The chronicles of the winter || Part XI

Part II  || Part III || Part IV || Part V || Part VI || Part VII|| Parta VIII || Part IX || Part X
continuation of imagine
 

Word Count: 6770

Warnings: strong language, blood and injuries

Author: Beast

“You’re safe, you’re safe…”

The words reached him gradually, spoken
softly and warmly as his tentative grip on reality tightened. He felt awful,
head swimming and senses dulled. He wanted nothing more than to give in to the
lull of sleep, to let go of consciousness and fall back into the waiting
darkness, but he knew that would leave him vulnerable. The awareness of his own
body was painfully slow to return. He was lying on something soft, his shoulder
ached with a pain like broken glass in his head, his mouth was far too dry and
something was touching him.

For some odd reason, he wasn’t as panicked
as he thought he’d be. Concerned was a more accurate word; concerned about what
was near him and who was speaking, but the voice was comforting and gentle, and
his guard wasn’t so quick to build up. It was familiar in some odd way that he
couldn’t quite put his finger on; it was nothing like the barking orders and
fearful murmurs of the white-coated men who pulled him from the icy depths of
cryostasis. He couldn’t have been in cryo for that matter, he felt too warm for
that, and waking from that death-sleep never happened on something soft; he
always awoke strapped down on a metal table, alone.

Movement in front of him; someone was
standing, walking away. He heard wooden floorboards creak softly underfoot. Not
in the facility. That was assuring, but also alarming. Where the
hell was he, if he wasn’t back there? Memories came back in a fuzzy tangle of
pain and confusion, not at all clear and providing no answers. All he could
definitively pick out was running, running, running, and
suffocating pain. It was too much of a jumbled mess to make sense of.

Testing his body was difficult. The pain
was sharp enough to register through the programming, indicating that something
was damaged severely. His thoughts were too sluggish for him to adequately
catalog his own wounds in his mental checklist to relay to his handlers. Wait—the
handlers are dead. That realization forced his eyes open, mind in
desperate need of affirmation for that line of thought. The light, however dim
it might have been, was oppressive and overpowering. He blinked several times
before he could make out any semblance of detail. The walls were painted a
warm, light color, with pictures and furniture scattered around the room. It
was nothing like the sterile space he typically woke in. Everything about it
was different, but not in an uncomfortable sort of way. He could see a pile of
bloody clothes—mine?—off
near the door, and was suddenly quite aware of how defenseless he felt.

“… Bucky?” the voice was so
sudden it caused him to twitch, body suddenly tense and ready to spring when he
caught sight of someone peeking in from a doorway across the room. His vision
was still blurry but he thought he recognized him. When the person stepped
closer he was sitting up in an instant—and instantly regretted it. The sharp
movement caused a burst of warmth on his shoulder, choking down a yelp at the
intense pain. He chanced looking away from the man, metal hand cautiously
touching the back of his shoulder. The limb lacked tactile sensation, but he
did determine there was something spongy and yielding there, and when he
removed the hand, the fingers were covered in fresh blood. My
shirt was removed and wounds tended to. Did the man do this?

The couch, he’d realized he was lying on
one a few seconds prior, dipped slightly as the man sat down next to him,
keeping enough space between them so he wasn’t crowded. The fact that he had
approached without him noticing was enough to alarm the asset into immediate
guard. He pressed himself against the arm of the couch, back against it and
wound as far away from the other as he could get it. He studied him intently,
looking for any weapon or any item that was a danger. He was ready to defend
himself at the slightest provocation.

“I brought you some juice, if you
want something to drink.” The man with the bright eyes spoke softly,
offering him a clear plastic cup filled about halfway with the liquid, smiling
at him with familiarity. It was brightly colored and somewhat unusual looking,
but it smelled rather pleasant and his dry throat was suddenly at the forefront
of his awareness. The confusion surrounding how he got here was still taking
precedence in his mind, but the man, he remembered something about him. His
voice was the one that had said he was safe. His hands were faintly stained
with blood and his shirt was marred with it as well. He
must be the one who treated me. He wasn’t entirely sure why that
thought was comforting, but it was.

Moments passed with no movement between
the two, the assassin distrustful and rightfully wary. Kindness and compassion
were both incredibly foreign concepts, locked out of him by layers and layers
of ridged programming and conditioning. There had to be some reason this man
was doing this. Was he being prepped for something?

He swallowed thickly, the dryness of his
throat too much to ignore, and cautiously extended his metal hand out to take
the offered cup. Eye contact was never broken, not giving the other the chance
to do anything that could threaten him. The cup was fragile, thin plastic, and
it took a little testing to make sure he wouldn’t break it before he took it
from him.

“Its orange juice,” the man
started, “I have milk or water if you’d rather have that?” was he
asking for his preference? That was… he didn’t really remember any time when
anyone had asked what he’d wanted. He didn’t respond and regarded the juice
warily, but he eventually deemed it safe. It wasn’t logical to go through all
the effort of tending to his wounds just to poison him. Even with that thought
in mind, his first sip was hesitant. It tasted overwhelmingly sweet, enough so
that it almost made him gag, but he was so thirsty he probably would have taken
just about anything.

Emily was standing on the corridor,
listening to the conversation of two men. She sighed sadly, knowing that
something was about to happen..

“Will you let me look at your
shoulder?” the question was entirely unexpected, causing icy eyes to cut
over to the other man, “It’s bleeding again, and I’d like to get an actual
bandage on it, if that’s alright with you.” He was asking his permission.
The concept was almost intangible to his methodical mind. He had rarely been
told what was happening to him, let alone given anything resembling a choice;
when things needed to be done, things were done, and he had no say in them. He
was interested in his wellbeing, so perhaps he was a new handler, to replace
the ones that were dead.

“One round, sniper rifle, distance of
several blocks.” He repeated all the information he knew about the injury,
“Bullet didn’t exit, needs extraction.” His voice was monotonous, not
looking away from the man at his right. Several moments of silence passed
before he watched the other man retrieve several items from the floor before
sitting back down next to him, much closer this time. In response the soldier
moved, sitting so that his back was to him so he could reach the wound easily.
He was operating on programming and instinct, otherwise he never would have
turned away from him.

“I’m going to take off the bandage
now, let me know if it hurts and I’ll stop.” His voice was still that
gentle tone that held a familiarity that he couldn’t place. He didn’t respond,
just sipping the juice he had been given as he felt the other peel the
blood-soaked fabric from the wound. To distract himself he tried to focus on
the events that ended with him waking up in this place. He remembered something
about the Strike team, about HYDRA,
about desperately seeking out someone, about Robrax.

The asset tensed absentmindedly when he
felt the other man dab at the wound with a cloth, wiping away the blood. He
heard a hastily mumbled “sorry” from behind him before the work was
continued, gentler than before. Minutes passed in silence, with the weapon
sitting stilly and obediently as the taller man cleaned and dressed the wound.
The disinfectant stung but he didn’t show any discomfort, allowing him to clean
the wound thoroughly as he let himself be lost in his own thoughts.

A hazy memory trickled into his mind of a
cold and dimly-lit apartment, with himself and someone else sitting on a ratty
old couch covered in moth-eaten blankets. The other person was scratching the
stub of a charcoal pencil into a small sketchbook, bundled up in as many of
those pathetic-looking blankets as he could and sitting as close to—me?—as was physically
possible. He remembered feeling Steve, his name was Steve, shivering horribly
even through all those blankets. It was winter, he’d just gotten over
pneumonia, and he remembered how scared he’d been thinking he was going to lose
him. But… why did he remember this? Were those memories actually his?

“… you still draw, don’t you,
Steve?” the soldier suddenly questioned, the degrading programming
loosening its grip on his awareness now that he was fully awake. The other man,
he remembered his name now. He was Steve Rogers. Captain Steve Rogers. He was
the only face he could recall with any clarity, therefore he had to have held
some significant importance to him at some time.

“I—” Steve faltered, finishing
up wrapping gauze tape around his shoulder to hold the sterile packing in
place, “Y-yeah I do, Buck. You… always liked watching me draw.” His
voice was tentative and hopeful, something the asset made immediate mental note
of. He heard Steve putting away things behind him, and he took it as a sign
that he was finished.

“… do you still keep a
sketchbook?” the assassin wasn’t sure why he was so interested, but the
memory had been rather clear and he took it as an opportunity to possibly learn
if it was real. He tilted his head to glance back over his shoulder, and saw
Steve nod slightly. “Can I see it?” he wasn’t used to asking
questions, to voicing his own thoughts, and he felt a need to try it. Seeing
the smile that broke across the other’s face was oddly rewarding.

“Of course you can.” Steve
nearly fumbled over his own words, eyes alight with some emotion he couldn’t
place, “Here, Bucky.” A shirt was held out to him when he turned to
face him fully, “Your shirt was ruined, so you can use one of mine.”
Blue eyes regarded it somewhat warily, but he took it from him regardless. It
was little more than a plain grey shirt, but it was appreciated. “I’ll go
and get you some more juice and my sketchbook. I’ll be back in a moment.”
The empty cup was retrieved from his hand, the assassin not startling at the
sudden movement, before the man left the room. Bucky.
There was that name again. His name. He dimly recalled it—yes, it was his name.

The shirt was a little difficult to put on
with his arm and shoulder injured, but it was managed. The horrific grinding
and popping of his joint when he pulled it over his head confirmed that the
injury had to be set. He added it into his mental list of injuries. The garment
was a little big on his thinned frame, but it was clean and comfortable. It had
a somewhat familiar scent to it as well that he couldn’t quite recall. Even in
as much pain as he was, he felt better than he had in a very long time. Not
physically better; he felt absolutely awful physically, but maybe a little
better mentally.

He had confirmation that his name was the
same as the Sergeant memorialized in the museum, and that this other man was
the same Steve that he could dimly remember. There was still an odd disconnect
between himself and his past, between himself and the man known as Bucky, but
this was a fragile thread that tied him back to it. There were a lot of blank,
empty spaces where memories should be in his mind, and he doubted he’d ever get
everything back, but this felt… right? Being here with Steve felt right. Yes,
he was fairly certain this was the right thing to do.

Tired eyes caught sight of a few folded
blankets on the floor near his feet. He might have just regained consciousness
but he still felt absolutely exhausted and drained. One of the blankets was
picked up, wrapped around him tightly to try and block the cold. It was one of
those odd constants that never left; cold seemed to follow him like his own
shadow, sinking teeth of ice into his flesh every waking moment. No matter what
he tried he never could seem to warm himself up. He curled up tightly under the
fabric, feeling a tentative safety for the first time in a long while. All the
running and fear and paranoia was starting to melt, bit by bit, as he allowed
his eyes to close willingly. By the time Steve returned, he had already dozed
off, huddled against the arm of the couch with his back to the door; a small,
fragile sign of trust. It was the first deep, peaceful sleep he could remember
since he woke from stasis.

When he opened his eyes this time there
was no light, the space dark and silent, the reason for just why he was awake
unclear. Several moments passed before he realized he was staring into fabric;
the back of a couch, he determined. Unease breathed at the back of his neck,
but nothing seemed outwardly wrong around him. However, something still felt off.
His memories were slow to catch up with his awareness, but he pieced together
where he was soon enough. This time his return to consciousness didn’t come
with any overwhelming paranoia, just a faint acknowledgment of his surroundings;
it was a first for the soldier.

He hadn’t moved at all since falling
asleep, the skill of remaining completely motionless honed into a fine art. It
was an ability he’d possessed even before HYDRA’s conditioning; he half
recalled something about sniping. The downside was that he was now rather sore,
and he was sure the injuries he’d sustained earlier in the night had only been
compounded by his lack of movement. He’d slept on his right arm, which hadn’t
done his dislocated joint any favors. He would be sure to alert his new handler
to the injury come morning.

There was a momentary lapse before he
corrected his thought. Not handler, Steve.
The man was an odd sort of mystery in his head. He wasn’t a handler, wasn’t a
white-coated tech, wasn’t anything he was familiar with. Steve was Steve.
He was a strange exception in a world of ridged rules and protocols. Normally
such an obvious outlier would make him nervous, but Steve’s presence was
comforting and nonthreatening and achingly familiar.

Movement was difficult; now that the
adrenaline and shock had worn off he felt the full force of the pain. Every
muscle seemed to ache, a deep-seeded burn that spread from his skin to the
deepest parts of him. His prosthetic creaked and the servos whined pitifully,
the weeks of abuse and ill-care wearing at it. Getting into a sitting position
took much more effort than he expected, but now that he had a clear view of the
entire room he felt a little safer. The tentative feeling of security let him
will himself to take stock of his situation.

The room hadn’t changed except for the
light having been flipped off, but the darkness was of no hindrance. He could
see rather well at night, but whether or not that was inherent or due to HYDRA
tampering he wasn’t sure. Despite the fact that this place exuded a sense of
safety that he’d never experienced before, checking the perimeter and his
surroundings was so ingrained in him that he felt a compulsion to do it.

As he moved to get up, he noticed there
was a second blanket covering him. Or had been, before he sat up and caused it
to tumble off of him in a heap. Absentmindedly he reached out to pick it up,
wincing a bit at the metallic whine of his artificial joints and tendons.
Several of the plates were jarred out of place, clanking together unnaturally
and restricting his range of motion. Dried blood mired the reflective surface,
coming not from himself but from nameless HYDRA agents. As soon as he had
recovered enough to be effective, he had gone and destroyed every safe house he
knew of, killing every HYDRA agent he came across. He was going to destroy
HYDRA all on his own if it came to that; they were going to regret ever having
created him. He’d see to it.

“Mm, Buck?” the sleepy hum of
the Captain broke the silence, the soldier’s eyes cutting over in that
direction. He hadn’t even noticed the other man had placed himself in a nearby
chair, now-open eyes regarding him tiredly. Keeping an eye on me? Making
sure I don’t escape? The second thought made his brow furrow a
bit. No, that’s not right. He somehow
just knew that wasn’t why he had opted to rest out here instead of returning to
the bedroom.

The asset didn’t respond verbally, but
gave him a brief nod before he carried through with picking up the blanket. The
nervousness was once again settling into the pit of his stomach, the sort of
feeling he expected prey felt before a predator sprung from the shadows. It was
such an unfamiliar feeling, as he was usually the lurking predator in question.
He could hear Steve stretching and moving to get up, so he decided to remain
seated; he had a feeling the Captain would fuss if he tried to get up and walk
with his wounds.

“Feeling any better?” the
other’s voice was far too bright for it being so early in the morning. The
assassin just watched as he tapped at a phone, glancing to him after the screen
lit up. He took a moment to check himself mentally before he responded. His
metal fingers hesitantly relinquished their grip on the blanket, instead
wrapping gingerly around his shoulder joint, where the Captain had dislocated
it in their struggle.

“… arm hurts.” He mumbled
quietly, lacking the robotic, monotonous quality that had previously dominated
his voice. He knew that the Captain had seen the deep bruising and
discoloration around the joint, as the bullet wound was plastered in the middle
of it, but he was well aware that there was likely little he could do for it.
Even he wasn’t sure if it was just a dislocation, or if there was a fracture as
well. The frown that appeared on the other man’s face at his words was enough
to make the nervousness he was experiencing leap to the front of his mind.

“We’ll get it looked at, don’t
worry.” His voice was always so soothing, “But…” discomfort,
possibly even fear crept into the other’s tone suddenly, serving to heighten
the soldier’s apprehension. His gaze was at his phone again, tapping his finger
against it nervously. “… we can’t stay here, we need to get somewhere
safe.” The sense of urgency was contagious, it seemed. The hairs on the
back of his neck were on-end again, and the assassin was on his feet in a few
seconds.

“Buck, are you sure you’re alright to
be up and..” the glare he directed at the Captain was much more
threatening than he meant it to be, but he got his point across as the rest of
the man’s sentence withered in his throat. He wasn’t fragile, he wasn’t to be
coddled; he was a weapon that was damaged and malfunctioning, not broken and
useless. Weakness wasn’t tolerated, his handlers had made sure to drive that
into his programming.

“Give me a minute to get ready and
get you a jacket, then we’ve gotta move out.” Those were words the soldier
remembered and associated with. Location compromised, moving to
safety. It must be why he woke up; HYDRA must be closing in. It was
enough to make his muscles stiffen with readiness, not wanting to be taken by
surprise like last time. They wouldn’t have that luxury. Not again.

Emily also had packed some necessary stuff
earlier. She was standing in the middle of the room, with a backpack hanging
over her shoulder.

“Guys…” she whispered. “We don’t have much
time.”

Waiting was not in the Winter Soldier’s
repertoire, and instead of remaining still he was up and moving. The pistol he
had dropped earlier was retrieved, inspected and placed into his pocket. There
wasn’t a lot of ammunition left in it, but enough to be useful. He’d done more
damage with much, much less. Now that he was up he decided to do that perimeter
check he’d been planning on. Steve was doing something in his room, so he
avoided that room and checked every other one. His pass through the kitchen
produced the knife he’d left that first night, still sullied with the Captain’s
blood, and a worn sketchbook. There was a twinge of guilt in his stomach that
passed quickly as he placed the blade back into the sheath at his ankle. The
small book, likely the one Steve had been bringing to show him, was tucked into
his pocket.

The dull, aching burn in his muscles was
pushed out of his awareness; now that there was a clear threat to him all pain
was ignored. It was how he had been conditioned, trained and taught; pain was a
weakness and only useful for determining damage after a successful mission. He
hated to admit that he was nervous, but he was. He had the beginnings of
fragile trust in Steve, but this had the makings of a trap. Suddenly relocating
after arriving? Departing hours before the sun rose, when no one would ever
notice their passing? It was enough to set off warning bells in the soldier’s
mind.

“Buck,” the Captain’s hesitant
voice broke his thoughts, eyes cutting over to where the other man was peeking
in from the door, “Are you ready?” again with questions, again with
asking him things. It was still a strange and unusual concept to the asset,
used only to demands and orders. He responded only with a curt nod, taking a
jacket that the other offered to him. It was somewhat big on him, but worn and
soft and comfortable nonetheless. Nothing like the rigid combat gear HYDRA had
outfitted him with. In a way he felt vulnerable, missing the reassuring weight and
constriction of his body armor.

Steve had a small pack slung over his
shoulder, the contents of which the soldier didn’t know, and shield strapped to
his arm. It was clear, however, that they were likely not coming back, not for
a long time at least. There was no sentimental attachment to this place for
him, he didn’t have any sentimental attachments honestly, but he did know this
place and knew it was safe in his mind, so leaving it didn’t sit right in his
mind. He did know, however, that staying would end in certain HYDRA custody or
death.

Ushered out into the hall, the soldier
only moved when prompted by his new handler. No, Steve. His
senses were on alert, although still dulled and sluggish from the blood loss
earlier. The sleep and bandaging had improved his awareness a bit, although
even with his serum it would take a few more hours before he would be in a
condition he was comfortable with. He just watched as Steve tapped at his
phone, door pulled shut behind him. It was only after he read some text message
for the fifth time that he suddenly froze.

“Shit.” Now that got a reaction
out of the soldier. He tensed up and stood perfectly still, the tone of Steve’s
voice setting off warnings and alarm bells that something was catastrophically
wrong. His tone had been nothing but softness and warmth up until now; the
swear sparked just the ghost of a sensation in his head, of cold wind and the
smell of gunsmoke as he peered over a trench in some long forgotten
battlefield.

“We need to move. Now.”
the words spilled out of the blond man suddenly, a hand grabbing his right arm
without warning and tugging him down towards the stairs. Normally such an
unexpected action would have warranted a swift punch to the jaw, but the
startled tone in the other’s voice alerted him that something was very, very wrong. He didn’t resist, letting Steve
lead him swiftly down the stairs and towards a back door, the other man
mumbling the entire way about something about the text having been wrong.
Muffled voices—HYDRA,
Strike team—filtered through the walls from outside, formless
shadows visible through the frosted glass of the front doors.

Subtly was thrown out the window as Steve
kicked the back door open and bolted outside, the asset stumbling and fighting
to keep up with the jolting motion. The man had yet to let go of his arm,
guiding him through narrow alleyways and side streets in a path that seemed
predetermined. He didn’t know the plan, which was a source of anxiety in and of
itself, but Steve clearly had something in mind, so for the first time he—trust
was too strong a word—relied on the other’s decisions to get them
out of harm’s way.

HYDRA agents were all over, dressed in
varying uniforms of Strike and police and others he did not recognize. They
shouted as they tried to corner them, seemingly appearing from nowhere from
alleyways and cars and from behind objects. Steve did not engage them, instead
pulling him along as he ducked and weaved dizzyingly between buildings and
sleepy streets. He had a set destination in mind, the asset could tell, and
even though the sight of HYDRA angered him into considering pulling away to
fight, he knew it was too risky to separate himself from the Captain.

Unfortunately, HYDRA did that for him.
There was a sudden, jarring shout from one of the alleys they were about to
blow past, and before either could react the darkened space filled with
blinding light and a concussive sound. Flashbang. Steve
yelled something but the asset didn’t hear, the grip on his arm lost as the
other covered his ears. Even before the white left his vision, formless shapes
surrounded them as agents appeared to spring from the very walls to box them
in. Wordlessly, the assassin and the Avenger stood back to back, fitting into
formation as easily as if it was something they did every day. The pistol was
pulled from his pocket, knowing that even with little ammo it would be more
effective at the moment than a knife. There was a brief flash of familiarity in
his mind, but the situation around him drowned it out almost instantly.

“Drop your weapon and surrender the
asset, Captain Rogers!” a husky voice barked out, a dozen barrels of a
dozen guns aimed at them. He could feel Steve tense against his back, but so
vastly outnumbered and outgunned any outburst now would likely end in one or
both of them dead.

“… Steve.” He wasn’t sure just
why he spoke, or why his voice was softened and hinted with an accent he only
vaguely recalled, but he did. It was a sort of rash, sudden need to ground
himself in the present, to remind himself that the man behind him was indeed
the Steve he could so faintly remember. His statement, however, had an
unintended consequence.

“The asset’s compromised,” that
growling voice spoke again, “he’ll need to be wiped and reconditioned if
we’re going to salvage this.” That statement triggered an intense,
shattering terror in the assassin the likes of which he could not recall.
Broken memories of deafening electricity crackling madly, of being tied down
and unresisting and passive, suddenly swam in his mind and broke through his
calculating combat mindset. Without thought he pressed himself further against
Steve’s back, as if somehow he could hide from his own horrifying memories in
the other’s presence.

“Buck, it’s alright,” voice
hushed and gentle, the Captain spoke only loud enough for him to hear,
“You’ve got to work with me, we’re going to work together to get out of
this, just follow my lead.” It wasn’t worded as an order or command, and
as such disoriented the soldier for a moment, but that fragile ideal of trust
settled in to fill in the gaps and his only response was a slight nod that went
unseen. They could do this. “Emily. I’m gonna take their attention, you need to
run. If they will take us three, nothing will left.”

She nodded slightly and before the fight,
she ran toward the nearest window. She stopped in front of it, taking a look
back at her men. Steve was looking at her above his shoulder, he gave her a
nod, so she followed his order and jumped out of the window, disappearing in
the darkness of the night.

There was no warning for the HYDRA agents,
shield thrown and colliding with several and incapacitating them while three
expertly placed and near-simultaneous bullets downed three permanently. They
moved in sync, still keeping each at their back even after separating and
lunging at the ring of agents that surrounded them. The now-useless pistol had
been abandoned in favor for a blade, which was used to swiftly and efficiently
disable and kill two more agents before they could even fire off a round.

The resonant clang of the shield behind him let him
subconsciously track the Captain’s movements, even as he threw himself into the
tangle of agents in front of him. He used the knowledge that he was wanted
alive to his advantage, as he knew they wouldn’t dare try to shoot him at such
close range as it would likely irreparably damage him and they would lose their
prized asset. It couldn’t have worked better for him, as he was just as
comfortable and deadly dispatching a target at close range as he was sniping.

An agent was slammed against the nearby
wall, razored blade deftly sliding between neck vertebras to kill his target
instantly. Without a moment’s hesitation he was upon another, moving with all
the predatory grace of a hunting cat, throat slit and body casually dropped as
if it were little more than a discarded jacket. The remaining two agents in his
field of view turned and bolted, and had he been on his prior missions of
annihilating HYDRA installations around the city he would have pursued them
relentlessly, but now he barely acknowledged their escape. Instead, he spun on
his heel to where Steve was fighting, wasting no time engaging the remaining
agents that swarmed him.

His blood-sullied blade dipped into the
throat of a Strike member readying to shoot Steve’s back, a gurgled wheeze of
horrified shock the only noise that escaped before he was roughly shoved aside.
Sticky crimson soaked deep into his jacket and clothes beneath but little
regard was given to it; the horrors of his actions seemed as commonplace as any
daily act to him after decades of repetition. Another HYDRA infantrymen lunged
at Rogers with
a stun baton, but the soldier intercepted him, slashing with a precise stroke
that opened the man’s torso as easily as a zipper. He fell noiselessly into a
jumbled heap of blood and viscera at the Captain’s feet, a non-threat.

Soon only a few hostiles remained, mostly
stepping far back and firing as many rounds as they could at Captain Rogers.
The asset refused to leave the man’s side again, tucked up close near him in an
effort to deter any more firing, and to his dim surprise it seemed to work. The
agents backed away even farther, guns raised but triggers untouched, eyes
locked on them. He took the brief lull in fire to glance at Steve for a moment,
to assess his condition. He was on his feet, but blood had soaked his right leg
from a bullet wound to the calf. A slash from a knife tore through his jacket
and into his side, while red dribbled from his saturated sleeve from another
entry wound. He was standing, for the moment, but the soldier knew that even
with the serum the blood loss would catch him quickly.

Steve asked something, something about how
he was holding up or the like, but the assassin didn’t catch it. Instead his
attention was elsewhere when his eyes caught a brief flash of light from the
roof of a building two streets over. His heart fell into his stomach and his
shout of warning was lost to the rifle crack when the realization hit. Of
course, the bullet hit first, just not in the place HYDRA had wanted it.

The soldier had reacted instinctively,
kicking the back of Steve’s injured leg hard enough that he buckled. His sudden
movement meant the bullet, aimed for a kill shot on the Avenger’s heart,
instead struck and slid off the slant of his shield and hit his collarbone. A
second bullet, fired milliseconds after the first from a likely second sniper,
caught him across his already-slashed ribs, blossoming open as if it were a
grotesque flower. The strangled cry of shock and pain that left the man as he
crumpled to the ground snapped something buried deep beneath HYDRA programming,
and within a half-second he had grabbed Steve by his arm and pulled him into a
small alcove between two buildings. He heard two more bullets strike the
asphalt where they had been moments before, and knew that HYDRA was likely not
going to take Steve alive.

All thoughts of the remaining HYDRA agents
were abandoned at the sound of Steve’s raspy breathing, the assassin leaning
him against the building wall as to hopefully ease it some as he leaned down to
his level. Even though the shield had absorbed most of the energy of the round,
the wound was devastating. The bullet had shattered his collarbone, flesh torn
and ripped and blood dripping freely. A dribble of the crimson stained the
Captain’s chin, breath labored and choking and heaved in and out. His
lung’s been punctured, probably collapsing. The second bullet had
no doubt shattered his ribs, and the awful torn wound was jagged and blown
apart by the unimpeded bullet’s passing. It was a grim prognosis.

The sounds of the agents trying to regroup
from the attack were hardly registered, hands pressed to the man’s injury in a
desperate attempt to stem the flow of blood. A pained cough escaped him,
reddened mouth slackened open as he tried again and again to fill his lungs
full to no avail. “B… B-Buck…” he slurred wetly through the blood,
half-lidded eyes beginning to glaze over as unconsciousness loomed, “… got
t-to… get… a-away…” shock was setting in, body trembling under the
assassin’s hands, but he mustered the energy to nudge him with the shield in a
halfhearted attempt to push him into running. He wanted him to leave him
behind, to save himself from falling back into HYDRA’s control. The very
thought of it twisted the soldier’s stomach in a knot and caused his breath to
catch in his throat.

“S-Steve,” his
normally-controlled voice was shaky and small, fear filling every inch of him
as trembling, blood-stained metallic fingers brushed golden hair away and
cupped the Captain’s cheek to hold his gaze on him, “You’ve gotta hold
on,” his eyes began to sting as an unfamiliar heat and blurriness began to
build, “I-I’m not leaving you behind.” Something had woken up deep in
his mind, faint ghosts of memories of battles long past. Of fights in alleys
where both refused to run away, never leaving the other’s side. It was such a
strong emotion that consumed him that he couldn’t ever hope to fight it, and
strangely enough, he possessed no will to resist it.

Footsteps and barked orders behind him
drew him from his withdrawn, focused state. It was like a switch flicking in
his head, the sharp focus of combat and programming setting in, and within the
space of a breath he had taken the shield from Steve’s faltering grasp and spun
around, keeping himself between the agents and his injured partner. His vision
was blurred and his eyes stung fiercely, an unfamiliar wetness trailing down a
cheek, but he didn’t move from his defensive stance, rooted to the spot with
shield held solid in his metal prosthetic. The plates whirled and slid together
with a groan of protest, ready to lash out with the vibranium disk at the
slightest movement.

“Get away!” he snarled in a
voice so loud it startled the men, “Get away from him!” he swung the
shield at an agent that dared to approach, knocking him clean off his feet and
sending him tumbling. The sharp, ripping pain as his own shoulder wound tore
caused him to wince, but it was immediately stuffed down as he had much more
important things to focus on. Seeing their own knocked away so easily, even
while he was in such a state, caused the others to take heed and back away a
few feet. Even though his joint protested, he retrieved and hid a blade in the
palm of his injured arm, keeping it disguised behind the shield. If they got
close again they would be in for a nasty surprise.

“This is… unexpected.” The same
agent who spoke earlier piped up, rifle trained on the pair with deadly intent,
“Looks like the programming has decayed more than anticipated. General
Lukin isn’t going to be pleased.” That name was familiar, and struck a
fear like a dagger of ice into the soldier’s heart. He pressed himself back,
shield held higher in a desperate attempt to keep the agents at bay. Steve
moved behind him, whimpering in pain, and a moment later the former Soviet felt
his hand press reassuringly to his back in a wordless gesture of trust. It was
enough to steel his nerves, to dispel his own fear just enough to focus on the
agents who had chanced to venture further.

With an almost animalistic roar, he leapt
at the nearest agent, jamming the sharp edge of the shield into his ribcage,
crushing it like a flimsy can. He dropped into a tangle of limbs, and he used
the moment of confusion to swing at another, feeling the agent’s skull cave
under the impact. The shield was brought down on the neck of another agent,
while the knife in his right hand pierced the torso of one rushing at him. As
he swiveled to lunge at the seeming-commander he froze mid-strike, eyes wide
with terror, when he saw that another agent had a gun trained to the downed
Captain’s head.

“No!” the word clawed its way
out of him, shield and blade falling from his hand in a show of submission,
eyes wide with feral panic. “D-don’t do it.” He’d never demanded
anything from anyone, not in all his active years, but he was now. He was
scared, desperate and out of options, pleading like one of his victims to spare
the other man’s life. The commander’s gravelly voice broke into a laugh behind
him, but before he could round on him he felt a pinprick on the back of his
neck, followed immediately by a burst of warmth that spider-webbed through his
body. His knees buckled and vision swam, awareness growing fuzzy as he
collapsed to the ground. He gasped out Steve’s name, tried to push himself back
up, but he couldn’t even prevent his eyes from sliding shut a heartbeat later.
His hearing muffled, but the last thing he was aware of was that growl of a
voice ordering the surviving agents to take the both of them before everything
drained away into nothingness.

PLEASE, WAKE ME UP.

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WORD COUNT: 1300

SUMMARY: 

Tony has a nightmare.

WARNINGS: none

AUTHOR: Killer raccoon

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It was the quietest morning there’d been in
months, save the dull croak of the piano and the moaning of the floorboards
beneath the pianists tapping foot.

Tony stood behind the rows of white chairs,
stiff and unmoving, hands clasped tightly behind his back. Across the
quickly filling room, Bucky noticed him and attempted a smile, but immediately
his lips began to quiver and he turned down to look at his feet before Tony could
try to return the gesture. 

Bucky, the only one in this room who fully
understood Tony’s presence here, the only man who knew what had been going on
behind closed doors. Because Steve had insisted he know, had told Tony that if
he couldn’t trust Bucky, then what were they even doing?

Tony watched Sam slide in next to Bucky,
place a hand on the man’s shoulder and sit him down, and then Tony was alone
again. Something he hadn’t felt in years.

The more people filed into the room, the
more sullen the mood became. Natasha sat on the other side of Bucky, and Clint
next to her, and Tony’s throat tightened in anguish as even Nick Fury,
accompanied by Phil and Maria, made their way down the rows of chairs. It
didn’t matter if nobody had the time for a full blown ceremony: they made time. 

Sam had pulled him aside a few days ago to
assure him that he’d be welcomed with open arms, but Tony had his doubts, and
therefore kept his distance. He was somewhere deep in his own head anyway. He
didn’t even notice Pepper next to him, brows furrowed as she tapped furiously
at her phone, or Rhodey, dressed up in his navy blue suit, hands also clasped
behind his back, but in respect rather than anxiety. Tony knew he should have
been one of the men carrying in the… but of course he chose to stand
next to Tony, and in some lost part of his conscious mind, Tony appreciated
that. 

But when the music slowed and died and what
was left of the hushed conversations among the room was cut off, Tony was sure
his heart stopped. He was able to keep himself composed, lips pursed and face
blank, all of his muscles tensed to keep from shaking. However, when the first
two soldiers stepped into the room, shoulders straight and hats in their hands,
and Tony knew what
would be following them, he fucking lost it. His breathing shortened, his head
swayed dizzily, and before he knew it, he was busting through the side door
into the empty hallways, straight towards the wall to keep him right side up.
He pressed his forehead against the cool, brick walls, gasping for air. Luckily
he was in the back, so he hardly disturbed anyone. 

But of course, one man had noticed. One man
had dashed out after him, was now placing a hand on Tony’s shoulder, gentle,
but firm.

“Breathe." 

Both hands were on him when he wouldn’t calm
down, and he knew that they learned this in the military, he understood, but
with the steadiness of his voice, with the serum, Bucky sounded and felt
too much like Steve, all those restless, summer nights when Tony was kept up
and he had been there for him, and it made everything worse. He couldn’t get
air into his lungs, his eyes spun in and out of focus, and he trembled
violently beneath the other man’s grasp. And who the hell was Tony to Steve, to
be comforted by the dead man’s best
friend. It was absolutely unfair to Bucky, and Tony felt sick with
guilt and selfishness. He turned around, gently pushing Bucky away from him.

"I’m sorry,” He wheezed, and
Bucky was shaking his head like Tony had no reason to apologize, but he
absolutely did. 

Within the next few seconds, Rhodey was in
the halls, pushing Bucky to the side to get to Tony.

“Thank you, Buck, but I can handle
this.” He said.

“I don’t think you understand”
Bucky protested.

“The hell, I don’t understand.”
Rhodey snapped. “I know Tony better than he knows himself. I’m not stupid,
and I’m not blind.” He looked up to Bucky then, and his face softened
apologetically. 

“Please, you are the last person who
should have to do this. Go pay your respects to Steve. I’ll take care of
him.” He said. Bucky nodded silently and turned to leave. 

By then, Tony was catching his breath,
letting a warmth flood through him and calm his nerves, though his hands still
shook hard. 

“You knew?” He asked quietly, and
Rhodey, despite everything else, managed a smile. 

“You thought you could keep a secret
like that from me? I mean, honestly, Tony." 

Tony huffed, just then realizing how
foolish it was to actually believe that he had kept the relationship between he
and Steve from Rhodey. 

"He’s gone,” he breathed
suddenly, clasping a hand over his mouth in awe at what had just escaped, a
electric shock shooting through him as the words rang true, and then Rhodey was
pulling him into a hug, burying Tony’s face into his shoulder. Tony clenched
his teeth, refusing to cry, but breathed heavily through his nose, gasps
shuddering through his body as he held it all in, and Rhodey became the only
thing holding Tony in one piece. 

Steve was gone okay, and did Tony ever
fully appreciate when he was around? Did he take the time to let him know that?
Looking back, he knew it had always been a frantic, desperate rush of fumbling
fingers and clothes strewn across the floor. Tony always thought they’d have
time to take their time. 

Did he even ever tell Steve that he loved
him? That he was doubtlessly, unconditionally in love with him?

Did he even know at the time? 

Tony shut his eyes tight, held on to Rhodey
tighter in horror as his knees buckles. He could feel his heart wasn’t going to
hold together, could feel the world around him crumbling, and when he managed
to open his eyes…


 There was darkness. Tony blinked once,
twice, realized he was on his back. His hair, shirt, and the mattress beneath
him were all soaked in sweat. Tony shot up, the force causing an immediate
headache, and searched the room as his eyes adjusted to the dark. His heart was
pounding hard in his chest, fear in his throat as he chanced a glace at the
weight he felt against his hip. He sucked in a breath.

“Steve?” He croaked. There was a
small, groggy yawn and then two large, muscled arms that peaked through the
covers, revealing a half asleep, but definite Steve Rogers as he stretched,
shifted to turn around, and put an arm around Tony’s waste, pulling him back
down and against his own body heat. Tony’s sigh of relief came out as a choked
sob, and he pressed his nose into Steve’s chest in an attempt to muffle his
sudden sounds. However, that startled Steve completely out of sleep.

“Tony? He tried to sit up, pulling
Tony away from him and brushing his damp hair out of his face. "Tony, are
you okay?” He was pouting at him as Tony quickly regained control of his
emotions. 

“No, I’m not okay. I love
you." 

Steve stared at him, confused in his half
dream state, cheeks flushed with the heat of the summer night, hair sticking up
in a way that warmed Tony’s heart. 

And then he was kissing him, the slowest
kiss they’d ever had, and Steve kissed his cheek, his jaw, his neck, his
shoulder. Tony felt dizzy as Steve took his hand and pressed his lips gently to
his wrist, the palm of his hand.

"I love you too." 


My little treasure || Part I

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Teaser

WORD COUNT: 1261

WARNINGS: none

AUTHOR: Cass

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Bucky was
washing plates after dinner when He heard doorbell.
He wiped his hands and walked to door.
In open door Bucky saw young boy. It was Grant.

He
literally was a mini version of Steve.

He was Just
a short blue eyed boy with short blond hair, He was really skinny, just like Steve
before serum. He was holding his strap from bag tight in his hands
Bucky liked this boy, He wasn’t so bad but He really wasn’t happy to see him.
“Morning Mr. Barnes… Is Andrea home? I want her to go on a walk with me.” Grant
asked softly, trying to look over Bucky’s shoulder, looking for Andrea

Bucky
raised an eyebrow Now He really didn’t liked it.
“Yeah… Sure… She is in her room… I will call her. Come in and wait in living
room.”
Boy nodded and slowly went to living room. Grant knew Bucky very well, He was
his father’s best friend but Bucky still was scary. Big guy with metal arm.
Bucky walked to stairs “Andrea! Someone’s here to met with you.” He yelled and
returned to kitchen.

Andrea
slowly walked downstairs and blinked looking at Grant 
“Grant!” She yelled happily and ran to him quickly.
Grant smiled and hugged her tight
“Hey, I heard you are sick… what happen? Are you okay… I’m worried now.”

Andrea
smiled “Don’t everything is fine… I mean… Nightmares… they are back…. And… I’m
scared.” She said sadly and nuzzled to him.

Grant
sighed and hugged her really tight and stroked her back “Everything will be
fine… Maybe we should go on a walk? It will be good for you.” He said and
looked at her.

Andrea
nodded softly and looked at him “Daddy?! Can I go on a walk?

Bucky
looked out from kitchen and nodded looking at Andrea “Sure sweetheart.” He said
and looked at Grant frowning.
Andrea walked to Bucky and kissed his cheek “Thanks dad.” She said and then
grabbed Grant’s hand and pulled him behind herself.

In park,
Andrea sat on grass and sighed softly looking at the sky “You know… sometime… I
wish I could be normal…” She said quietly and looked at Grant. He sat next to
her
“Andrea… you are normal.”
Andrea smile and looked at her metal hand “Look at it… metal hand, who normal
have hand like this? I’m a freak… I feel like… the worst one..”
Grant blinked “Hey… and how I should feel? Look at me.” He smiled at her “I’m Sickly,
skinny, weak and My father is Captain America! The guy that is as big as your
dad, I look like my dad on his old photos… For me you are just unique, you
aren’t weird, scary or anything… just unique.” He said and took her metal hand
in his.

Andrea
smiled and hugged to him “Thank you.”
“You are welcome, now let’s go home, it’s getting late.” Grant said and got up,
Andrea followed him slowly.
During their way home They me group of girls that were always bullying Andrea.

“Hey There weirdo! Oooh! Look girls! one freak
found another one. Is he your boyfriend Freak?!” Leader of group asked looking
at Grant.
Andrea quickly hide her hand and looked down scared
“I asked you something freak!” Girl yelled at Andrea
“Hey! Leve her alone!” Grant growled.

Girl smiled “Oooohh… look He is a hero now.
Come on girls, let’s show him how it ends when you protect a freak with metal
hand.” Girl said and She and her friends attacked. Andrea tried help him but
girls without problem pushed her away.

After few minutes girls laughed “Let’s go girls…
they got their lesson. Better don’t try tell anyone.” Leader of group said to
Andrea and they all left.

Andrea quickly ran to Grant  “Oh my god Grant…” She said quietly and took
his face in her hands “Oh my god… you look terrible… let’s go… We will help you
in home.” Andrea helped Grant got up and took him home.


Bucky looked at them “What the Fu…. Heck happened
to him?” He asked when Andrea helped Grant sat on couch
“Just… just help him dad… please…” Andrea said and quickly went to find first
aid kit. She brought it to her father.

Bucky sighed and started take care of every
scratch. Bucky sighed sadly, it was like past. Well, it wasn’t Steve… but Grant
looked just like his father especially now.
After few Bucky looked at Grant “Okay…. I did as much as I could.” Bucky got up
from couch and walked to Andrea.

“Thank you, Mr Barnes… but you really didn’t
had to.” Grant said and slowly got up.

Bucky smiled and ruffled Andrea’s hair “Let’s
take your hero home, I’m sure his dad and mom are worried.”

Grant sighed sadly and nodded slowly “You are
right Sir.”

Bucky took both kids to car and took them to
Steve home.


It was small white house, Steve was sitting on
porch, waiting at his son to return home because it was getting late.

Woman walked to him and rubbed his shoulder. It
was his wife. Beautiful, blue eyed young woman with short blond hair “He is
with Andrea… I’m sure Bucky will bring him home.” She said softly to Steve

“Martha… I don’t care. You good know what I
think about her… Maybe Bucky isn’t Winter soldier anymore… but She can be. We
don’t know what they…” Steve stopped talk when he heard Bucky’s car.

He quickly got up form chair and went to. He
froze when he saw Grant “What the hell Barnes! What you little monster did to
him?!” He yelled.
Bucky frowned and looked at Steve, hiding Andrea behind himself.

“Dad… Don’t. She did nothing.” Grant said.

“I don’t care… I good know you gonna protect
your ‘Friend’. Go home now, Martha… take care of him.” He growled and looked at
his wife.

Grant quickly went to his mother “Mom… it’s not
her fault… The girls… I was protecting her.” Grant said. Woman nodded “I’m sure
you were… let’s go home…” She said and took boy inside.

“I hope you are proud of your girl Barnes.”
Steve said frowning

“She did nothing…” Bucky muttered looking at
Steve.

“Oh really… look at Grand… You saw what
happened? Maybe she is lying to you and Grant protect… this… little child of
Hydra.” Steve said pointing toward girl.

Bucky frowned and grabbed Steve’s hand “Don’t
you dare…. Call her that.” Bucky growled.

“Or what…. She gonna hurt me with this little
metal hand?” Then Steve could feel how cold metal hit him right into stomach.
Steve fell onto his knees holding his stomach tight.

“Not her metal hand… but my, Rogers.” Bucky
said “You think you are better? You changed a lot… and not in good meaning.”
Man picked up girl and sighed “I know that She didn’t did anything bad… She is
my girls.” Bucky smiled and looked at Steve over his shoulder “If for you she
is still a child of Hydra… than I’m still The Winter Soldier for you. Till the
end of the line…” Bucky laughed “I think our line ends here, pal.”

Bucky sat girl on her seat in car and then took
driver seat and drove away.

Steve growled when he got up “Fucker…” He
muttered and went back inside.


After few minutes Andrea looked at Bucky form
the back seat

“Dad…” She asked quietly.

“Yes, sweetheart?” Bucky asked and looked at
his daughter in the mirror.

“Who Am I…?” Andrea looked at him in the
mirror.


The chronicles of the winter || Part X

Part II  || Part III || Part IV || Part V || Part VI || Part VII|| Parta VIII

 || Part IX

continuation of imagine

Word Count: 3059

Warnings: smut, unprotected sex,
strong language, blood and injuries

Author: Beast

A/N: I’m incredibly sorry fellas for
a such long delay! I got a lot of stuff to take care of and tbh I wasn’t really
into writing Chronicles for some time. But now, with a huge thanks to my lovely lady and my friends, I decided to make this chapter. I hope you’ll enjoy it
as much as I when I was writing it. And here’s what I wanna announce: only two
chapters left. Chronicles will have 12 chapters in all. I hope you won’t mind
them to be a bit longer then ever before.
And for a smut scene, if some of you, my dear readers, would be interested, I
was listening to song made by talented polish vocalist, Kasia Moś. I leave here a link to this song, just in case
Enjoy! 🙂


Steve
had been asleep when he heard the heavy footsteps followed by the door opening;
at first he thought it might have been Emily, but then he realized there was no
way she would ever make that much noise. He had slipped out of bed silently,
shield retrieved from the bedside and brought into a defensive position. A
million scenarios ran through his head, none of them pleasant, especially once
the sharp scent of blood reached him.

To
say he’d been surprised when he saw Bucky in the doorway was an understatement.
He caught sight of the pistol the soldier held once he pushed the door shut
behind him. He’s
going to shoot me,
 had
been his first line of thought, and not a moment later he felt extremely guilty
for immediately jumping to that conclusion. His body had eased a bit the moment
the pistol was dropped, his own shield lowering and eventually dropped as well.
There was only a moment’s hesitation before he edged forward, closing the gap
between them. He stopped a few yards away, not wanting to make him feel
cornered.

“Bucky?” he spoke softly, tone gentle and
light. His heart skipped a beat when the soldier’s head lifted and looked to
him, but his hope died when he saw his face. His eyes were greyed, dull and
empty and so very tired. The second he saw his legs buckle Steve was right
there, catching him before he hit the ground. He’d expected him to struggle, to
lash out and fight, not to just lie there limp in his grasp. It’d scared him
more than when he’d found his throat clasped in that metal hand. The amount of
blood covering his friend was terrifying; who knew how much he could spare to
lose in his state.

It’d
taken him all of two seconds to get the blood-matted hoody off of the assassin,
exposing a torn shirt and a devastating wound on his shoulder. He dimly
recalled seeing a similar wound on a soldier Bucky had picked off of his back in
the war. A sniper in the city was alarming, but not as surprising as he would
have liked.

“D-don’t do this to me, Buck” Steve was
practically begging, fingers numbed with shock pressed against the wound to the
soldier’s back in a desperate attempt to stem the bleeding. His other arm
gently held him up, cradling him against his body as he tried not to dissolve
into fearful panic.
Is
Hydra after him, or is it Robrax?,
Steve thought to himself, trying to
calm down.

Steve put as much pressure as he dared on the wound,
suddenly very conscious of his strength. Bucky looked so delicate like this,
and he wasn’t sure if the bullet had caused a fracture.
“Emily!” Steve yelled. “Em! I need your help!”

Redhead woman stepped into the room and was about to
say something, but she only covered her mouth with hands.
“Buck…” silent whisper left her mouth as she quickly got to her knees besides
him. “Oh God, Steve, what’s with him!?”
“He was shot” Captain said simply, looking around. “I need something, like
material.. We need to stop the bleeding” he ordered coldly.
Girl nodded slightly getting up. She ran to the bathroom and took two towels
from the hangers.

Minutes seemed like hours, but eventually the bleeding slowed. Steve scarcely
cared that his clothes were now stained with it, just relieved that the mortal
danger was now diminished. All towels were completely soaked with Bucky’s
blood.
Captain didn’t waste any time trying to bandage the wound. Getting up and
leaving him was not an option, not even for a moment, so he cannibalized his
own shirt into a makeshift wrapping. He removed the soldier’s shirt first and
then folded up some of the fabric and pressed it to the injury. The bullet’s
possible presence in the wound was dimly acknowledged, but he didn’t have the
skill or tools to safely extract it. He would treat it proper later, but for
now his main focus was to keep the bleeding at a minimum. He broke down his
shirt into strips of fabric, knotting it together and using it to secure the
fabric pad to the wound.
“Steve…” Emily was whispering on and on, her soft hand placed on his shoulder.
“Oh my God… We can’t lose him.. I can’t..”
“Hush” Steve threw her a brief glance, to take care of Bucky’s wound shortly
after.

Throughout the rough medical treatment Bucky hadn’t so
much as twitched. Steve could feel him breathing, and a quick check told him
his pulse was stable, but slower than he would have liked. The serum they had
injected him with might not as been as effective as his, but it was doing a
fine enough job keeping him alive.

“You’re doing great, Bucky” Captain was
fully aware that he likely couldn’t hear him, but it made him feel a little
better to encourage him. He was sure he hadn’t heard a kind word directed
towards him in decades, and the thought made his heart ache. “You’re gonna
be fine, Buck, I promise. Me and Em will take care of you..” his voice
hitched slightly, hands trembling as he gathered the assassin up into his arms.

He considered moving him to the bedroom but decided
against it. Instead he placed him carefully on the sofa, onto his left side so
that his breathing wouldn’t be obstructed and his wound easily reached.

“Emily, can you gather up some medical supplies, some
blankets and a clean shirt, you can find it in my bag” blonde man looked at
redhead woman.
She obeyed. After some moments she came to the little living room and handled
stuff to Steve.
Then Steve hit the light switch. A small lamp flickered on, and the scene it
revealed drew the blood from his face.
The floor was smeared with so much crimson that he doubted the stains would
ever lift. His spare key was abandoned on the floor, near the pistol that Bucky
had dropped earlier. The ruined clothes he’d removed still lay on the floor
next to the towels; he’d be sure to dispose of them carefully. If Hydra really
was who had hurt him, then they would no doubt be looking for any sign of him.
The light cast a horrible realization of just how awful Bucky looked as well.
Now without his shirt, Steve could see every little bruise, every wound that
covered the assassin. His stomach turned in disgusted horror at the painful
past each scar, each little mark told. Old injuries from knives, bullets and
who knew what else were etched into his skin, telling a history devoid of peace
and filled with violence. 

A washcloth was produced along with a bottle of
disinfectant, wetting the fabric with it before he went to work on some of the
smaller wounds. He was silently thankful for his unconsciousness, as he was
sure there would be no way to do this had he been fully awake.

The soldier twitched slightly under his fingers as he
worked on an old, infected wound on his side, curling into himself before
letting out a pained whine. The former SHIELD agent hesitated at that, unsure
if he should continue. If he was feeling the disinfectant that meant he had to
be regaining consciousness. If he woke up with him hovering over him, covered
in his blood and with no memory of how he got there, well, Steve wouldn’t blame
him in the slightest if he lashed out. He bit his lip, thinking for another
moment, before he continued to clean the wound, taking care to be a bit
gentler.

“It’s okay, Buck, I promise…” he tried to
soothe, even if he couldn’t hear him yet. “You’re safe, you’re safe,
you’re safe…” he repeated it like a mantra as he finished with the wound,
placing a pad of gauze over it and securing it with a little medical tape.
He didn’t dare touch the bullet wound now that he was capable of feeling pain,
and he was also rather sure he’d need specialized help with it.

Blood
has been cleaned away, Steve dried his hands.

Emily was sitting next to Bucky, holding his hand and stroking it gently.
“It’s them, right?” she asked simply, not paying an attention to look at Steve.
“Hydra?”
He cleared his throat, living the room.
“Probably.”

Steve
went to the little cluttered kitchen and he opened a fridge, pulling out a
bottle of water. He reentered the room and unscrewed the bottle.

“We
need to keep him hydrated” he mumbled, getting on his knees next to the sofa.

Emily
took the bottle and slowly lifted Bucky’s head up. Then she carefully helped
him to take a simple sip, then another and another.

“What’re
we going to do now, Cap?” she asked, her long red hair has fallen on her face.

“I
don’t know… I don’t know…” he sighed sadly, rubbing over his temples. “But it
seems we are not safe also. If they had attacked their OWN SOLDIER, it means
they won’t have any problems to try to kill us either” he shrugged slightly.

Emily
nodded in silence, still stroking Bucky’s palm.

“I
knew.. From the very beginning.. That it will end like this. I hadn’t any other
choice, Steve” she whispered and her voice turned into little weeping. “I had
to join them… I HAD TO..”

Steve
got up from the floor, putting hands at her shoulders.

“No
one of us had” man muttered.

Two
days had passed very quickly.

It
was a really rough time for Steve and Emily, because they had to look after
Bucky and look for a safe hiding place at the same time.

Emily
was spending her time with former assassin while Steve was looking for a good
place and transport.

And
he managed to found something.

From the outside this house looked old, but wonderful.
It has been built with cypress wood and has walnut wood decorations. Small,
squared windows have been added to the house in a mostly asymmetric way.
The house was equipped with a large kitchen and one bathroom, it also had a
comfortable living room, two bedrooms, a small dining area and a roomy garage.
The building was square shaped. The house was fully surrounded by overgrown
wooden overhanging panels.
The second floor was smaller than the first, which, in combination with its
placement, creates an original look.
The roof was high and slanted to one side and is covered with black roof tiles.
A few large windows let in just enough light to the rooms below the roof.
The house itself was surrounded by a modest garden, with mostly grass and a few
small trees.
It was a perfect place to stay for a while until Bucky’s wounds will be healed,
and Steve’s too.

Emily was slowly getting ready to take a bath.

Looking at her pale, slim body covered with a shirt and fitted leggins, she
felt a mix of sadness and distaste. She hated herself for things she had done
to people.
“I hate you” she whispered toward her reflection in the mirror. “I want you to
die, tæve.”

Suddenly she heard the door being
opened and shut quickly. Her heart beat faster as she could hear steps crossing
the corner.
She wanted it for so long… And she couldn’t deny it.
Since the day she helped him with his wounds, she was craving him. So badly.

As she finally saw Steve’s smirking
face, she let out a loud gasp.
“You shouldn’t be in h..”
“Shut up” he interrupted her by pushing her against the wall and locking his
lips with hers. He could feel her resist at first, but he used his tongue to
open Emily’s lips which was when she gave in and kissed him back. They were kissing
each other hard now as his hand squeezed her boobs hard.
After some time, he finally let her breathe. Still gasping for air, she stuttered.

“W-what are you doing?.. What are WE doing, Steve..”
He grinned at her and gave her a soft kiss while taking off her leggins.
“Taking what’s mine, baby.”
He slipped her shirt over her head and threw it on aside, where it’s quickly been
joined by his own shirt. She was still leaning against the wall, still a little
hesitant but definitely turned on as Steve can tell from her glowing cheeks and
her rushing eyes.
“Steve…” she bit her lower lip, looking hardly into his eyes.

She good knew it was one of the
moments, when he wasn’t himself at all. Now he was Captain Hydra, not kind
and polite Steve Rogers. Sometimes it was just like this, that he was loosing
his personality for several minutes or a bit longer. And he was turning into a
mess. She hated such moments, but she had to deal with it.

And now, with that thick sexual tension in between them, she wasn’t even about
to complain. Because she wanted him. She wanted Steve to fuck her senseless
until she would be begging him to stop. She simply needed that.

He grabbed her hand and guided it down his abs into his boxers. As she felt his
hard cock, she let out a loud gasp and pull hand back quickly, but immediately
regaining her confidence, she slided hand down again and firmly grab his cock. She
noticed just now that he had undone her bra while he began to tease her hard
nipples with his warm tongue, circling around and flicking against them.
She began to stroke his cock slowly, as she looked into his eyes, mumbling.
“We should stop, what if HE come in here?”
He laughed quietly, quickly shove his hand into her lacy panties and thrust two
fingers into her already soaking wet pussy. As she started to moan loudly,
Steve immediately covered her mouth with his other hand and whispered into her
ear.
“Can you shut the fuck up now, baby? Unless you want Bucky to catch us now.”

He slipped Emily’s leggins off and turned her around,
pushing her front against the cold tiles before slapping her ass and rubbing her
wet pussy from behind. Steve saw that she was dripping down her leg, so he kneeled
down behind her and start kissing his way up her inner thighs, licking up every
single drop on the way.
Having reached the top, he circled his tongue around the outline of her little
pussy, causing even more wetness. Steve could feel Emily’s body shivered as he
started eating her out.
He digged his tongue deep into her and moved it up and down slowly but firmly. Simultaneously,
his thumb rubbed across her clit, as he heard multiple soft moans escaping her
mouth.
“Steve,
I’m gonna cum.. she moaned.
He stopped licking immediately
and came back up to her face.
“No. You’re gonna cum when I want you to, understand?”
She
suddenly looked worried.
“He must be
wondering where I Am.”
Steve slapped her ass and shoved her against the wall hard.
“You should be worrying about me, nothing else. I’m gonna fuck you now and
you’re gonna be a good girl.”

He took off his pants and threw them into the corner.
As Emily took his cock into her hand and started to get on her knees, he
grabbed her by the neck and pulled her back up, holding her face right in front
of his.
“None of this bullshit, baby.”
He pushed her into the corner between the cold tile wall and a sink and lifted
up one of her legs.
Steve stood in front of her and quickly pushed his hard cock into her dripping pussy
without wasting any time.
Emily’s arms locked around his back and as he started thrusting himself into
her, her nails digged into his butt, causing him to thrust even faster.
As a loud moan tried to escape her mouth again, Captain quickly suffocated it
by kissing her hard. He could feel her body losing control with every increase
of pace. All her sense was his scent, his sweaty, muscular body pushing against
hers, his throbbing cock pounding and stretching her tight little pussy,
hitting her inner walls.
Steve covered her mouth once more as her moans turned into screams.
He felt her body
shivered, then clenched hard around his cock for a second before shaking
uncontrollably again as she bit one of his fingers that was covering her mouth.

Steve pulled out his hard cock and once again Emily tried to get on her knees
to make him cum with her mouth but she almost fell over, still having very
little control of her own body.
He
grabbed her quickly and picked her up.
“Did I say we’re
done?”
She looked a little scared as she saw the burning hunger in Steve’s eyes. He
grabbed her hair and pulled her to the sink, bending her over the counter. He slapped
her butt hard, before he shoved his thick cock into her again from behind.
This time was much quicker.
Steve immediately started to pounding as hard as he only could, while pulling
her head up by her hair so she could see him fucking her in the mirror.
After roughly several seconds, he felt the familiar shivering and clenching,
this time causing him to cum inside her pumping pussy as well.
FUCK,
STEVE!
” she couldn’t hold it any longer and screamed Steve’s name
loudly, not caring if Bucky will hear it.
Steve waited till he felt that every drop of his cum has been shot into her,
then he pulled out his cock. He turned her around, kissed her hard one last
time and smiled. “Good, baby. Now I know what Bucky meant telling me you’re the
rapture” blonde man rushed to put his clothes back on, then he simply left the
bathroom, fastening his belt, leaving Emily shaking and naked.

Trembling all over her sweaty body, she looked after him, then she quickly
closed the door to bathroom and got under the shower.
She felt his semen dripping down her thighs.
Emily allowed the cold water to stimulate her mind and body, pulling her out of
the blissful lethargy after a fulfillment in arms of Captain Rogers.

THE SILENT SHOUT || PART I

A/N: my
best friend has been diagnosed as borderline. Currently I have an occasion to
spend a lot of time with him, I am also a witness of his anxiety and panic
attacks, of his rage outbursts and incertitude, which is overhelming him on and
on. Looking at him one day a thought came up to my mind: if BPD can be caused
by some traumatic experiences, maybe Bucky was suffering to similar symptoms
also. After all things Hydra had done to him, I suppose he might likely suffered
from this disorder. That’s why I decided to make a little series of bpd!Bucky. The story, all names, characters, and incidents
portrayed in this production are fictitious. Based on a true events.

Words: 1624

Warnings:
self harming, panic attack, bpd, angst, bpd!Bucky, sad!Bucky, depression,
blood, graphic description of violence, swearing

Author: Rouge

It has been a week since he moved to your house.

From the very beginning you were more worried than
happy about that idea of Steve. Despite your positive attitude towards Bucky,
you good knew he may cause a lot of problems.

But on the other hand you understood what Steve has
been going through for last couple of years. Notorious uncertainty, sadness,
sorrow. He was a mess and you wanted to do anything to comfort him.

When you heard that Shield finally found Bucky, alive,
you felt a deep relief. It meant the end of Steve’s mental pain. It meant that
since then everything could have been seen only in a bright colors.

When Steve came to you with his idea of taking Bucky
to your common house, you didn’t even try to hide your dissatisfaction. A lot
of arguments had taken place then in between two of you. But finally Steve
managed to melt your heart and you said yes.

However, keeping the good of your child in your mind,
you ensured Steve that if something wrong will about to happen, you will move
out, taking baby with you. He agreed on that little deal without blinking.

You had to reconcile with a fact your man was sharing
his love at three, not only at two… It obviously was hurting you, sometimes
Bucky seemed to be Steve’s number one, but you had to accept it. They were
friends since childhood, they grew up together, they were fighting together,
arm to arm. In such situation you could do nothing. You didn’t want to hurt
Steve by your listlessness at Bucky’s problems. You knew that man went through
a lot in his life. Like Steve, Bucky Barnes was only a pawn in that brutal
game. Like everyone of you…

When you met him for the first time since 5 years, you
were shocked.

He looked incredibly good, some bruises still could
have been seen at his muscular arm and neck, few scars on his collarbones, a
swollen jaw. But he looked good as for someone who has been tortured for
months.

But something had changed and you easily felt that.

His eyes.

There were no more happiness in them. That beautiful
blue eyes of his, which were glowing with a mischief sparks formerly, now were
dark and bereft the will of life.


“Y/N! Can you hold the door please!?” Steve screamed
aloud.

You got up from the leather sofa in living room and
quickly went to open the door. As soon as you did, you saw several boxes and a
bit of Steve’s bangs above them.

“Do you need help?” you asked amicably, opening doors
as wide as you could.

“No, dear, just hold on them” Steve said. Slowly and
carefully he passed through the threshold and put boxes down in the hallway.

You were observing him for a while, then you sight
fell on someone standing in front of the door.

James Bucky Barnes.

Standing there dressed in a large black leather
jacket, dark jeans and grey shirt, with a black hat on his head, Bucky slowly
raised his chin and looked briefly into your eyes.

“Hi, Y/N” he gave you a small smile, a little wince
appeared on his face.

“Bucky” you smiled happily, whispering his name and
taking step back to make a space for him. “Come in, come in.”

Hesitantly he walked inside and then you closed the
door behind him making sure they were locked.

“Follow me” you gave him another smile and you led him
to the large living room.

It was the biggest room in Steve’s house. One wall had
windows and door leading to a big balcony. The room was painted in light orange
mixed with lime. The floorboards were made of pear tree wood that had a nice,
warm shade. There was a brownish carpet with an abstractive pattern in the
middle of the room. Steve had fitted your common living room with stylish furniture.
There was a big dark brown leather corner sofa on the left. It had light brow cushions.
In front of it, there was an ebony coffee table with sculptured legs and edges.
There also were two brown armchairs. The table were placed on the carpet. Next
to the sofa, there was a tall lamp which metal parts were coloured patina gold.
Opposite to the sofa there was a big plasma TV standing on a stand similar to
the coffee table. Below the TV there was a black DVD player. Right to it, an
ebony case with clouded glass doors could be found. There also was a small
showcase where you put some books, films and wine glasses. Above the sofa there
was a wide painting showing a stunning sunset on a seaside. The windows were
decorated with a short white delicate curtain and fantasy yellow drape. On the
windowsill, there standed a flowerpot with an orchid. Next to it there was a
picture frame with a photo made on your vacation in Dubai. The room was really warm and cosy.

“Do you want to drink something?” you asked politely
when Bucky sat on the sofa.
“Coffee, please…” he looked at you and took his hat off, placing it next to
him.

You walked to the kitchen and put a kettle on a stove.
Suddenly you felt a pair of familiar strong hands at your slim waist.

“Thank you…” Steve whispered directly into your ear,
leaning down to kiss your cheek from behind. “It means a lot not only to me,
Y/N.”
“I know, Steve” you gave a slight nod and slowly turned your head towards him
so you could reach his rough lips and kissed them.

Steve hummed happily at the unexpected kiss, his grasp
got tighten around your waist.

With an agile movement you slipped out of his arms,
pecking his lips.

“He is my friend too, Steve” you said, pouring a
boiling water to the cup with black coffee. “It was obvious I’ll say yes in a respond to your idea” you
shrugged slightly. “I was and am still worried about Sebastian, our child.” you
lifted your chin and sadly glanced at Steve.

He rubbed his chin.

“I know… But he is working on those… Outbursts..” Captain sighed deeply. “Okay. I will move boxes
to his room. They are still blocking the passage through the corridor” he let
out a quiet giggle before he left kitchen.

You took a cup of coffee and came back to the living
room.

“Here you go” you put the cup on the table, smiling at
Bucky and taking a seat in one of the armchairs. “So… How are you, Buck? You
look magnificent” you smirked warmly, crossing your legs.

“I’m doing good lately” he took a sip of coffee,
humming in an approval of the bitter taste. “You’re a real coffee master, Y/N.”

You laughed shortly.

“Oh, thank you! Charming as always, Buck!” you winked
at him.


He woke up in the middle of the night.

For a while he was laying motionless on his back,
glaring up at ceiling.

Then he slowly got up. When he was walking towards
bathroom, he could feel a chill at his bare legs and torso. He had only his
black boxers on.

He entered the bathroom and carefully closed the door
behind him, trying not to make any sounds which could woke you and Steve up.

Bucky
stared at the scars lining his right wrist, observing it as if from a great
distance. Other days he would count them and their meanings, one for every time
they’d hurt him. Every time he hated
himself for lying to people he loved. But it was so easy, too easy for him to
promise them that he had taken the antidepressants. 
And now, feeling the scars beneath his fingers, Bucky could picture it so
vividly that he could feel each sharp intake of breath, each tear that slid
from his pale skin. As the bathtub faucet ran cold water over his neck and the
blade glowed crimson beneath his clumsy fingers, his head would tilt back, his
mouth open in silent agony but also perverse joy, because he knew that he
should not be feeling this, doing this, enjoying this as he did. And his anger
exploded with each swift movement of the razor, his pain that so often
destroyed him coating the floor of the tub in sickening contrast to the pale
tile. 
He remembered kneeling on this same floor, attacking his biceps until he could
take it no longer and fell back, exhausted, against the bathroom cabinet. It
was few weeks ago, when Steve agreed to doss him when he escaped the hospital
run by Shield.
The urge was so strong that he clenched his fists to keep from reaching for the
blade. It was so tempting. So painfully tempting. Bucky thought desperately of
his wrist again, aching to feel sadness for the delicate skin that he so
readily destroyed. He forced his fingers to stay on the shining tiles, but so
eager was he for the pain.. And he cut the skin once again, observing like a
little stream of redness was pouring down, mixing with a cold water at his
feet. He felt like his skin was burning under the touch of a cold razor, he
felt a bit dizzy because of the blood which was flowing out of the cut.
Bucky chuckled nervously, but it turned into breathless weeping.
He stayed here as long as he had to, until the urge was gone. Because he had to
fight this and he knew that. Because of the five words he kept repeating in his
mind, kept vowing, swearing to himself. 

I won’t draw blood tonight. 

You are not alone || Stucky x Reader

Summary: After your family’s death you found new way to relieve all your bad emotions… even when you know it’s a bad thing to do.

Word Count: 1764

Warnings: self harm, blood, deatch [mentioned]

Author: Cass

You lived
with Steve and Bucky for almost eight years now. During this time many bad
things happened.
For example you would find out that Steve returned from mission almost dead… or
you would be a witness of one of Bucky’s panic attack. Then watch him how He
slowly close himself on Steve and you. You always were positive, You believed
in boys and you were stronger for both of them.

But one day your life was ruined by one phone.  It was exactly two weeks ago.

~Two Weeks
ago~

You were
cooking dinner for boys, Y/F/S was playing in background when you happily
walked around in kitchen. It lasted until you heard phone. You thought that
maybe it’s Steve or Bucky, So you quickly went to pick it up.

“Hello?” You
said happily.
“Good morning, miss. Is it… Y/N Y/L/N?” Voice asked. It was man, but not your
Steve or Bucky. Right now you were really scared.

“Yes… It’s me…
but something happened?” You asked and started shiver softly.

“My name is
Alex Radu I’m calling from the Police… I don’t have good news from you miss.”
He said.

Your heart
stopped, you had no idea what to do. You were worried, scared. You wanted just disconnect
the call and ran away.

“W…. What happened…”
You asked but your voice just broke.

“I’m sorry
Miss… But I need to inform you that. Your parents and your brother are
dead.”

You felt
like you gonna pass out there, You only shook your head and tried stop tears “B-But…
But… How… What… What happened…?”

“Truck hit
their car… all three Death on the spot. I’m really sorry miss.” Man said

Next thing
that you remember was sitting on floor crying like a little child.

Steve and
Bucky entered home smiling as always but their smiles faded when they saw you
on floor and smelled burned food.

Steve
quickly put his shield down and went to you when Bucky went to kitchen to make
sure that nothing is on fire.

“Doll… Hey
doll… What wrong? What happened.” Steve asked and sat next to you. He gently
wrapped arms around you and pulled you into hug.

Bucky
quickly joined and also hugged you, He kissed your head and took your hand in
his metal hand “Y/N you know you can tell us.”

You only
looked at them, your eyes were red and a bit swollen “M… My parents… and… Tom…
They… THEY ARE DEAD! I LOST EVERYONE I’M ALONE!” You got up and yelled with
tears on your cheeks. Then you just sat back down.  Bucky and Steve looked at you in shock, You
never yelled at them.

They both
hugged you again. Steve kissed you head “Shhh… Doll. You are never alone… You
have us.”

“Exactly,
little one… You aren’t alone.” Bucky said and kissed your shoulder.

It took a
lots of time to take care of everything. It was hard… Hard to know that you are
alone.
But boys were with you no matter what, they supported you whole time.

~Now~

Maybe all formalities
were hard but the most hard thing was to hide your pain and sorrow. Boys were
sure that you are fine. That they helped you and you feel better but little
have they know.

One night
you woke up from nightmare, you looked around in bed, Steve was on your slept calmly,
wrapped in blanket.
Bucky on your right, He was hugging his pillow, muttering something in his
sleep.

You looked
at them sadly and got up from bed, trying your best to not woke up one of them
(Or with your luck both)

You walked
to bathroom and slowly unbuttoned your shirt. You took it off and looked at
your darkest secret.

Your whole
arm was covered in small and a bit bigger cuts, some were already old and some
still fresh but this wasn’t only place… your whole shoulder, some places on
your chest and even your abdomen was covered in the same cuts.

You started
to self harm yourself not long after that news, You had too much inside you.
Too much pain, too much sorrow… Too much sadness. You don’t wanted die, because
you couldn’t leave boys alone but you wanted do something that could help you
with this emotions.

It helped
you but it forced you to move away from boys. Making love, showers, swimming
together. This all just ended. You knew that boys were worried but they
respected your decision because they think that you are really deep in Mourning

You sighed
softly and looked at yourself in mirror, you looked terrible but it was your
only way to relief. Steve and Bucky would never understand you.

You took
out small razor blade from cabinets, you looked at yourself and found some
places that weren’t marked by metal yet.

You took
deep breath and put blade on empty spot. Cold feeling made you feel better but feeling
of cutting skin made you even more happy, you whimpered at pain and looked at
mirror.

You could
see the line, it become more red with every second then blood started run down
your skin, soft smile appeared on your lips, you bite them hard and started
make more cuts.

After few minutes you looked at yourself in
mirror than you started cry.

You cleaned yourself and made sure to put bandage on your fresh wounds, you
calmed down, dressed up and returned to boys but you forgot to completely clean
your “Crime place”


At Morning
when you still were in bed Bucky was in bathroom and Steve was in kitchen.

Bucky
looked into cabinets and blinked when He saw that some razor blade were missing
as well as bandages.

“Steeevee?!
Did you maybe used my razor blade? Or bandages?!” He yelled.

Steve went
to bathroom and looked at Bucky “Do I look like person that use them? “ He
asked frowning softly.

“No… but
they are missing and only I use them in this house.” Bucky muttered.

Steve
rolled his eyes “Maybe you used them and you don’t remember this?”

Bucky
sighed “Steve, I’m old but I don’t have Alzheimer.” He growled “Maybe Y/N used
them.”

“Yep!
Because our girl needs to use your razor blade and bandages.” He said and
looked at him.

Bucky
sighed sadly “You know… I don’t like one thing. They disappear almost every day…
both things, nothing else… but today I found this.” He said and showed Steve small
white towel with stains of blood “And I’m sure it’s not yours.” Bucky looked at
Steve worried “It’s also not mine… So, if it’s not mine and it’s not yours than…”

“Y/N..”
Steve said worried, looking at his friend.

Both of
them went to bedroom, Steve sat on bed and gently kissed you cheek to wake you
up
“Hey, doll. Sorry that we wake you up but We need to ask you something.”

“Hmmm…” You
muttered and opened one eye to look at your boys.

Bucky showed
you towel “I found it in bathroom… Do you wanna tell us something?” He asked

You quickly
woke up and sat up “Um.. I… I cut myself yesterday. I think I forgot to put it
in basked… I’m sorry boys.” You said and made your best fake smile.

Steve and
Bucky looked at each other, they didn’t believed you but they decided not to
press you.

Rest of the
day was calm but Steve and Bucky watched you, trying to find something. All
they could see was your problems with moving.


Since this
day both were checking everything. Razor blade and bandages were disappearing
every day and you had bigger problems with moving.

One night when
You were sure they are asleep you got up and went to bathroom to start your
small sick “ritual”
Boys watched you as you left bedroom
“I don’t like it…” Steve whispered
“Let’s follow her..” Bucky said and quietly got up from bed.

They both
followed you to bathroom, Steve slowly opened door.
You were in front of mirror, without your shirt. They looked at your body in
shock.

“Y/N!”
Bucky said in shock “What… What…” He said and looked at you.

You slowly
turned around and looked at them scared “Steve… Bucky… I can explain… I just..”

“Don’t even
say a word. We want see you in living room in a minute.” Steve said frowning
and wet to living room, Bucky followed him.

You could
feel tears in your eyes they had to never find out… never.

Steve was
walking around living room nervous, Bucky was sitting on couch watching him “Dude
calm down.
Steve wanted say something but then He saw you walking down the stairs.

You looked
scared at Steve and sad a Bucky.
Bucky patted his legs “Come here, doll.” You smiled at him softly and sat on
his laps. He stroked your cheek and kissed you gently. Steve sat behind you and
took off shirt from your shoulder, He gently kissed it.
Both looked at you with their big puppy’s eyes “Y/N why? Why you did this to
yourself? Why… Why we know nothing.” Steve said sadly.

You looked
at them and told them everything.
Steve and Bucky were shocked.

Bucky took
your face into his big hands and looked into your eyes
“Listen… We know it’s all hard but even now, you aren’t alone. You have me… you
have Steve and all your friends. We all were so worried that you become so
closed on us. Y/N we two love you too much… you know how it kill us… that… that
you do such a thing to yourself.”

“He is
right, doll. You are important to us. We love you and We will do everything for
you. We and friends… just please don’t hide stuff like this from us, okay.”

You looked
at them and started cry “I promise… I won’t do this again… n-next time I… I
will talk with you or Bucky.”

Steve and Bucky smiled “Good girls.” Bucky said
and they both hugged you tight.

~Few
months later~

You felt
much better. You wounds healed.
You good knew that boys are always with you.
Boy and all your friends, Everyone was making their best to make you feel
loved.

You lost
your real family, but now all your friends and your boys were your family. They
never let you forgot your parents and brother but they also never let you feel
alone or unloved.

This was
the most important to you were loved and you felt happy again.


Gif: Not mine, this time I haqve no idea where I found it.

A/N: Hey guys! It’s Cass here. I wrote this short story to show you all something. So… As you all know, I’m Beast gf. The thing is that this is Distance
relationship. For a long time I thought that He is fine, that He only have some
problems in work and that’s all but a day ago… He showed me what He did to himself.
The thing that I saw was terrible.
He also told me about his terrible thoughts… thanks god Me and rest of team
were able to pull him away from those thoughts by this small story, I want to
show you all that no matter what happen, you always can find people that will
be ready to support you and try to help you. That you are never alone. You need
to trust your friends or family, if not then than you should find someone who will
listen to you and try help you.


Take care guys and remember, no one is ever alone.


Gif: I have no idea. I just found it on my computer.

“YOU SHALL NOT PASS!” || BUCKY ONE SHOT

Words: 1314
Warnings: a little bit of cursing
Summary: Bucky wants to take a flight to Bucharest, unfortunately
at the airport there are problems because of his metal limb. Sam and Steve need
to calm their friend down, but it all goes wrong..
Requested by: anonymous
Gif: x

Author: Beast

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The terminal gate had a
large sitting area with the generic airport rows of chairs that were stuck
together, some of which were already filled with a mix of waiting passengers, a
few of them cheerfully optimistic while some looked irritated. The wide, glass
windows afforded a great view of the planes outside.

Bucky was sitting at
the chair, his legs crossed nicely as he was checking his phone and email.
He cursed and checked his watch.

„I’m gonna kill ‘em” he
grunted under his breath.

Standing up to stretch,
he looked around the terminal gate and noticed that the number of people had
dwindled. Bucky resisted the temptation to lick his lips, a nervous
habit that he’d never lost.

He spotted Sam and
Steve several minutes later.

“You both are late.
AGAIN” Bucky crossed his arms over his chest. “I’ve been waiting for fucking two
hours!

Steve approached Bucky
and put his large hand at man’s shoulder.

“I’m so sorry, Buck.
There was a huge traffic jam” blonde said in a soft voice, trying to calm his
buddy down.

Bucky only rolled his
eyes.

“Fine. Can we go now? I
don’t wanna miss a flight”.

Steve nodded and
pulling out his documents, with Sam and Bucky by his side, he went to the airport
check-in.

When their documents had
been inspected, guys went in the direction of security’s machine to check upon
metal stuff in their luggage.

The closer they were,
the more stressed Bucky was.

“Steve, shit, I won’t
pass it, ya know..” Bucky gently pointed at his left arm, carefully covered by
a grey hoodie.

“Easy, Buck, we’re
gonna make it” Steve patted his friend’s back, trying to give Bucky his
support.

As soon as the trio
stopped in front of the machine, they gave their bags to one of the guards to
let them check it.

After a while, the tall
man asked Steve to go through a metal detector.

Steve went through it
without any problems and as soon as he did, he turned to gave Bucky a look.
He knew his friend was a bit terrified.

Sam also went through the
detector without any issues.

And then it was Bucky’s
turn.

“Sir?” the tall guard
looked at Bucky with a suspicious gaze. “Is everything alright? You can do it
now.”

Bucky nodded nervously
and after several deep breaths he slowly stepped through the machine.

As soon as he did, the
detector started to beep like a crazy, signaling presence of metal with flashing of a
little red light.

Another security guard approached
Bucky and started to search him down.

“Pockets are clear” he
said to other man dressed in an uniform.

It was until guard
touched Bucky’s metal arm through his hoodie. Man frowned and glared up at
Bucky.

“Sir. We need you to
pull up your sleeve, please” guy said slowly, looking carefully at Bucky.

Barnes sighed deeply
and gave a brief look to Steve, who only nodded.

Bucky slowly rolled up
his sleeve, revealing his metal limb.

Two other security
guards came to check upon Bucky’s metal arm.

“Uhm.. Sir.. Is that
real or fake?” one of men, an older dude with glasses asked politely, blinking
few times.

Bucky hesitated and as
annoyed as he was, he mumbled quietly.

“Real.”

Guards gathered
themselves in a little circle, whispering something among each other.

“I knew it’ll end up like
this, Steve” Sam leaned to blonde man and chuckled softly.

“Shhh, Sam, not now”
Steve raised his hand to give his friend a sign to be quiet.

Bucky was still
standing in a place. He felt like an animal caught in a snares. Feeling glances
of other people, who were looking at him out of curiosity, Bucky growled
loudly.

“Ekhem. Shall we?” he
gave an anxious look to the older guard.

Man nodded and took a
deep breath.

“I am sorry sir, I am afraid
we cannot let you through with that metal.”

Bucky blinked and
instinctively looked at Steve with an imploring glance.

“I have to go with my
friends” Barnes felt like an idiot saying this. “We have a flight to Bucharest.”

Was he trying to
explain himself?!

Steve approached them
and smiled gently.

“Yes. He’s with us. We
have very important meeting there and we can’t miss this flight” Steve has shown
his ticket to guards. “Please.”

The older man shook his
head.

“I am sorry sir, it’s
the main rule and we have to obey it.”

Steve was about saying something,
when other guard cleared his throat.

“Sir” man looked at
Bucky, “is there something you can do with this… metal limb?”

Bucky blinked and shook
his head.

“No. Don’t think so, for fuck’s sake..”

“Oh yes, he can!” it
was no one else but Sam who stand next to Steve. “Buck, you can reattach it.”

“Oh, for sure, little
fucker!” Bucky growled aloud, causing the guards gave him an odd glances. “Ya
know I can’t do it now!”

Sam giggled.

“Easy, man, trying to
give ya some idea” Falcon shrugged with a cheeky grin on his lips.

Oh, how much Bucky was
hating that grin!

It caused his rage
increased within seconds.

“Fuck you, Sam!” Bucky
blew a hit in Falcon’s shoulder, but Sam blocked his hit.

Guards immediately came
in between two men to separate them from each other.

“EASY!” the older man
shouted. He turned his face to Bucky. “Is there any chance for you to reattach
that metal limb now?” he asked.

“I’ve been telling you
that no! For fuck’s sake, are you deaf, man!?” Bucky jerked, trying to free his
hand from grasp of security guards.

Falcon only laughed,
looking how frustrated Bucky was.

“You can try to put
your hand up in the air and go through that machine again!” he laughed from his
own joke. “Maybe it’ll work, huh?”

Steve punched Sam’s
shoulder, making an angry face and narrowing his brows.

“Sam, stop, don’t make
it worse!”

But Falcon’s comment
made Bucky yelled loudly.

“Fuck you, Wilson! Why
are you such a cunt, huh!?”

Sam smirked again,
laughing hardly.

“Because I love to piss
ya off, Buck!” he chuckled.

The guards were
thinking for a while.

“Well.. Maybe we can
try to wrap your limb in some material..” one of man suggested.

Steve nodded eagerly.

“Let’s give it a try,
men.”


Few minutes and outbursts
of anger later, Bucky’s arm was wrapped in a large white piece of a material
guards have found in an janitor’s room.

Steve was standing in
front of Bucky.

“Relax, take it easy” Rogers instructed his
friend before the next attempt.

He made a place for
Bucky and gently pushed him ahead.

Sam was standing next
to the guards, awaiting for the event development.

Bucky walked through the detector once again, but he
didn’t succeed. Again, the machine started to beep.

Steve just knew it won’t end properly as soon as he
spotted like Sam took a step ahead in the direction of Bucky and like he was spreading
his arms.

“Go back to the shadow, Winter Soldier! YOU SHALL NOT
PASS!
” Sam intoned with a deep voice, trying to sound like Gandalf from Lord of the Rings.

Before Steve barely could say something, Bucky simply
jumped to Falcon and after a while both men were tussling on the floor.

“How dare you, little fucker!” Bucky was yelling,
strangling Sam a bit.

Wilson was blocking each move of Barnes and after a moment
of fight, he managed to kick Winter Soldier off himself.

When Bucky was laying on the ground, gasping for air,
Sam crawled to him and punched him at the shoulder, choking himself with a
laughter.

“I am sorry, man!” Sam rolled at his back, Bucky did
same. “I just had to do it.”

Bucky growled, but after a second he was laughing too.

“Fucker” Bucky playfully punched Sam’s shoulder. “I
hate you.”

The chronicles of the winter || Part IX

Part II  || Part III || Part IV || Part V || Part VI || Part VII

|| Parta VIII

continuation of imagine

Summary: Steve’s mission went wrong… Very wrong.

Word Count:

2194

Warnings: Blood, injuries

Author: Beast

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Since their common evening, Emily hasn’t spoken with
Bucky at all.

He saw her few times. They passed each other like a
ghosts at the corridors of the complex. Everytime when Bucky wanted to ask the
woman, what exactly has changed between two of them that they couldn’t even
talk for a while, Emily was simply passing him by, don’t even looking at him.

He easily could feel that everything has changed.

Deep inside he knew he shouldn’t have been doing that.
He shouldn’t let her seduce him, it just couldn’t end well.

Bucky’s contact with Steve also has been restricted.

Their supervisors seemed to do everything to separate
men from each other.

Bucky could also feel kind of a distance, which has
built up between him and Steve.

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Another week has passed and Bucky confirmed himself in
a premonition that something was wrong.

While he was looking for Steve, he heard a
conversation between two of the guards in canteen.

“… with her” one of them said simply, drinking coffee.

“I would give everything to be at his place at the
moment” second man chuckled. “She’s pretty hot.”
“Of course she’s” guard who was drinking the coffee stretched his back. “Rogers is a fucking lucky
dude, isn’t he?”

“Don’t ya remember? He’s not Rogers anymore. They said he’s called Captain
Hydra now” older guy shrugged.

Bucky frowned, listening to this little conversation.
He realized that Steve has to be outside the complex. And… Was he with Emily?
Have they had a mission? But Steve would tell him… Why he didn’t?

Bucky, however, felt a cold shrink in his heart.

EMILY. She also went away without farewell. Without
single word. Why both of them were treating him like that?

He couldn’t find an answer.

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One day, Bucky has been taken to the small room at one
of the lowest levels of the complex.

There was three man awaiting at him. Two doctors and
no one else but Aiden Black himself.

“Good morning, soldier” man in a suit smirked
viciously.

Bucky didn’t say a word, he simply took a seat in
front of the man.

“Why are you so silent, soldier?” Black pretended a
concern.

“Where’s Steve?” Bucky simply asked.

Black raised his mouth corners in a haughty grin.

“He left. He has more important things to do instead
sitting here with you” man said.

Bucky snapped his head to face Aiden Black again.

“Liar” Barnes gasped loudly. “Steve’s my friend. He
wouldn’t…”

Black smirked again.

“Funny” Black mused with a sick smile, getting
dangerously close to Bucky’s face, “wasn’t that exactly the same thing that you
said the first time when Hydra found you?” he laughed harshly. “Face it,
Barnes. Steve Rogers’ dead. Now he’s the Captain Hydra and he’s working for us
and only for us” man in suit got up from his seat and walked slowly around the
room. “Nothing can bring him back” Black finally stopped behind Bucky’s back
and he put his large hands and Winter Soldier’s shoulders. Black also leaned
down and whispered directly into Bucky’s ear. “And as I suppose he’s having a
lot of fun with your Em.”

The last statement was like a sharp blade of a knife
stabbed into Bucky’s chest.

Bucky responded with spitting in Black’s smirking
face.

Of course, as always when he wasn’t behaving like they
would wanted, he was greeted with violence, but that didn’t matter.

“Now, get some rest, soldier” Aiden growled slowly,
wiping flecks of Bucky’ blood of off his hands. “We have work to do.”

When Black left the room, Bucky yelled aloud, hitting
the table in front of him with his metal fist.

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Evening had long since fallen, the
chill of night picking at the edges of his meager jacket as he silently made
his way through the quieting city. Captain Hydra was walking, passing closed
shops and tracing streets he didn’t know.

He had a mission to do and he didn’t want to let his
supervisors down.

Steve had to kill a director of some organization
named Robrax. It was kind of a pharmaceutical industry enterprise. Hydra was
willing to do anything, just to overtake some researches results. Steve only
knew they have wanted to make a new biological weapon.

He knew he should be careful, because, following the
information he got, it seemed that other organization has wanted him for their
own businesses.

Being in a deep thoughtfulness, he easily got at the
terrain of the restricted area.

The building was oh so large. White walls and glazed
doors were giving that real estate more dignity then he thought in a first
moment.

With a knife in his hand, he quietly slipped into a
large building. He sneaked unheeded next to the guard’s place and he headed
directly into the office number 10, located at the second floor.

Taking a staircase, he reached the floor and when he
checked that no body’s there, he slowly stepped at the corridor. He went along
it until he found a door with a gold numbers on them. Steve opened them and walked
inside. Immediately he noticed the man he was looking for.

Dressed in a black suit, guy was sitting in the
leather chair, making some notes. Fortunately for Steve, man was facing him
with his back.

Captain Hydra walked over to his target and as quickly
as he could, he put his palm at man’s mouth to cut over his throat in the next
second.

It didn’t take long for man to bleed out.

Steve, as soon as he made sure man’s dead, he left the
room, putting his knife back into his pocket.

He also easily managed to leave the building.

It was first time when he killed someone because of an
order. Deep inside the last degraded ounce of his morality was trying to
convince him that he was making a huge mistake. But he pushed those thoughts
away.

He walked slowly along the street, heading to his
apartment, which Hydra has rented for him.

The barking of a dog jarred him from
his thoughts, body suddenly tense and eyes, hard as steel and just as cold,
scanning his surroundings for any threat as he stopped in his tracks. His knife
was produced from his pocket, not as large but just as deadly in his capable
hands. 

Another noise caught his attention. Footsteps,
ten feet behind to the right. His mind was just methodical and
calculating. Fingers tightened around the handle of the combat knife, although
he showed no outward signs of realizing he was being approached; to any
passersby it merely looked as if he was staring off into the jeweled skyline.
The darkness would either be a great hindrance or a welcome advantage, but only
time would tell..

Click. The sound of
the safety switching off of a pistol was all the prompting Steve needed. Moving
with a speed unexpected in his depleted state he spun around. A great blaze of
light and concussive sound filled the street, the weapon discharging as Steve
plunged his knife deep into the chest of his would-be assailant. In that
quarter second of movement he had searched, located and struck, the metal blade
deftly gliding between ribs and into a lung. The air filled with the sharp scent
of copper and iron as blood poured from the wound.

Steve quickly realized it was one of the guards from
Robrax.

The haphazard discharge of the weapon
had blasted a round into the sidewalk, the sound of it no doubt alerting every
person within a two block radius. I need to
escape.

The man collapsing into a pool of his
own blood, not dead but not quite alive.

If there was one there had to be
more, he thought, and they had to be coming for him. He made it two steps
before he heard the crack of a sniper rifle, echoing off some far-off building.
The next few seconds blurred together, but he remembered being knocked off his
feet, air forced from his lungs as he hit the brick wall of the building next
to him, knife clamoring from his hand. Heat blossomed on his back, a burst of
wet crimson that trickled down his spine as a bullet planted itself squarely
into his right shoulder blade. The choking cry of surprise that escaped him
startled him.

The pain hadn’t hit him yet, but his body felt like
ice. His legs were sluggish underneath him as he struggled to his feet, bolting
into an alleyway as he heard another bullet slam into the wall behind him. It’d
been a low shot, as if for his leg. They want me alive.
The thought filled him with a sick dread as he realized that they wanted to put
him back on his leash, or worse, put him down so he couldn’t spill their
secrets, although he had no secrets to tell. At least, not as he was now.

Shouts of men filled the street. “Down the alleyway!” and
“He’s getting away!” among other things he couldn’t catch. The pain
was starting to filter into his awareness, starting as an acidic heat that
slowly built in on itself. His heart was pounding, lungs heaving, as he tried
to lose the guard’s team in the maze of back alley streets. He needed to get to
the apartment.

As he rounded a corner, two guardians spotted him,
shouting loudly to others. A swear hissed under his breath, narrowly avoiding
another bullet aimed for his legs. His reflexes were slowing, he could feel it,
his strength draining from the wound the harder he pushed himself. A pistol was
produced from his pocket, only two rounds fired with the same deadly precision
he had used to change history numerous times. The first man dropped in a heap,
not even getting the luxury to realize he had been hit. The other’s ribs popped
wetly as the bullet tore open his side, letting out a ghastly cry as he tumbled
to the ground and didn’t get back to his feet.

Without a moment’s hesitation the Steve was gone, vanishing into the
darkness like the ghost he was before more of the guard’s team could arrive.
Rain earlier in the day had slickened the streets, helping to hide his trail of
blood as he snaked his way through the sleeping city. He had no idea how long
he was running and barely had any recollection of where he was going, his body
operating almost entirely on instinct by the time he reached that familiar
building. His running had slowed to a staggering shamble, forcing his legs,
which he lost feeling in about three minutes ago, to climb up the flight of
stairs.

His breathing came with difficulty, his limbs heavy and blood like ice.
The worn clothing he had been wearing was soaked through with his own blood,
which still bubbled from the sniper’s bullet.

The door to the second floor apartment seemed like a nearly
insurmountable obstacle. His glassed-over eyes darted from the knob to the
floor, then to a small, out-of-place planter of tiny flowers. Barely a murmur
of thought crossed his mind as he nudged it with his foot, exposing a key. He was
too exhausted and in too much pain to question just why he believed there would
have been a key there. The key was retrieved, clumsily inserted into the lock,
and the door opened without protest; he could have kicked it open or picked the
lock like last time, but he didn’t have the time or strength to attempt it.

With a soft clink of metal the key fell from his trembling fingers to
the floor, shakily standing at the threshold taking great, heaving breaths. His
vision was growing blurry and his hearing muffled, but after a moment of
hesitation he stepped inside, pulling the door shut behind him, the click of
the lock oddly comforting. Movement in front of him, down the narrow hall, and
he knew he wasn’t alone. The pistol was still clutched in his left hand. He
tried to take another step but his body had had enough; the pistol dropped to
the floor, abandoned, as he tried to steady himself by pressing that palm to
the wall.

Something was spoken to him but he didn’t catch it,
gaze lifting to where he’d seen the movement earlier. Someone was standing a
few yards away now. He didn’t need to hear to know who it was. Breath was
inhaled sharply, words attempted but failed.

Emily Vandom. 

His whole body was shaking; it felt like the world was
collapsing in on itself all around him. Underneath all the pain was a faint,
lingering disappointment. Pain washed his thoughts away, a low whimper in his
throat betraying the fact he was injured. He was going to go down, he felt it,
and not a moment later did his right leg buckle, his whole body collapsing with
it. He fell into something warm and yielding, not hard floor like he expected,
but he had no time to ponder it as the darkness closed in on him.

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Imagine:
Iron Man
kills Captain in front of Bucky’s eyes.


Bucky froze motionless. His heart stopped for a short moment. His blood turned into an ice.

Only thing he has heard was a familiar voice. But was he able to recognize it under all those emotions?

Tony Stark was standing on shaking legs, looking ahead.
He watched as Steve slowly sank on his knees.
“..I’m sorry..” Tony rasped. “I’m sorry, Steve, I didn’t know I fired the repulsers…” his voice was trembling as he spoke.

Steve let out a soft groan, indicating that he is still alive. Before Tony could apologize again, he has been pushed away from Steve with a strong force. His suit hit the wall behind him, and it took him a moment to adjust his coordination. When he looked up, Bucky was glaring at him.

“I’m so…” Tony tried to say, but his breath was knocked out by a strong punch, directed at his arc reactor.
Bucky has been driven with an anger.
He punched Tony with his cybernetic arm again, causing the suit to bend inwards. Bucky let out a growl, then he drove his hand into the arc reactor with more force. Bucky kept his metal hand digging into Tony’s arc reactor, crushing it. Tony tried to push Bucky away, but he failed.

“Bucky…” it was nothing more than a whisper.

Barnes, shaking all over his bpdy turned around and walked to Steve who’s laying on the ground. He knelt next to his friend, taking a hold of his hand.
“Steve” he managed to say.
Bucky’s gaze slowly slipped at Steve’s torso. There was a hole caused by a hit of an energy stream.

Bucky turned his face, automatically closing his eyes. He knew exactly how it meant to end..

“Bucky…” Steve whispered again, hia voice became yet weaker then it was a moment before.

A huge stain of dark blood slowly spilled around Captain.

Bucky felt a touch of cold hand at his unshaven cheek. He dared to look down, straight into his friend’s eyes.
He saw how Steve was waning slowly.

“Till the end….” Steve was cutted off by a cough.
“… of the line, pal..” Bucky whispered, nuzzling to Steve’s hand.

And then that last moment came.
Steve’s eyes have widened for a second, he also tried to take a breath, but he only gasped for the air.
He squeezed Bucky’s hand and after a second his eyes have slowly shut down.

Bucky was looking at Steve for short second and then he bursted with cry. Not hesitating about blood, he took Steve’s body in his arms.
“NOOO!!!” he squalled loudly, letting warm tears flew down over his cheeks.

It took him few minutes to calm down a bit.
He places Steve’s body back on the ground as gently as he could and he slowly got up.
Bucky was covered in a blood and dirt, but he didn’t mind.

He turned himself to face Tony.
“You killed him.”
His voice was so cold.

Stark, who was still motionless, has swallowed before he spoke.
“James…”

But Bucky looked into Tony’s eyes without a single shadow mercy.
“Now there’s no one who would stop me” Bucky said. He seemed to be in a different place with his thoughts. Bucky slowly lifted his chin, his eyes met Tony’s eyes. As raged and unstable as he was at the moment, he managed to say one sentence.
“Your time finally has come.”


Author: Beast

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