 

WORD COUNT: 1450

WARNINGS: none

AUTHOR: Cass

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‘’Andrea! Get into the car.” Bucky
said looking at his daughter
“Nooo I don’t want to go to S.H.I.E.L.D, daddy… please.” She whimpered
looking at him with her big blue eyes.
“Sweetheart… Stop, you know you need to. Please, get into the car. It will be
only few hours.” Bucky told her and stroked her hair.

Andrea nodded slowly “Okay daddy.”

Bucky sighed heavily and got onto
his seat  “It will be okay, you will
see.”
Andrea only nodded.


Bucky took Andrea inside
S.H.I.E.L.D and straight into the lab.

Martha smiled at Bucky “Bucky! I’m
so glad you came.”

“I had to. It’s Andrea’s day.”
Bucky muttered and looked at girl “Go, sweetheart, I will go to talk with big
Director of New S.H.I.E.L.D.” Bucky rolled his eyes.

Martha looked at him sadly “Bucky..
please… He didn’t meant to.” She said.

Bucky nodded. “Yes… Just
like he didn’t mean anything fourteen years ago… Since he is director of new
S.H.I.E.L.D he changed… maybe you don’t see this… but I do.” He sighed.
“Okay… See you later. Take care of my girl.” Bucky smiled at Andrea and left
lab.

Martha looked at Andrea,
girl wasn’t in great mood. “Oh come on… I can’t start our stuff when you are
so sad. Let’s find something to cheer you up.” woman said.

“I’m not five years old
anymore… You’re not gonna give me a toy to make me feel better.” Andrea
muttered.

Martha sighed. “Who said
something about toys. Grant… can you come here?”

Andrea blinked and smiled
“Grant!” She ran to him and hugged him tight. He smiled and hugged her back,
nuzzling to her shoulder.

“How do shoulder?” She
asked and looked at him worried.

Grant shrugged. “A bit
sore… but… better now.” He said softly. Andrea laughed softly and ruffled
his blond hair.

Martha smiled at them “Come
on Andrea. We should start. Grant can hold your hand if you are scared.” She
giggled.

“I wish I could… but…
Dad asked me to go see him… I want go there as soon as possible… Because
you know..” Grant said and looked at Andrea.

She nodded and smiled.
“Go… I will try not to ran away.” Andrea giggled.

Grant smiled and nodded,
than he left the lab.

“I will go to my office
now, someone will take care of small research. I will take care of bigger one.
As always.” Marth smiled and went to her office.

Andrea sat on one of the
metal tables. She sighed and looked around, she was used to all those
reserches, but she still hated it. She was visiting this place once per month.
Since she could remember.

Suddenly she saw two women.
One of them was new to her and other was just Martha’s assistant.

New woman walked to Andrea and smiled. “Hello there. I’m
Alana and you need to be….” She said slowly and looked at paper that she had
in hand. “Object… HCH-13. It’s nice to meet you.”

Andrea blinked and looked at woman. “I…. I’m sorry… I don’t
understand… My… My name is Andrea… Andrea Barnes…” She said slowly.

“No… I see this in documents… You are object HCH-13” woman
said again.

Suddenly Marta and her assistant walked to woman, but Andrea
was quicker and grabbed documents from woman’s hand.

She started read it. “Object HCH-13,  Found in one of Hydra’s base.  Humanoid object, looking like three years old
child with metal hand (Probably Hydra’s experiment) Orders: capture, shut down
in New S.H.I.E.L.D facility.
Make research every month, staring at day of arrival of object into facility.
Object may be highly dangerous. Signed… Director… Steve Rogers…” Than paper was
ripped out of her hand by Martha.

“WHAT IS IT?!” Andrea yelled. “What this suppose to mean?!”

“Nothing you should be interested in, young lady… I told you
to tell every new member about HCH-13 case…” Martha snapped at her assistant.

When Marta’s wasn’t looking, Andrea quickly ran out of lab,
heading upstairs to Steve’s office.


“Steve, I told you I won’t give her away. She is with me
since we found her.”  Bucky muttered.

“Buck, we talked about this… Okay maybe it wasn’t her
yesterday but I still don’t trust her in 100%. We can’t be sure. She will be
adult soon, maybe something will activate in her, she may be dangerous.” Steve
said frowning. “I’m not a monster, I know. She is still a kid but I’m worried
about safety. That’s all.” Blond man explained shortly.

“Steve… I understand… But she was too small then and look…
nothing happened, whole fourteen years. Nothing, she was just a girl with metal
hand.” Bucky shrugged.

Steve sighed heavily and Bucky shook his head annoyed.


Grant was waiting outside Steve’s office. He was surprised
when he saw Andrea. “Andrea… What are you doing here?”

“I need to talk with your and my dad…” She growled, walking
inside. Grant followed her.

Steve looked at Grant and Andrea “Sorry… Did I say that any
of you can come in?”

“I don’t care what you said! Because every word from you is
a lie!” Andrea said angrily.

Bucky looked at Steve and then back at  Andrea. “Sweetheart… What are you talking
about?”

“About documents… about fact that someone like ‘Andrea
Barnes’ doesn’t exist! I’m not Bucky’s daughter.” She said frowning.

Steve smiled “Andrea… Don’t be silly, you exist.  If you wouldn’t I wouldn’t talk with you
now.”

“You aren’t talking with Andrea… You are talking with Object
HCH-13.” She growled.

Bucky and Steve were silent. Grant looked at her “Andrea…
What are you talking about…?”

“Truth… There is no Andrea… I’m an object… Object that ‘May
be dangerous’.” She said and swallowed heavily. “Orders: capture, shut down in
New S.H.I.E.L.D facility… Your own words Steve…
What are you gonna tell me now?” She asked.

Steve looked at Andrea, than at his son. “That’s all true.
Those were my orders… Without him.” He pointed at Bucky. “And only because he
is my friend you are still alive. You are nothing more but next Hydra
experiment. I should’ve killed you when I had a chance to…”

“Steve! Stop it! Don’t you even dare to say this!” Bucky
yelled at Steve and looked at terrified girl. “Andrea… Sweetheart…” He said
walking to her slowly “Listen to me… I know it’s hard, but… look everything is
fine… you have good life, you have father, you have great friend.” Bucky looked
at seriously confused Grant.

“Did you know..?” Andrea asked looking at him.

“Yes… I knew about everything, I found you… I took you
home.” Bucky said nodding.

“And you were telling me that I’m your DAUGHTER! YOU WERE
TELLING ME THAT I’M UNIQUE, YOU LIED TO ME. YOU WERE LYING FOR SO LONG!”
Andrea’s screams were full of pain and anger.

Bucky gently touched her cheek and sighed. “Sweetheart…
please… You are my daughter, not matter what you are unique.” He said.

“Don’t… Touch me ever again..” She growled and using her
metal hand she punched Bucky right in chest, sending him on a floor.

Before all happened Bucky could see anger…. Or more like
pure rage in her eyes. Rage that he good knew from the time when he still was
fresh after “Healing from being the Winter Soldier”.
Bucky tried quickly get up from floor but her hit was too strong.

“Now you..” She growled looking at Steve.
Andrea started quickly walk toward him,
but then she felt like someone grabbed her. It was Grant.

“Andrea.. don’t.. it’s not their fault… this all happened.”
He said holding her arm.

Andrea growled and tried punch him but he caught her hand,
it was hard but he did this.
“Andrea… please… look… look what you are trying to do.” He said looking at her.

Andrea was breathing heavily watching him, she calmed down a
bit.

Then whole rage and anger faded, it all changed into tears.
She looked around and started cry “I… I…. I didn’t mean to, I… I don’t know
what… Why I did this.” Andrea   broke
down and slowly sat on floor.
Grant joined her on floor and hugged her tight. “Shh… it’s okay now… calm
down.”

Bucky looked at them and sighed heavily when  he sat on floor holding side of his chest.
Steve looked frowning at doors when Martha and her assistant ran inside. Martha
even didn’t asked what had happed, she good knew what happened.

Marta sent her assistant to Bucky and she walked to Andrea
and Grant . She looked at them sadly. “Don’t worry Grant, I will take care of
her.” She said quietly looking at girl. Andrea was hugging Grant really tight.
Like he was her last hope.

A walking disasters

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WORD COUNT: 

1098

SUMMARY: Steve and Bucky talk about
feelings and stuff while the Avengers have a water fight.

WARNINGS: none

AUTHOR: Killer raccoon

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“Won’t your fella get jealous?”
Bucky asked suddenly, whip sharp grin placed firmly on his face, looking so
familiar Steve ached. It was scary how easy it was for Bucky to look like Bucky
again, like the Winter Soldier, like the plane crash, like the 21st fucking
century didn’t happen. Steve should’ve liked it, he knew, but he didn’t.

Steve rolled his eyes. “Tony gets
jealous when strangers on the street propose. It doesn’t bother him when I spar
with Natasha or when I run with Sam. This, us, doesn’t bother him at all.”

“You’ve got a good thing going here
don’t you,” Bucky huffed, eyes closed and head tipped back against the
wall. Steve shifted grappling for any sort of comfortable position on the rock
hard couch. Tony had warned him that all the furniture in this room was
designed to make people look regal, not make them comfortable. It was the only
room in the mansion left untouched from Tony’s childhood.

“Yeah, I do” Steve looked at
Bucky from where he was sitting side ways against the arm of the couch,
“better with you here though.”

“You know I’m never going to be just
Bucky Barnes right?”

“I know you haven’t been talking to
your therapist.”

“And who’s bright fucking idea was
that? A therapist? Really? You think after decades of being the most talented
killer alive – and shut the fuck up Steve, I killed people, we both know I
killed people – you really think I’d just be fucking dandy with spilling all my
secrets to some idiot with a clipboard and orders to take me out when I get
aggressive?”

“I know you won’t ever just be Bucky
again, I know you’re Bucky Barnes, Winter Soldier, but you’re still my friend.
You’re still my fucking family,” Steve burst out suddenly. “Please
tell me you know that.”

It was deathly quiet in the room before
Bucky spoke again, out of the corner of his mouth, like he was too tired to
talk properly, “Nathasa’s stronger than people give her credit for. So’s
Tony.”

“People give her a lot of credit. And
you know she hates it when you call her that,” Steve said mildly, not
commenting on the remark.

Bucky grinned his shark smile again.
“No, she doesn’t. And don’t think I didn’t notice you ignoring what I said
about him.”

Steve sighed, felt the air come up from his
diaphragm, filling his lungs and his mouth. “I’m just glad you stopped
calling him Stark. Why?”

“Why what…”

“Bucky,” Steve ground out.

“They make living with blood on your
ledger look easy,” Bucky breathed out suddenly. Steve paused, stomach in
his throat when Bucky turned to him again, suddenly vicious. “You won’t
tell them this, ya hear? Last thing I need is more fucking pity.”

“Of course I won’t tell. I’m surprised
you’re even talking to me right now. But we both know they would be the last
people to pity you. They know what you’re going through.”

“You’re saying you don’t?” A
challenge.

“I’ve killed people-”

“You’ve killed Nazis,” Bucky said
with a bark of a laugh. “Nazis don’t count as people.” Steve could at
least agree with that.

“You know, I miss being the stubborn
one in this friendship.”

“I’m not talking to them. It’s a
different situation entirely.”

“I thought you said they knew what it
felt..”

“Never like this. Never like me.
Fucking Tony didn’t even know what was happening with his company, how does
that compare to this?” He turned to Steve, desperate, “I trained
Natasha, trained her to be a murderer. What does that say about me?”

“It says something about the Winter
Soldier. It says that you were brainwashed.”

“I killed his parents, did he tell you
that? Blew up their car, slit his mother’s throat while she was screaming.
Stabbed his father for good measure. And if you tell me that’s okay, if you
make excuses for me, I’ll fucking deck you.”

“I don’t need to tell you that it was
wrong. You think I don’t know you’re thinking of running away again? The guilt
eats away at you. The Winter Soldier didn’t know what guilt was because he was
fucking brainwashed. You were tortured Bucky.”

“I killed so many innocent
people.”

“You killed people. Innocent people
and we both know you can’t make up for that. There isn’t anything you could
possibly do. That’s not how it works.” Steve was so tired of this, tired
of how complicated this was, tired of morality and honor and redemption.
“You do good and you wait until there’s enough good to not make the bad
crawl under your skin like palladium,” Steve quoted. Tony was strangely
poetic at the 3 in
the morning, all ruffled hair and tight breaths. “I just want you to be
happy. Don’t we deserve that? After all the second chances we’ve been given,
don’t we at least deserve that?”

Silence again. Steve stared out the window
opposite him, Bucky’s silhouette barely blocking the view. Everything here
really was excessive, slightly more so than even by Tony’s usual standards. He
wondered idly how he could go about sketching the exact way the light snagged
on the leaves of the topiaries in the garden outside.

“I’m not going back to that
therapist.” Steve waited him out, could taste the capitulation on his
tongue. “But we could do this more often. Just. Talking.”

“Yeah?”

“How many more times do you need me to
say it?” Bucky grinned suddenly. “Age catching up to you,
Rogers?”

“Screw off Bucky,” Steve laughed,
shoving him roughly. “I’m really, really happy that you want to talk to
me,” he couldn’t resist adding.

Bucky made a face, “How does Tony
stand all this earnestness?”

Steve smirked, “You really want to
know?”

“Oh fuck no, never mind. Still can’t
believe how filthy you are now, Christ.”

“The army does a number on scrawny virgins.”

“It also does a number on beefed up
super soldiers.” Bucky shot him another look, that ‘I know you’ look that
gave Steve dizzying hope.

Steve looked out the window again, at their
teammates, their friends, running past, equipped to the teeth with various
water shooting weapons. Bucky followed his line of sight and chuckled suddenly.
“Tell me how I got roped into living with a bunch of 9 year olds.”

“Hey! I’m at least 12,” he said,
moving to get up. “How bout we go and show them how it’s really done?”
he asked, smirking.

“As long as you and Tony keep your
hands to yourself.”

“No promises.”

The chronicles of the winter || Part XI

Part II  || Part III || Part IV || Part V || Part VI || Part VII|| Parta VIII || Part IX || Part X
continuation of imagine
 

Word Count: 6770

Warnings: strong language, blood and injuries

Author: Beast

“You’re safe, you’re safe…”

The words reached him gradually, spoken
softly and warmly as his tentative grip on reality tightened. He felt awful,
head swimming and senses dulled. He wanted nothing more than to give in to the
lull of sleep, to let go of consciousness and fall back into the waiting
darkness, but he knew that would leave him vulnerable. The awareness of his own
body was painfully slow to return. He was lying on something soft, his shoulder
ached with a pain like broken glass in his head, his mouth was far too dry and
something was touching him.

For some odd reason, he wasn’t as panicked
as he thought he’d be. Concerned was a more accurate word; concerned about what
was near him and who was speaking, but the voice was comforting and gentle, and
his guard wasn’t so quick to build up. It was familiar in some odd way that he
couldn’t quite put his finger on; it was nothing like the barking orders and
fearful murmurs of the white-coated men who pulled him from the icy depths of
cryostasis. He couldn’t have been in cryo for that matter, he felt too warm for
that, and waking from that death-sleep never happened on something soft; he
always awoke strapped down on a metal table, alone.

Movement in front of him; someone was
standing, walking away. He heard wooden floorboards creak softly underfoot. Not
in the facility. That was assuring, but also alarming. Where the
hell was he, if he wasn’t back there? Memories came back in a fuzzy tangle of
pain and confusion, not at all clear and providing no answers. All he could
definitively pick out was running, running, running, and
suffocating pain. It was too much of a jumbled mess to make sense of.

Testing his body was difficult. The pain
was sharp enough to register through the programming, indicating that something
was damaged severely. His thoughts were too sluggish for him to adequately
catalog his own wounds in his mental checklist to relay to his handlers. Wait—the
handlers are dead. That realization forced his eyes open, mind in
desperate need of affirmation for that line of thought. The light, however dim
it might have been, was oppressive and overpowering. He blinked several times
before he could make out any semblance of detail. The walls were painted a
warm, light color, with pictures and furniture scattered around the room. It
was nothing like the sterile space he typically woke in. Everything about it
was different, but not in an uncomfortable sort of way. He could see a pile of
bloody clothes—mine?—off
near the door, and was suddenly quite aware of how defenseless he felt.

“… Bucky?” the voice was so
sudden it caused him to twitch, body suddenly tense and ready to spring when he
caught sight of someone peeking in from a doorway across the room. His vision
was still blurry but he thought he recognized him. When the person stepped
closer he was sitting up in an instant—and instantly regretted it. The sharp
movement caused a burst of warmth on his shoulder, choking down a yelp at the
intense pain. He chanced looking away from the man, metal hand cautiously
touching the back of his shoulder. The limb lacked tactile sensation, but he
did determine there was something spongy and yielding there, and when he
removed the hand, the fingers were covered in fresh blood. My
shirt was removed and wounds tended to. Did the man do this?

The couch, he’d realized he was lying on
one a few seconds prior, dipped slightly as the man sat down next to him,
keeping enough space between them so he wasn’t crowded. The fact that he had
approached without him noticing was enough to alarm the asset into immediate
guard. He pressed himself against the arm of the couch, back against it and
wound as far away from the other as he could get it. He studied him intently,
looking for any weapon or any item that was a danger. He was ready to defend
himself at the slightest provocation.

“I brought you some juice, if you
want something to drink.” The man with the bright eyes spoke softly,
offering him a clear plastic cup filled about halfway with the liquid, smiling
at him with familiarity. It was brightly colored and somewhat unusual looking,
but it smelled rather pleasant and his dry throat was suddenly at the forefront
of his awareness. The confusion surrounding how he got here was still taking
precedence in his mind, but the man, he remembered something about him. His
voice was the one that had said he was safe. His hands were faintly stained
with blood and his shirt was marred with it as well. He
must be the one who treated me. He wasn’t entirely sure why that
thought was comforting, but it was.

Moments passed with no movement between
the two, the assassin distrustful and rightfully wary. Kindness and compassion
were both incredibly foreign concepts, locked out of him by layers and layers
of ridged programming and conditioning. There had to be some reason this man
was doing this. Was he being prepped for something?

He swallowed thickly, the dryness of his
throat too much to ignore, and cautiously extended his metal hand out to take
the offered cup. Eye contact was never broken, not giving the other the chance
to do anything that could threaten him. The cup was fragile, thin plastic, and
it took a little testing to make sure he wouldn’t break it before he took it
from him.

“Its orange juice,” the man
started, “I have milk or water if you’d rather have that?” was he
asking for his preference? That was… he didn’t really remember any time when
anyone had asked what he’d wanted. He didn’t respond and regarded the juice
warily, but he eventually deemed it safe. It wasn’t logical to go through all
the effort of tending to his wounds just to poison him. Even with that thought
in mind, his first sip was hesitant. It tasted overwhelmingly sweet, enough so
that it almost made him gag, but he was so thirsty he probably would have taken
just about anything.

Emily was standing on the corridor,
listening to the conversation of two men. She sighed sadly, knowing that
something was about to happen..

“Will you let me look at your
shoulder?” the question was entirely unexpected, causing icy eyes to cut
over to the other man, “It’s bleeding again, and I’d like to get an actual
bandage on it, if that’s alright with you.” He was asking his permission.
The concept was almost intangible to his methodical mind. He had rarely been
told what was happening to him, let alone given anything resembling a choice;
when things needed to be done, things were done, and he had no say in them. He
was interested in his wellbeing, so perhaps he was a new handler, to replace
the ones that were dead.

“One round, sniper rifle, distance of
several blocks.” He repeated all the information he knew about the injury,
“Bullet didn’t exit, needs extraction.” His voice was monotonous, not
looking away from the man at his right. Several moments of silence passed
before he watched the other man retrieve several items from the floor before
sitting back down next to him, much closer this time. In response the soldier
moved, sitting so that his back was to him so he could reach the wound easily.
He was operating on programming and instinct, otherwise he never would have
turned away from him.

“I’m going to take off the bandage
now, let me know if it hurts and I’ll stop.” His voice was still that
gentle tone that held a familiarity that he couldn’t place. He didn’t respond,
just sipping the juice he had been given as he felt the other peel the
blood-soaked fabric from the wound. To distract himself he tried to focus on
the events that ended with him waking up in this place. He remembered something
about the Strike team, about HYDRA,
about desperately seeking out someone, about Robrax.

The asset tensed absentmindedly when he
felt the other man dab at the wound with a cloth, wiping away the blood. He
heard a hastily mumbled “sorry” from behind him before the work was
continued, gentler than before. Minutes passed in silence, with the weapon
sitting stilly and obediently as the taller man cleaned and dressed the wound.
The disinfectant stung but he didn’t show any discomfort, allowing him to clean
the wound thoroughly as he let himself be lost in his own thoughts.

A hazy memory trickled into his mind of a
cold and dimly-lit apartment, with himself and someone else sitting on a ratty
old couch covered in moth-eaten blankets. The other person was scratching the
stub of a charcoal pencil into a small sketchbook, bundled up in as many of
those pathetic-looking blankets as he could and sitting as close to—me?—as was physically
possible. He remembered feeling Steve, his name was Steve, shivering horribly
even through all those blankets. It was winter, he’d just gotten over
pneumonia, and he remembered how scared he’d been thinking he was going to lose
him. But… why did he remember this? Were those memories actually his?

“… you still draw, don’t you,
Steve?” the soldier suddenly questioned, the degrading programming
loosening its grip on his awareness now that he was fully awake. The other man,
he remembered his name now. He was Steve Rogers. Captain Steve Rogers. He was
the only face he could recall with any clarity, therefore he had to have held
some significant importance to him at some time.

“I—” Steve faltered, finishing
up wrapping gauze tape around his shoulder to hold the sterile packing in
place, “Y-yeah I do, Buck. You… always liked watching me draw.” His
voice was tentative and hopeful, something the asset made immediate mental note
of. He heard Steve putting away things behind him, and he took it as a sign
that he was finished.

“… do you still keep a
sketchbook?” the assassin wasn’t sure why he was so interested, but the
memory had been rather clear and he took it as an opportunity to possibly learn
if it was real. He tilted his head to glance back over his shoulder, and saw
Steve nod slightly. “Can I see it?” he wasn’t used to asking
questions, to voicing his own thoughts, and he felt a need to try it. Seeing
the smile that broke across the other’s face was oddly rewarding.

“Of course you can.” Steve
nearly fumbled over his own words, eyes alight with some emotion he couldn’t
place, “Here, Bucky.” A shirt was held out to him when he turned to
face him fully, “Your shirt was ruined, so you can use one of mine.”
Blue eyes regarded it somewhat warily, but he took it from him regardless. It
was little more than a plain grey shirt, but it was appreciated. “I’ll go
and get you some more juice and my sketchbook. I’ll be back in a moment.”
The empty cup was retrieved from his hand, the assassin not startling at the
sudden movement, before the man left the room. Bucky.
There was that name again. His name. He dimly recalled it—yes, it was his name.

The shirt was a little difficult to put on
with his arm and shoulder injured, but it was managed. The horrific grinding
and popping of his joint when he pulled it over his head confirmed that the
injury had to be set. He added it into his mental list of injuries. The garment
was a little big on his thinned frame, but it was clean and comfortable. It had
a somewhat familiar scent to it as well that he couldn’t quite recall. Even in
as much pain as he was, he felt better than he had in a very long time. Not
physically better; he felt absolutely awful physically, but maybe a little
better mentally.

He had confirmation that his name was the
same as the Sergeant memorialized in the museum, and that this other man was
the same Steve that he could dimly remember. There was still an odd disconnect
between himself and his past, between himself and the man known as Bucky, but
this was a fragile thread that tied him back to it. There were a lot of blank,
empty spaces where memories should be in his mind, and he doubted he’d ever get
everything back, but this felt… right? Being here with Steve felt right. Yes,
he was fairly certain this was the right thing to do.

Tired eyes caught sight of a few folded
blankets on the floor near his feet. He might have just regained consciousness
but he still felt absolutely exhausted and drained. One of the blankets was
picked up, wrapped around him tightly to try and block the cold. It was one of
those odd constants that never left; cold seemed to follow him like his own
shadow, sinking teeth of ice into his flesh every waking moment. No matter what
he tried he never could seem to warm himself up. He curled up tightly under the
fabric, feeling a tentative safety for the first time in a long while. All the
running and fear and paranoia was starting to melt, bit by bit, as he allowed
his eyes to close willingly. By the time Steve returned, he had already dozed
off, huddled against the arm of the couch with his back to the door; a small,
fragile sign of trust. It was the first deep, peaceful sleep he could remember
since he woke from stasis.

When he opened his eyes this time there
was no light, the space dark and silent, the reason for just why he was awake
unclear. Several moments passed before he realized he was staring into fabric;
the back of a couch, he determined. Unease breathed at the back of his neck,
but nothing seemed outwardly wrong around him. However, something still felt off.
His memories were slow to catch up with his awareness, but he pieced together
where he was soon enough. This time his return to consciousness didn’t come
with any overwhelming paranoia, just a faint acknowledgment of his surroundings;
it was a first for the soldier.

He hadn’t moved at all since falling
asleep, the skill of remaining completely motionless honed into a fine art. It
was an ability he’d possessed even before HYDRA’s conditioning; he half
recalled something about sniping. The downside was that he was now rather sore,
and he was sure the injuries he’d sustained earlier in the night had only been
compounded by his lack of movement. He’d slept on his right arm, which hadn’t
done his dislocated joint any favors. He would be sure to alert his new handler
to the injury come morning.

There was a momentary lapse before he
corrected his thought. Not handler, Steve.
The man was an odd sort of mystery in his head. He wasn’t a handler, wasn’t a
white-coated tech, wasn’t anything he was familiar with. Steve was Steve.
He was a strange exception in a world of ridged rules and protocols. Normally
such an obvious outlier would make him nervous, but Steve’s presence was
comforting and nonthreatening and achingly familiar.

Movement was difficult; now that the
adrenaline and shock had worn off he felt the full force of the pain. Every
muscle seemed to ache, a deep-seeded burn that spread from his skin to the
deepest parts of him. His prosthetic creaked and the servos whined pitifully,
the weeks of abuse and ill-care wearing at it. Getting into a sitting position
took much more effort than he expected, but now that he had a clear view of the
entire room he felt a little safer. The tentative feeling of security let him
will himself to take stock of his situation.

The room hadn’t changed except for the
light having been flipped off, but the darkness was of no hindrance. He could
see rather well at night, but whether or not that was inherent or due to HYDRA
tampering he wasn’t sure. Despite the fact that this place exuded a sense of
safety that he’d never experienced before, checking the perimeter and his
surroundings was so ingrained in him that he felt a compulsion to do it.

As he moved to get up, he noticed there
was a second blanket covering him. Or had been, before he sat up and caused it
to tumble off of him in a heap. Absentmindedly he reached out to pick it up,
wincing a bit at the metallic whine of his artificial joints and tendons.
Several of the plates were jarred out of place, clanking together unnaturally
and restricting his range of motion. Dried blood mired the reflective surface,
coming not from himself but from nameless HYDRA agents. As soon as he had
recovered enough to be effective, he had gone and destroyed every safe house he
knew of, killing every HYDRA agent he came across. He was going to destroy
HYDRA all on his own if it came to that; they were going to regret ever having
created him. He’d see to it.

“Mm, Buck?” the sleepy hum of
the Captain broke the silence, the soldier’s eyes cutting over in that
direction. He hadn’t even noticed the other man had placed himself in a nearby
chair, now-open eyes regarding him tiredly. Keeping an eye on me? Making
sure I don’t escape? The second thought made his brow furrow a
bit. No, that’s not right. He somehow
just knew that wasn’t why he had opted to rest out here instead of returning to
the bedroom.

The asset didn’t respond verbally, but
gave him a brief nod before he carried through with picking up the blanket. The
nervousness was once again settling into the pit of his stomach, the sort of
feeling he expected prey felt before a predator sprung from the shadows. It was
such an unfamiliar feeling, as he was usually the lurking predator in question.
He could hear Steve stretching and moving to get up, so he decided to remain
seated; he had a feeling the Captain would fuss if he tried to get up and walk
with his wounds.

“Feeling any better?” the
other’s voice was far too bright for it being so early in the morning. The
assassin just watched as he tapped at a phone, glancing to him after the screen
lit up. He took a moment to check himself mentally before he responded. His
metal fingers hesitantly relinquished their grip on the blanket, instead
wrapping gingerly around his shoulder joint, where the Captain had dislocated
it in their struggle.

“… arm hurts.” He mumbled
quietly, lacking the robotic, monotonous quality that had previously dominated
his voice. He knew that the Captain had seen the deep bruising and
discoloration around the joint, as the bullet wound was plastered in the middle
of it, but he was well aware that there was likely little he could do for it.
Even he wasn’t sure if it was just a dislocation, or if there was a fracture as
well. The frown that appeared on the other man’s face at his words was enough
to make the nervousness he was experiencing leap to the front of his mind.

“We’ll get it looked at, don’t
worry.” His voice was always so soothing, “But…” discomfort,
possibly even fear crept into the other’s tone suddenly, serving to heighten
the soldier’s apprehension. His gaze was at his phone again, tapping his finger
against it nervously. “… we can’t stay here, we need to get somewhere
safe.” The sense of urgency was contagious, it seemed. The hairs on the
back of his neck were on-end again, and the assassin was on his feet in a few
seconds.

“Buck, are you sure you’re alright to
be up and..” the glare he directed at the Captain was much more
threatening than he meant it to be, but he got his point across as the rest of
the man’s sentence withered in his throat. He wasn’t fragile, he wasn’t to be
coddled; he was a weapon that was damaged and malfunctioning, not broken and
useless. Weakness wasn’t tolerated, his handlers had made sure to drive that
into his programming.

“Give me a minute to get ready and
get you a jacket, then we’ve gotta move out.” Those were words the soldier
remembered and associated with. Location compromised, moving to
safety. It must be why he woke up; HYDRA must be closing in. It was
enough to make his muscles stiffen with readiness, not wanting to be taken by
surprise like last time. They wouldn’t have that luxury. Not again.

Emily also had packed some necessary stuff
earlier. She was standing in the middle of the room, with a backpack hanging
over her shoulder.

“Guys…” she whispered. “We don’t have much
time.”

Waiting was not in the Winter Soldier’s
repertoire, and instead of remaining still he was up and moving. The pistol he
had dropped earlier was retrieved, inspected and placed into his pocket. There
wasn’t a lot of ammunition left in it, but enough to be useful. He’d done more
damage with much, much less. Now that he was up he decided to do that perimeter
check he’d been planning on. Steve was doing something in his room, so he
avoided that room and checked every other one. His pass through the kitchen
produced the knife he’d left that first night, still sullied with the Captain’s
blood, and a worn sketchbook. There was a twinge of guilt in his stomach that
passed quickly as he placed the blade back into the sheath at his ankle. The
small book, likely the one Steve had been bringing to show him, was tucked into
his pocket.

The dull, aching burn in his muscles was
pushed out of his awareness; now that there was a clear threat to him all pain
was ignored. It was how he had been conditioned, trained and taught; pain was a
weakness and only useful for determining damage after a successful mission. He
hated to admit that he was nervous, but he was. He had the beginnings of
fragile trust in Steve, but this had the makings of a trap. Suddenly relocating
after arriving? Departing hours before the sun rose, when no one would ever
notice their passing? It was enough to set off warning bells in the soldier’s
mind.

“Buck,” the Captain’s hesitant
voice broke his thoughts, eyes cutting over to where the other man was peeking
in from the door, “Are you ready?” again with questions, again with
asking him things. It was still a strange and unusual concept to the asset,
used only to demands and orders. He responded only with a curt nod, taking a
jacket that the other offered to him. It was somewhat big on him, but worn and
soft and comfortable nonetheless. Nothing like the rigid combat gear HYDRA had
outfitted him with. In a way he felt vulnerable, missing the reassuring weight and
constriction of his body armor.

Steve had a small pack slung over his
shoulder, the contents of which the soldier didn’t know, and shield strapped to
his arm. It was clear, however, that they were likely not coming back, not for
a long time at least. There was no sentimental attachment to this place for
him, he didn’t have any sentimental attachments honestly, but he did know this
place and knew it was safe in his mind, so leaving it didn’t sit right in his
mind. He did know, however, that staying would end in certain HYDRA custody or
death.

Ushered out into the hall, the soldier
only moved when prompted by his new handler. No, Steve. His
senses were on alert, although still dulled and sluggish from the blood loss
earlier. The sleep and bandaging had improved his awareness a bit, although
even with his serum it would take a few more hours before he would be in a
condition he was comfortable with. He just watched as Steve tapped at his
phone, door pulled shut behind him. It was only after he read some text message
for the fifth time that he suddenly froze.

“Shit.” Now that got a reaction
out of the soldier. He tensed up and stood perfectly still, the tone of Steve’s
voice setting off warnings and alarm bells that something was catastrophically
wrong. His tone had been nothing but softness and warmth up until now; the
swear sparked just the ghost of a sensation in his head, of cold wind and the
smell of gunsmoke as he peered over a trench in some long forgotten
battlefield.

“We need to move. Now.”
the words spilled out of the blond man suddenly, a hand grabbing his right arm
without warning and tugging him down towards the stairs. Normally such an
unexpected action would have warranted a swift punch to the jaw, but the
startled tone in the other’s voice alerted him that something was very, very wrong. He didn’t resist, letting Steve
lead him swiftly down the stairs and towards a back door, the other man
mumbling the entire way about something about the text having been wrong.
Muffled voices—HYDRA,
Strike team—filtered through the walls from outside, formless
shadows visible through the frosted glass of the front doors.

Subtly was thrown out the window as Steve
kicked the back door open and bolted outside, the asset stumbling and fighting
to keep up with the jolting motion. The man had yet to let go of his arm,
guiding him through narrow alleyways and side streets in a path that seemed
predetermined. He didn’t know the plan, which was a source of anxiety in and of
itself, but Steve clearly had something in mind, so for the first time he—trust
was too strong a word—relied on the other’s decisions to get them
out of harm’s way.

HYDRA agents were all over, dressed in
varying uniforms of Strike and police and others he did not recognize. They
shouted as they tried to corner them, seemingly appearing from nowhere from
alleyways and cars and from behind objects. Steve did not engage them, instead
pulling him along as he ducked and weaved dizzyingly between buildings and
sleepy streets. He had a set destination in mind, the asset could tell, and
even though the sight of HYDRA angered him into considering pulling away to
fight, he knew it was too risky to separate himself from the Captain.

Unfortunately, HYDRA did that for him.
There was a sudden, jarring shout from one of the alleys they were about to
blow past, and before either could react the darkened space filled with
blinding light and a concussive sound. Flashbang. Steve
yelled something but the asset didn’t hear, the grip on his arm lost as the
other covered his ears. Even before the white left his vision, formless shapes
surrounded them as agents appeared to spring from the very walls to box them
in. Wordlessly, the assassin and the Avenger stood back to back, fitting into
formation as easily as if it was something they did every day. The pistol was
pulled from his pocket, knowing that even with little ammo it would be more
effective at the moment than a knife. There was a brief flash of familiarity in
his mind, but the situation around him drowned it out almost instantly.

“Drop your weapon and surrender the
asset, Captain Rogers!” a husky voice barked out, a dozen barrels of a
dozen guns aimed at them. He could feel Steve tense against his back, but so
vastly outnumbered and outgunned any outburst now would likely end in one or
both of them dead.

“… Steve.” He wasn’t sure just
why he spoke, or why his voice was softened and hinted with an accent he only
vaguely recalled, but he did. It was a sort of rash, sudden need to ground
himself in the present, to remind himself that the man behind him was indeed
the Steve he could so faintly remember. His statement, however, had an
unintended consequence.

“The asset’s compromised,” that
growling voice spoke again, “he’ll need to be wiped and reconditioned if
we’re going to salvage this.” That statement triggered an intense,
shattering terror in the assassin the likes of which he could not recall.
Broken memories of deafening electricity crackling madly, of being tied down
and unresisting and passive, suddenly swam in his mind and broke through his
calculating combat mindset. Without thought he pressed himself further against
Steve’s back, as if somehow he could hide from his own horrifying memories in
the other’s presence.

“Buck, it’s alright,” voice
hushed and gentle, the Captain spoke only loud enough for him to hear,
“You’ve got to work with me, we’re going to work together to get out of
this, just follow my lead.” It wasn’t worded as an order or command, and
as such disoriented the soldier for a moment, but that fragile ideal of trust
settled in to fill in the gaps and his only response was a slight nod that went
unseen. They could do this. “Emily. I’m gonna take their attention, you need to
run. If they will take us three, nothing will left.”

She nodded slightly and before the fight,
she ran toward the nearest window. She stopped in front of it, taking a look
back at her men. Steve was looking at her above his shoulder, he gave her a
nod, so she followed his order and jumped out of the window, disappearing in
the darkness of the night.

There was no warning for the HYDRA agents,
shield thrown and colliding with several and incapacitating them while three
expertly placed and near-simultaneous bullets downed three permanently. They
moved in sync, still keeping each at their back even after separating and
lunging at the ring of agents that surrounded them. The now-useless pistol had
been abandoned in favor for a blade, which was used to swiftly and efficiently
disable and kill two more agents before they could even fire off a round.

The resonant clang of the shield behind him let him
subconsciously track the Captain’s movements, even as he threw himself into the
tangle of agents in front of him. He used the knowledge that he was wanted
alive to his advantage, as he knew they wouldn’t dare try to shoot him at such
close range as it would likely irreparably damage him and they would lose their
prized asset. It couldn’t have worked better for him, as he was just as
comfortable and deadly dispatching a target at close range as he was sniping.

An agent was slammed against the nearby
wall, razored blade deftly sliding between neck vertebras to kill his target
instantly. Without a moment’s hesitation he was upon another, moving with all
the predatory grace of a hunting cat, throat slit and body casually dropped as
if it were little more than a discarded jacket. The remaining two agents in his
field of view turned and bolted, and had he been on his prior missions of
annihilating HYDRA installations around the city he would have pursued them
relentlessly, but now he barely acknowledged their escape. Instead, he spun on
his heel to where Steve was fighting, wasting no time engaging the remaining
agents that swarmed him.

His blood-sullied blade dipped into the
throat of a Strike member readying to shoot Steve’s back, a gurgled wheeze of
horrified shock the only noise that escaped before he was roughly shoved aside.
Sticky crimson soaked deep into his jacket and clothes beneath but little
regard was given to it; the horrors of his actions seemed as commonplace as any
daily act to him after decades of repetition. Another HYDRA infantrymen lunged
at Rogers with
a stun baton, but the soldier intercepted him, slashing with a precise stroke
that opened the man’s torso as easily as a zipper. He fell noiselessly into a
jumbled heap of blood and viscera at the Captain’s feet, a non-threat.

Soon only a few hostiles remained, mostly
stepping far back and firing as many rounds as they could at Captain Rogers.
The asset refused to leave the man’s side again, tucked up close near him in an
effort to deter any more firing, and to his dim surprise it seemed to work. The
agents backed away even farther, guns raised but triggers untouched, eyes
locked on them. He took the brief lull in fire to glance at Steve for a moment,
to assess his condition. He was on his feet, but blood had soaked his right leg
from a bullet wound to the calf. A slash from a knife tore through his jacket
and into his side, while red dribbled from his saturated sleeve from another
entry wound. He was standing, for the moment, but the soldier knew that even
with the serum the blood loss would catch him quickly.

Steve asked something, something about how
he was holding up or the like, but the assassin didn’t catch it. Instead his
attention was elsewhere when his eyes caught a brief flash of light from the
roof of a building two streets over. His heart fell into his stomach and his
shout of warning was lost to the rifle crack when the realization hit. Of
course, the bullet hit first, just not in the place HYDRA had wanted it.

The soldier had reacted instinctively,
kicking the back of Steve’s injured leg hard enough that he buckled. His sudden
movement meant the bullet, aimed for a kill shot on the Avenger’s heart,
instead struck and slid off the slant of his shield and hit his collarbone. A
second bullet, fired milliseconds after the first from a likely second sniper,
caught him across his already-slashed ribs, blossoming open as if it were a
grotesque flower. The strangled cry of shock and pain that left the man as he
crumpled to the ground snapped something buried deep beneath HYDRA programming,
and within a half-second he had grabbed Steve by his arm and pulled him into a
small alcove between two buildings. He heard two more bullets strike the
asphalt where they had been moments before, and knew that HYDRA was likely not
going to take Steve alive.

All thoughts of the remaining HYDRA agents
were abandoned at the sound of Steve’s raspy breathing, the assassin leaning
him against the building wall as to hopefully ease it some as he leaned down to
his level. Even though the shield had absorbed most of the energy of the round,
the wound was devastating. The bullet had shattered his collarbone, flesh torn
and ripped and blood dripping freely. A dribble of the crimson stained the
Captain’s chin, breath labored and choking and heaved in and out. His
lung’s been punctured, probably collapsing. The second bullet had
no doubt shattered his ribs, and the awful torn wound was jagged and blown
apart by the unimpeded bullet’s passing. It was a grim prognosis.

The sounds of the agents trying to regroup
from the attack were hardly registered, hands pressed to the man’s injury in a
desperate attempt to stem the flow of blood. A pained cough escaped him,
reddened mouth slackened open as he tried again and again to fill his lungs
full to no avail. “B… B-Buck…” he slurred wetly through the blood,
half-lidded eyes beginning to glaze over as unconsciousness loomed, “… got
t-to… get… a-away…” shock was setting in, body trembling under the
assassin’s hands, but he mustered the energy to nudge him with the shield in a
halfhearted attempt to push him into running. He wanted him to leave him
behind, to save himself from falling back into HYDRA’s control. The very
thought of it twisted the soldier’s stomach in a knot and caused his breath to
catch in his throat.

“S-Steve,” his
normally-controlled voice was shaky and small, fear filling every inch of him
as trembling, blood-stained metallic fingers brushed golden hair away and
cupped the Captain’s cheek to hold his gaze on him, “You’ve gotta hold
on,” his eyes began to sting as an unfamiliar heat and blurriness began to
build, “I-I’m not leaving you behind.” Something had woken up deep in
his mind, faint ghosts of memories of battles long past. Of fights in alleys
where both refused to run away, never leaving the other’s side. It was such a
strong emotion that consumed him that he couldn’t ever hope to fight it, and
strangely enough, he possessed no will to resist it.

Footsteps and barked orders behind him
drew him from his withdrawn, focused state. It was like a switch flicking in
his head, the sharp focus of combat and programming setting in, and within the
space of a breath he had taken the shield from Steve’s faltering grasp and spun
around, keeping himself between the agents and his injured partner. His vision
was blurred and his eyes stung fiercely, an unfamiliar wetness trailing down a
cheek, but he didn’t move from his defensive stance, rooted to the spot with
shield held solid in his metal prosthetic. The plates whirled and slid together
with a groan of protest, ready to lash out with the vibranium disk at the
slightest movement.

“Get away!” he snarled in a
voice so loud it startled the men, “Get away from him!” he swung the
shield at an agent that dared to approach, knocking him clean off his feet and
sending him tumbling. The sharp, ripping pain as his own shoulder wound tore
caused him to wince, but it was immediately stuffed down as he had much more
important things to focus on. Seeing their own knocked away so easily, even
while he was in such a state, caused the others to take heed and back away a
few feet. Even though his joint protested, he retrieved and hid a blade in the
palm of his injured arm, keeping it disguised behind the shield. If they got
close again they would be in for a nasty surprise.

“This is… unexpected.” The same
agent who spoke earlier piped up, rifle trained on the pair with deadly intent,
“Looks like the programming has decayed more than anticipated. General
Lukin isn’t going to be pleased.” That name was familiar, and struck a
fear like a dagger of ice into the soldier’s heart. He pressed himself back,
shield held higher in a desperate attempt to keep the agents at bay. Steve
moved behind him, whimpering in pain, and a moment later the former Soviet felt
his hand press reassuringly to his back in a wordless gesture of trust. It was
enough to steel his nerves, to dispel his own fear just enough to focus on the
agents who had chanced to venture further.

With an almost animalistic roar, he leapt
at the nearest agent, jamming the sharp edge of the shield into his ribcage,
crushing it like a flimsy can. He dropped into a tangle of limbs, and he used
the moment of confusion to swing at another, feeling the agent’s skull cave
under the impact. The shield was brought down on the neck of another agent,
while the knife in his right hand pierced the torso of one rushing at him. As
he swiveled to lunge at the seeming-commander he froze mid-strike, eyes wide
with terror, when he saw that another agent had a gun trained to the downed
Captain’s head.

“No!” the word clawed its way
out of him, shield and blade falling from his hand in a show of submission,
eyes wide with feral panic. “D-don’t do it.” He’d never demanded
anything from anyone, not in all his active years, but he was now. He was
scared, desperate and out of options, pleading like one of his victims to spare
the other man’s life. The commander’s gravelly voice broke into a laugh behind
him, but before he could round on him he felt a pinprick on the back of his
neck, followed immediately by a burst of warmth that spider-webbed through his
body. His knees buckled and vision swam, awareness growing fuzzy as he
collapsed to the ground. He gasped out Steve’s name, tried to push himself back
up, but he couldn’t even prevent his eyes from sliding shut a heartbeat later.
His hearing muffled, but the last thing he was aware of was that growl of a
voice ordering the surviving agents to take the both of them before everything
drained away into nothingness.

Little letters

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WORD COUNT: 1680

SUMMARY: Some letters Tony and Steve exchanged between each
other.

WARNINGS: none

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AUTHOR: Killer raccoon

Capcicle:

This phone is embarrassing. I’m
embarrassed to have it anywhere near my person. Pretty sure you must have
recovered it from an archeological dig of a Neanderthal cave. Which would be
fitting for you, them being your people and all. Still pissed by the way,
haven’t reached that ‘understanding’ yet.

Unsincerely,

T.S.


 Dear Tony,

I know. Both about the phone and the
understanding. I must admit that I did get slightly amused imagining your
reaction to it. The phone that is, not the other thing. I think it portent that
older phones don’t have tracking chips in them, and they aren’t being monitored
by the NSA. Kind of thinking that says something about modern society and not
really in a good way. Trading privacy for security. It’s devastating. As for
the other thing… I know you’re upset. You have reason to be. I get that, I do.
I should have told you about your parents. I wish I could go back in time and
do things different. But I can’t. So the only thing I can do is to repeat that I
am sorry.

As for the ever so subtle dig, how did the
party-line go? Fire bad, tree pretty? Or, you know, ooga-booga. Or whatever it
is that Neanderthals like me say.

Yours most sincerely,

Steve


 Spangles,

I have been ‘tracking’ you since they
found you on the ice. Trust me sweetums, the NSA is the least of your worries.
Also, did you just crack a joke at me? And used pop culture at that? I am
shocked. Shocked I tell you! Kindly cease destroying my world view, I’m
too busy being livid at you to be amused (at how bad you are at it). Thank you.

Also, why? And don’t give me that
‘protecting me, protecting you’ bullshit. Details. All of it.

T.S.

P.S. Paper letters are so undignified.


Dear Tony,

Not sure how to react to the tracking
thing or how to take it. In a weird way it’s good to know? I don’t know. When I
first came off the ice I would have done anything to get back in it. The grief
of losing Bucky was still fresh, and on top of that everyone I had ever known
was either dead or only experienced occasional moments of lucidity, like Peggy.
I didn’t recognize anyone, or anything and when I went down, I was a soldier. I
slept on the ground, for the most part. The Commandos and I used to take shifts
so no one would creep up on us in the middle of the night and capture or kill
us. I still heard the ring of gunfire and bombs going off in my head. To go
from that back to civilian life and not just civilian life but civilian life in
a completely unrecognizable world… I wasn’t in a good place.

I sat outside your tower once, at a little
cafe near the tower, hoping to get a glimpse of you. I don’t know what I would
have said or done if that had happened. But SHIELD gave me a file on you and I
knew that you were Iron Man, so I thought maybe if anyone would understand what
it was like to wake-up in this strange world that sort of turned you into this
impossible legend while you slept it would be you, being a legend yourself.
There are days when I still wonder how the Captain America thing became so
rampart. Trading cards?! But after we met I didn’t think you liked me much, so
it’s strangely touching to hear that you tracked me, as messed up as that
probably sounds. I mean, I know that our first meeting was under the worst
possible conditions. We were stressed, I was so lost, and we had Loki’s scepter
bringing out the absolute worst in both of us, but I always got the feeling
that I annoyed you a bit.That my old fashioned ways, my ethics, my confusion…
I just always felt that it kind of rubbed you the wrong way, even after we
became friends and teammates.

At least I know why now. Howard. Would you
believe me if I told that I was surprised to find out that Howard spoke so
fondly of me to you? Don’t get me wrong, I admired Howard a lot. He was
brilliant, he was funny and very charming. Not nearly as charming as you, of
course, but he did have it. And I will always be forever grateful for what he
did for me, flying me into enemy territory so that I could save the 107th.
Without Howard there would be no Howling Commandos. But the truth of the matter
is that while Howard was generous and brilliant, he sort of talked to me like I
was a kid, you know? He didn’t act like he was all that impressed by me the
entire time we knew each other.

I regret how he died. And your mother. I
do grieve for them and for what happened. You want answers and I’ll try my best
to give them to you but in all honesty I’m not sure I understand it entirely
myself. First and foremost I feared for Bucky. You have to understand, Bucky
and my Mom were all I had as a kid. I was sick, and weak, and picked on like
you wouldn’t believe. Bucky always stood up for me, protected me. Without him
my childhood would have been a completely different story and I probably
wouldn’t have made it out of it. And when my mom died he was there for me
again. I actually crashed on his couch for months afterwards. No one knew Bucky
like I did, and no one left alive but me had seen him at his best, so full of
life.

He is a good man, he didn’t deserve what
happened to him. And it’s my fault – what happened to Bucky – it was all my
fault. I recruited him into the Howling Commandos even though he could have
left the army. He had been captured and tortured by Zola, the army was ready to
release him. But he followed me back into war because I asked. He was so loyal.
So honorable. Maybe too loyal and honorable. I was concerned that because there
was no one but me left who had known Bucky pre-Hydra programming, that no one
but me would believe him redeemable. And so I wanted to protect him and I
thought that if I told you about your parents that you would be just one more
person gunning for him. I mean, even Sam had his doubts that Bucky was still
Bucky deep down and Sam is a former soldier, a VA counselor and a good friend.
If Sam didn’t fully believe Bucky could be reached, what hope did I have that
you would?

Still though, I realize that whether you
would have reacted poorly or not, and whether you would have become just one
more person I’d have to race to get to Bucky first, I shouldn’t have kept
Hydra’s involvement in your parent’s’ death from you. You had a right to know,
a right that didn’t supercede my drive to save my best friend, and I was wrong
to keep it from you.

This letter is long. Longer than I
intended. But you asked for answers and I hope I gave them to you.

Sincerely,

Steve

 

P.S. I don’t know, call me old-fashioned (you
do anyway) but I like paper letters. They just seem more… personable. Besides
not only are email accounts trackable, but they’re also annoying. No matter how
many firewalls you put on my accounts, I’m still getting emails from some guy
in Nigeria
who is most eager to inform me that I’ve magically inherited millions of
dollars.


 Stars and Stripes,

Of course I am more charming than my
father.

Tony


 Dear Tony,

Not that I’m complaining here, it’s always
great to hear from you and I know I have no right to ask… but is that really
all you took from my last letter? It’s just you didn’t insult me, my parentage,
or my honor at all in in your response, so I’m concerned.

Love,

Steve


 Cap,

I am processing. I need time. I’ll be in touch.

Tony


 Steve,

Okay, so I’ve processed. Sort of. It’s
ongoing. James Buchanan Barnes has been cleared of the U.N. bombing in Vienna. Officially. As
such you, Wilson  and the others have also been cleared of the aiding and
abetting charge, and a financial donation from yours truly went a long way in
clearing up the property damage charges. I know Barnes is in cryo in Wakanda, I
may be able to help with the de-programming.

Meanwhile I need you to get your
(admittedly fine) ass home. Bring your big boy pants, you and I are going to
have a very long conversation. We’re going to put it all on the table.

Love,

Tony


 Dear Tony,

I’m on my way (and by the time you receive
this I’ll probably already be there).

Love,

Steve


 Dearest Steven,

Well that conversation, after hours of
deliberation, ended rather smashingly, I thought. And by smash I mean that I
was quite impressed that you managed to break a solid oak, steel bar reinforced
desk while I fucked you on it following said conversation. The Hulk himself
couldn’t have done better. Good job. I told you we would put it all on the
table. No worries, I’ll buy sturdier for next time.

Love Always,

Tony


 Dear Tony,

I’m looking forward to it. Now can you
come to bed? I want to snuggle.

With love,

Steve

P.S. In my day we built furniture that lasts
(while we walked uphill to school both ways)… Couldn’t resist. Oh come on, it
was right there!

P.S.S. You’re sending texts in letter form now.
Admit it, you liked the letters.


 Steve, dearest,

The sarcasm. I’m almost proud. Almost. And
I admit nothing.
Love,
He who is heading to you right now…